The last time this question was asked it went (relatively) well so, would you like to share how things are going?
>>42761855My older brother has no idea i'm boymoding but we're on really good terms even if we only talk every few weeks. It's scary since I know if he found out he'd go crazy.
>>42761855we broke up around a year ago and I still think of him a lot, I’ve been getting more comfortable moving on and talking to other people in the past week. I’m worried if I’ll ever fall in love with someone again. Heres hoping a guy or girl out there makes me feel safe and loved sooner than later. I hope all the anons reading or replying to this thread are happy with their favorite person
>>42761855she didn't even remember my birthday
>>42761855she never has any time for me, because im not one of the important people in her life. it's not her fault. she's just so busy, and has so much going on in her life, she has so many friends, she has roommates, she has a family. i don't have those things. We have a normal, uncomplicated friendship, but for her i'm one of probably a dozen people in her life like that, and for me she's my only one. It's okay, it's not her fault. It doesn't help that I don't drive so she has to find time to come get me out of her very busy schedule. She says once I get a car and can come over on my own we'll probably see eachother a lot more often. I really hope that's true. Maybe she'll start responding to my texts too. when we do see eachother (once every month or two lately) it's really great. but im always the one reaching out to her.
>>42761855Honestly? Future seems bright. I secured enough money to get a couple months of hormones. Everyone at my job seems to tolerate me. I went in today just to do something else (wasnt on shift) and my coworkers got excited. Found a really good laptop for a decent price. My brother has some nice paying side work for me. My sister is coming around to my girlmoding.
>>42761976hopefuel
>>42761855its going great! we are each other's best friends but we don't treat each other obsessively outwardly and it's allowed me to work on those feelings without having them fed or taken advantage of. i still have extremely complicated feelings about him (splitting and such) that are obscenely stalker-y but it's overall a very good relationship
>>42761855i havent had an actual fp in a year my old one is still my friend but we kinda just exist within each others vicinity now after i accepted hed never wanna fuck me
They're leaving to visit family for a few months, which they do every winter/early spring, but this is my first year experiencing that as their girlfriend. Part of me is looking forward to some weekends all to myself, but I can already tell that I am going to be touch starved in a matter of days. I should try to get out and make other friends in the interim.
>>42761855they're gonethey left meI'm alonenobody will ever fill their place because I will always be alone
>>42761879....oh, this was supposed to be about partners...
>>42762359tbf this is 4chan; could be both
>>42762359Favorite Person is a BPD thing, its an all encompassing obsession, usually romantic but it can also be friends or family
>>42762398yeah thats how i interpreted the op. i feel like how i feel towards my fp transcends romance or whatever even though romance can definitely be used to describe part of it
>>42761855i havent talked to my favorite person since november, i broke up with her in may of last year. every day i think about her and cry once a week. she apologized for what she did, but it was just saying she thought she was doing the right thing. i wish i didnt have feelings for her still but she's my only love. only i suffer for it
>>42761855Me and grandpa are on good terms, idk how to tell him i'm a tranny. I don't have the heart.
>>42762879My parents made me cut off contact from my grandmother for the last 5 years of her life to spare her the realization I was a tranny. I'm not going to tell you what you should do, but just know that not telling him will carry its own flavor of regret in the end.
>>42761855Lost my favourite person to suicide and haven't found a new one
>>42761855she's the only reason i've not killed myself. she loves me. i love her. probably helps it's a mutual thing.
>>42761855he doesnt care about me and i have to initiate everything and it pisses me off and i just wanna talk to him so badly but he doesnt care abt me. i daydream abt when we were close all the time. but those times are gone now. its been years and i think abt him everyday and try to message every few weeks so im not too bothersome since ik he doesnt care anymore. but fuck. im obsessed still
>>42762939That's gonna be basically impossible since i live in a multigenerational house with him and grandma, plus the law of my country forces me to present female for a year before approving my SRS, meaning that boymodding is effectively banned. It's all so tiresome.
>>42761855My THICC trans GF is at my place RN getting ready to leave tomorrow from an extended sleepover. The first two days were great, but I became really anxious that she was still here today. We've argued before about my requirement for space. I can't live in my small place with anyone for a long time.I want to tell her that I want to be with men more. I love her but I really want to be with a man. I fear that she'll be violent towards me when I tell her or harass my mom. My GF is really a bully.t. Weak gay guy
>>42761894I've been there. It feels like such a childish thing to get upset over but it still isn't a great feeling
>>42761855ghosted and spent the last several years having a mental breakdown and i take estrogen now
>>42761885Are you the boymoder anon with a religious ex bf
constantly having a breakdown every week over whether if she really loves me back or actually sees me as a dude and then immediately folding whenever she shows the slightest bit of kindness towards me and forgetting my breakdowns happen and it usually cycles in a loop . I'mreally pathetic i know
>>42761855Oh no contact on bad terms, pretty classic, i still think theyre a great person, idk when the devaluement stage is coming, also i'm pretty sure i'm the worst evil to them, i've been obsessing about a 4chan comment on a will wood thread where a skinwalker that stole all their music from someone and liked will wood was described (i only liked one song jesus), and i did in fact steal l their music and mirror all their hobbies and behaviors, but all that aside, what's really bothering me is that anonymous person, described on an anonymous board with hundreds of people, was called a rapehon, but my retarded delusional ass thinks that was me, and thinks this im being called a rapehon, but also idk if i'm evil enough to be hexxed. It doesn't matter tho, cuz all hexxes bounce of me and turn to blessings to the senderSo, theyre glorious light has stayed with me despite it being a year. I hope to fuck i can just get over it, at least before my final days coming up.Also everyone ive talked to says mirroring is normal, but my mirror magic is definitely talking it to an extreme, i'm not gonna mirror people againAlso also, the red flags were right there!!! Jesus how many times does a toxically insecure and dependent person have to say, "i think im manipulating you" "i think your manipulating me" and "oh god your leaving me this time" also its funny i looked back in the chats before i deleted my account, and the love bombing was so blatentAlsoalsoalsoNo contact was so valid, like even aside from the attempted manipulation, i remember the first boundary being set was if i ever started doing a bunch of drugs and not taking my med/leaning into mania, it would be no contact, so like, fuckin truthAlsoalsoalsoalso, imma regret making this post so hard lmao. Im being the opposite of vague. I can't wait to get an antique gun, they sell rimfire pistols called suicide specials which i think is hilarious, only 600-1000Alsoalsoalsoalsoalso, my methods are feasible
>>42761855Ph shit is this about relationships and SO's I thoughg it was about FPs like that thing bipolar and bpd people get. I just spilled my guts on some bullshit prolly get me killed
>>42762359I had the same thought lol, i wrote a long, obssessive post about my last FP
>>42761855i’m lowkey thinking abt blocking him bc holy fuck is he dry
>>42764550sounds like he's not your favorite person
>>42764550do it and never look back i wish i did long before i got really attached to him
horrific.
>>42761855I think she's going to move away soon and I am not coping with it well at all, I just know if she does I'm going to be completely devastated.
