Will the feeling that my transition has failed ever go away? I'm 20 months on HRT, never girlmoded and I am unable to see myself ever breaking the cycle. I don't even know where to begin trying.
20 months is not that long, but also if you want to break the cycle then you need to just do that. Learn makeup, get a haircut, get women's clothes, and just do it or you'll be saying the exact same thing a year from now
>>42762296did you try more HRT + laser + getting into shape + learning make up + learning fashion + surgery? if not then you can't claim you failed, only that you never tried
>>42762312I know failing is required but I'm just too scared to fail. I have IRL trans friends who are much less time on HRT compared to me but are already making progress on every front barring time on HRT and I feel so bad for it.
>>42762331HOLY TRUKE
>>42762336Are you going to save yourself?
>>42762296You need to connect with a pride/trans group IRL and girlmode to one of their events. A safe place to dip your toes in so to speak.
I had a work friend tell me something once that gutted me: "Nobody can save you from yourself."Does that resonate with you? Can you really say you've done everything in your power to unearth the woman you know you are from the rotting manmoder tomb you're keeping her in?
>>42762336Move to a new location where no one knows you and just go outside in girl mode. That is what I did and now no one knows how cringe I was in the first 5 months
>>42765040heh
>>4276229620 months isn't long. Keep holding on
>>42762331You can't claim that someone "failed" transitioning if they didn't do a specific set of things for themselves, they should only be given as options. Not every MTF wants a neopussy to dilate with.
>>42765072thats not what's being said. OP says she thinks her transition failed, but doesn't know why or what to do about it. that nona is just providing a comprehensive transitioning list and saying that a transition is never failed until you've at the very least done all of these. SRS wasnt mentioned either, just surgeries, which could legit be anything.
>>42764954Probably not. I generally find fear very paralysing and this goes deeper than just transitioning.
>>42762296This is why under 30s should not be alowed to transition. They don't have enough experience dealing with major life problems and as a result they don't have the mental resilience to make it through the difficult parts of transition. OP it's never going to get easier. You choice is whether it happens or doesn't. Nobody can do it for you.
>>42767557holy honcope lmao
>>42762331>did you try more HRT + laser + getting into shape + learning make up + learning fashion + surgery? if not then you can't claim you failed, only that you never triednta. but i've been on hrt for 15 years and had laser/electrolysis and had a bunch of surgeries (ffs+revisions+orchi) and i still feel that way
>>42765056I'm locked into where I live because of uni so not an option sadly.>>42765064I'll try :/ but the constant rough patches are getting rougher and more frequent.>>42767557This is the most retarded thing I've read. If I waited another 10 years to start HRT I would still be the same retarded autist but with fully fused hips and a hard requirement to get FFS.
>>42766313Might as well save yourself the trouble and kill yourself now if you're just going to let yourself waste away. You'll never be happy if you continue like this, even if it's hard, there's no other option besides forward. Otherwise you're jist a deadman walking. Care about yourself more
>>42762296I love Ed so much. Can you keep posting pics of him?
