How do I get over my reverse dysphoria brainworms? I've come to realize that any "reverse dysphoria" I experience is just a byproduct of repression, shame and deep self loathing, but I still can't help but completely panic every couple of days that it's actually the hrt that's making me dysphoric and that I will one day have to detransition. The fear is downright crippling
>>42777967therapy maybe?
>>42777967Dont think i can help you. But how did you figure out that your reverse dysphoria fears were actually just repression + shame + self loathing? And that its not something to be taken seriously?Im struggling with similar stuff right now but im still not 100% certain if my reverse dysphoria fears are something i should take seriously or is just a product of reppression + shame and self loathing like you said.
>>42778519To be honest, I'm still not certain that it isn't actually really reverse dysphoria, but I'm gambling on the more likely possibility that it's just repression + shame + self loathing. I know I'm a person who tends to repress, and I have issues with shame and self loathing in general. I also know that I'm also a person who tends to overthink and catastrophize anything that requires agency from me, so it just feels more likely that my "reverse" dysphoria isn't actually reverse dysphoria.I've also done plenty of psychedelics, and each time I intensely felt that I should've been a woman, and at this point I don't care anymore whether that's just part of me hallucinating
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>>42779961Hmm yeah im pretty similar (issues with shame/self loathing and over thinking things a lot when i have to do something).Though i dont get any "i HAVE TO/SHOULD be a woman thoughts" dont do psychedelics either tho so that might just be it lol.
>>42777967Best i can offer tho is that it probably helps to remind yourself of all the things you like about the hrt effects.If you like basically all of them then why would u end up with reverse dysphoria?Eg: My big struggle is being scared of maybe eventually disliking having breasts. Either because i wont like them or just because its a big permanent change im not used to or because it would be hard to get rid of them if i did dislike them.But what helps is remembering that i about once per day look in the mirror topless and quite like that my small boobs give me curves now lol. (Plus of course that i like all the other E effects (skin, face changes, even ED and penis atrophy) with basically no exception besides freaking out over breast growth sometimes)Like remembering that i have 3-4 videos on my phone from the last 5ish days where im happy crying in front of the mirror over having curves and boobs now makes it look kinda silly to think i might dislike my breasts eventually or when they get larger lol.It really doesnt always work tho :c. Like today im struggling again to see if i can convince myself to take my pills or not lol. Besides the fact that one of those 4 videos is from literally an hour ago XD.
>>42784318>If you like basically all of them then why would u end up with reverse dysphoria? That's what I'm trying to tell myself as well, especially because I do really like all the effects, but I still very frequently start neurotically worrying about the possibility that my brain will suddenly decide to hate them all and make me detrans
Easy: realize that "reverse dysphotia" quite literally doesn't exist.You're confusing mood swings, a known side effect, with an ideological construct.If reverse dysphoria were real, hrtwinks would've never existed, lol.
>>42784781Yeah i get that im similar. Though i feel like a bit worse because my brain tries to tell me im ALREADY worried about my breasts sometimes as well.(In spite of the fact that i also already like them sometimes as is as well)Like yours sound a bit extra baseless lol. Like it sounds like u start from "i like all of this" and then the worry is "ok but like what if i (eventually) wont". But there doesnt seem to be any reason for you to suspect you might not like it in the future?Which is like fair ig. But also the best thing you can do right now is act based off of what u are currently experiencing. And it doesnt seem like your current experience warrants a suspicion that you might eventually dislike the HRT changes. (At least from what u wrote so far)
>>42784939>Though i feel like a bit worse because my brain tries to tell me im ALREADY worried about my breasts sometimes as wellMy brain does the same thing. I happen to be reminded of my breasts, and think to myself "Neat. Wait, aren't I supposed to hate them? I probably already do, cause otherwise I wouldn't ask myself this. Oh god, what have I done to myself.">But there doesnt seem to be any reason for you to suspect you might not like it in the future?I really feel like there are reasons, especially when overthinking as much as I do. I have no guarantee that I will actually like being a woman any more than I hated being a man. It's all an assumed risk, which while I'm partially confident in my choice, the gravity of it being a mistake is very difficult to overlook. There is also the fact that I don't actually know why I want to be a woman, and that I barely had any signs prior to deciding to transition
>>42785593> I happen to be reminded of my breasts, and think "Neat. Wait, aren't I supposed to hate them? I probably already do, cause otherwise I wouldn't ask myself this. Oh god, what have I done to myself."I can kinda relate, though usually i dont have the "neat" step inbetween. Like i either notice them and kinda like em or notice them and get freaked out, not both at the same time i think?And i think my usual path towards "oh god what am i doing" is more like "do i really want this? What if they get bigger? What if i wont end up liking them?" etc.Like its not really about "arent i supposed to hate them?". Altho ig that partially plays into it in so far as that i get spooked that if im "actually cis" i would or will hate them.> the gravity of it being a mistake is very difficult to overlook.Yeah thats what gets me a lot of time as well :c.> I really feel like there are reasons, especially when overthinking as much as I do.Same tho lol. Most ppl around me tell me they think im probably just scared and am just overthinking it. Ig im doing the same thing to u lol. Its just really hard to believe them because the overthinking does tend to make things sound kinda reasonable.> have no guarantee that I will actually like being a woman any more than I hated being a man. [...] There is also the fact that I don't actually know why I want to be a womanIm kinda worse in that respect i think. For me i think its partially that i dont want to be a women even that often? Like i usually just think itd either be better or basically equal to being a guy. And sometimes i can lean pretty close to neutral on that...But then again i can also recall times when i kinda wanted to be one/not be a guy quite badly? Idk its weird :cThe reasoning thing fucks me up a lil too. Like i feel like i need a good reason to do it. And sometimes it just feels like i only have a slight preference, which doesnt feel like a good enough reason to me sometimes :c
>>42784886Shouldn't "reverse dysphoria" exist solely because dysphoria itself exists?Also, how can I be sure that it's really just mood swings, and not something more significant?
