how do i kill the male ego? i thought accepting my dysphoria, transitioning, and welcoming my anima would finally get rid of him but he’s still here
Wtf is the male ego, and what necessarily makes yours gendered that way
>>42769322Boyremoval Also, boil all the eggs at once, we eat ones we dont eat now tomorrow (:
>>42769322https://archived.moe/lgbt/thread/41887627/read
>>42769335I assume OP is talking about his own animus that is still present despite having transitioned and accepted his anima? or something like that>>42772175bookmarking for my own interest…
>>42769322realize that 90% of male life is a figurative dick measuring contest and being judged by both other males and women. and also insecurity projected by other men basically the only way to "be a man" is to win at playing chicken or something. it's an endless pride contest but this is coming from a tranny who is literally a failed male so
>>42772175this is so stupid.. i just assumed this was /pol/ bait if you "want" to be gay or trans or whatever you probably are not cis and straight already and naturally have those tendencies
>>42772290I don't understand your argument. Intentionally crafting your mind and body into the form you most enjoy is pretty based, desu
>>42772436isnt that just force-femming yourself then
>>42769322>unironically believing pseud shitBtfod its gonna take even longer to understand your self now fucking rekt lol
>>42769322I'm slowly killing him by taking high doses of LSD. While tripping I am both more or less free of brainworms, and I can also wholeheartedly believe that I am somehow internally a woman
>>42774488does lsd even workall i’ve ever tried was shrooms
>>42774544The results can vary. After some trips I feel like I am able to fully self-actualize as the woman I would love to be and it gives me the strength to want to live and be myself, while after other trips I just feel a disgusting and psychotic man
>>42774560and what kind of you woman would you like to be, anon?
>>42769322step 1, don't have male ego
>>42774598Myself, but kinder, with more grace, dignity, and love to give. Happier.
>>42772175nta but that only works if one is a little bit androphilic (mef even better).Also, from experience I will say srs is a must, although even then things don't line up 100% right (but they do line up pretty well).
>>42769322>how do I kill the male ego?don't, embrace your maleness in a feminized body
>>42769322recognize protective mask for what it is and differentate between pleasure of something by itself and pleasure of social approval something gives you. it gets ingrown and habitual but its origin are trauma based. reject shame. fear not. open yourself. open the gates and surrender. feelings are not dangerous. as intense as they are you need it.>>42774488>>42774544definately softens that outer layer of habits and fears. you see whats underneath. some almost forgotten memories will resurface. thing being contradictory will be explained by self knowledge. let it. also its nit even needed per se but is puryfying. prepare for dissociation to dissolve. feels will be. but its okay. its easier way actually...
>>42775119You sound really nice. Unironically, I think you should find a priest and confess your sins as a man so Jesus can take that away from you. I know it sounds like nonsense, but it worked for me. God's grace and God's love are truly powerful things, and it sounds to me like that's what you're yearning for. Trans women are close to the divine, you already have a connection there, accept it.
>>42769322>how do i kill the male ego?I wish I knew how. It still feels like I'm doing something that makes me morally wrong and inferior to men when I have sex with a man, even though I've been transitioned for nearly a decade and am 3 years post-op...
>>42775186i definitely feel like self-acceptance (like actually) plays a huge part in letting go
>>42769322idk what exactly you mean by male ego but i relate because ive been out for like 6 or 7 years and i still feel like a male imposter who looks like a woman. it feels like im committing a crime every time i use a womens restroom, and the guilt itself causes more dysphoria and shame. having a body that resembless female is awesome but i fear i was forced to live as a man for so long that it left a permanent "youre a male" trauma in my brain that i cant shake>>42775186this honestly feels like the only way. i dont think i can ever truly feel internally female, rather ill always feel like a male who looks like a girl and has gender dysphoria. i did recently start trying to identify as a katoey or futanari or whatever instead of "woman", and it has honestly helped because then i dont feel like im pretending or faking anything. and maybe it is a more honest identity for me anyway; i genuinely cant even relate to cis women. i pretty much only relate to dysphoric feminine amab beings, like trans women, hrt femboys, katoeys, and the like
>>42777895Did you have SRS? Also at what age did you begin your transition?
>>42769322You have to unlearn the jungian conception of the ego. It's a dead end
>>42778048>Did you have SRS?no, a pp is the only male thing i like having>what age did you begin your transition?depends on what counts as transitioning, it was a slow process of coming to terms with it to me, but maybe somewhere around 22-24
>>42769322you probably just need to chill out and trust how you feel I know it sounds retarded, but speaking from experience this usually happens when you get stuck in your head and let your thoughts determine every aspect of your behaviour, ofcourse you still have a male ego, male behaviour is typically excessively spartan and focuses on superficial practicality, which is the natural conclusion of eschewing all of your feelings. i'm not telling you to act like a vapid bimbo or something, just pay attention how to you feel and don't try to rationalise them away, for me it was just trusting my instincts when it comes to aesthetics and stuff, like I wanted to get my nails done in a cute colour so I just did it without treating it like an engineering project where I need to optimise for some kind of result that I hardly even care about. Remember, as a HRT tranny you have a female nervous system, trust it
>>42774488this also helps a lot, but you have to actually reflect on what you thought about once you're sober again. it often helps if you ensure your environment helps you feel feminine too, just having some plushies out or pink lighting in your room can help too, I know it sounds like cringe sissy shit but women, especially those who've pursued masculine hobbies/professions, often struggle with feeling feminine too at timesjust be careful because I REALLY over did it and I'm pretty sure I'm slightly psychotic now, for example when I wake up in the morning I have to be careful to get up fast or otherwise my thoughts can spiral into delusional territory and I start suffering OCD intrusive thoughts that I'm possessed by a demon and other such nonsense
>>42772175The steps are literally just "start acting like a fag and troon out" how is this supposed to recondition anybody
>>42778100>a pp is the only male thing i like havingMaybe this is why you still struggle with a male ego?
>>42779119girls can have pp :( or maybe i just really am a futa or an extremely femme enby
>>42780029>or maybe i just really am... an extremely femme enbyThere's nothing wrong with that Nona. If you like having a pp then maybe there's no need to worry about the male ego thing at all? Not sure what to do about the bathroom thing you mentioned though. I felt that way too until the day I got my pp removed...
>>42778528Actions shape your mind
Okay what if I feel like OP in that I want to kill my male ego, but I have also done all the self affirmation work I need to and the only thing keeping me tied to it is that I am forced to live with my deeply transphobic parents who regularly go on "ywnbaw" rants at me?
>>42782436Move out?
>>42782245yeah i suppose. for years i was transitioning as an anby anyway, and only started calling my self a woman later, and ive been pondering if i should go back to identifying as nb. it wont make a difference to others since im still gonna make all the effort to look like a woman, but it might make a difference for my peace of mind. thanks nona>>42782436obviously you need to make it a priority to get away from your parents. being a parent isnt a license to abuse someone, and the best thing to do with abusers is to cut them out
>>42784726>picWhat is this from?
>>42769322once a malealways a male
>>42784874hello newfriend! you can click on the three dots on any post and select "search image on [...]" to find out :D i had to do that too because i dont remember as these are just some random pics i got off gelbooru years ago because they are hot and cute. yes, its a porn artist, yes im a pervert.
>>42769322aggressive, humiliating boyremoval in a manner that permanently destroys any thought you could have ever succeeded as a "male"
>>42769322don't, females are retardedjust embrace being malebrainedsociety doesn't think you're a woman either way
