i still keep my childhood bible on my nightstand and pray for my family's safety every night even though they resent me and think im broken. when my father sometimes gets enraged and shouts horrible things at me ("little fucking faggot tranny", "i wont give a fuck when you die") i simply close my door and silently cry myself to sleep. im agnostic but if jesus is real i hope one day he will hold me in his arms and give me eternal life in heaven for all i have endured. if i cant make myself happy i will try to help others
You're a good person.
You have a kind heart and were put in a terrible situationplease save yourself from this gods forsaken website, look online in other spaces and try to make friends, maybe someday you'll find an opportunity to get out of that situation you are inthe suffering you endured can never be undone, but you can have a better rest of your life
