I think I just had the last bit of hope for humanity I had left completely destroyed. I genuinely wanted to help someone and in return for that I had my feelings played with. People keep pretending they care about me and then find the best way to hurt me. I just wanted to help, I didn't expect anything in return, but I was happy when I thought I could make a friend. But that was never the case. I can't think at all right now and I'm really struggling to find the words to express what I'm thinking. I spent pretty much the entire day crying and I just want to throw up. I don't get why people need to be so cruel. The past couple of years I had people be cruel to me so often and I thought maybe I could trust someone and let them close to me at least once but I was wrong. And it's not like my childhood was any better. I was in therapy long enough that this shouldn't be happening anymore but it still does. If anything I feel like therapy only helped me see more clearly how cruel other people are to others a lot of the time and nothing about it makes me want to have anything to do with people anymore. I really don't know anymore. I feel like I really tried. But this is all a bit too much for me. There's either something deeply wrong with me or with the world. Either way I really don't want to be alive anymore. I don't think I'm capable of fitting into this society. Sorry for the blogpost, sorry for bothering people on here.
better to become okay with being alone
>>42669879being completely alone is the same as not fitting into society thodoesnt really help OP, being a complete outcast means you will die pretty quickly
>>42669866I often feel the same way op. I'm sorry someone did something like that to you. I just avoid people as much as possible now.
>>42669866Is this frieren?
>>42669866readd me pls
>>42669866i’m sorry for everything and playing along with office being awful pls readd me and let me be your friend. i’m sorry i didn’t mean to play with your emotions so badly i really did want to move on from office and be yours. i’m dysfunctional and this not a reflection on yoh at all. being invested in me like this is not a good idea please be my friend and give yoh love i can in anyway im sorry things are the way they are. pls readd me and talk about this
>>42669866i’m sorry i didn’t see this sooner i was avoiding looking at catalog bc the big spider picture
>>42669866this is what happens to a lot of troons. society doesn’t like us and if you don’t have a lot of luck you’ll end up completely isolated. most people think it’s funny to treat us like shit.
>>42669866i was a poor bet to gage how you fit into society my actions and what i think are not a good reflection of that at all. im beyond a damaged non functioning person. you are far far beyond me and an angel ik it was you posting the shock pad dog and yeah that’s literally me i’m addicted to being treated like shit one of our earlier interactions was me sobbing with a bloody nose over someone i’ve never seen saying the most awful things imaginable to me pls let me give you any care i can i will forever if you let me
i really really hope you are okay. goodnight fren i’m soory for everything
>>42670459lol if you really are the person op is talking about and they’re telling the truth then you are a piece of shit.
>>42670319being a troon is like being a chris chan level lowcow without the fame or idiots willing to send you money to sit on your ass and be a lolcow. The isolation shouldn't surprise anyone
>>42670489i am
>>42669866Your sea monkeys need you nona
>>42670294>i really did want to move on from office and be yourslmao you can’t stop playing with her feelings can you?
>>42669866I have been betrayed a lot of times too nona and I can understand how you feel. I don’t have any real advice tbhon. I think it’s understandable to isolate yourself after having those experiences. I’m sorry.
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>>42669866Hey, this is A. please message me back as soon as you can. I’m sorry I didn’t see it earlier I was sleeping.
