>am a disgusting 20yo bi moid thats probably a repping troon (people tell me i look twinkish but i dont think the adam lanza guy they compare me to was one)>try to make friends online>decent amount of people from this board added me (i never add anyone myself) and seemed all bubbly/talkative>pretty sure its all a facade and they wanna rip me to shreds asap>i show them part of my face and they talk more because they wanna dox me and likely have a secret chat group conspiring against me>these people talk about college/jobs/friends/relationships all nonchalantly and normally>immediately feel like a subhuman retard because i go to a community college and havent had a single irl friend since high school>when they talk about their hobbies/passions i can tell they're all well-versed and enthusiastic >convos all get one-sided pretty quick, not because i hate them but i wish theyd just leave me alone and do better stuff>one morning i woke up with 17 discord notifs and i shut down, cried a little bit at my desk desu>its gotten so bad i dont even want to be seen outside anymore>grades are slipping because i hide in my car for group activities in school>used to be a right wing sharty chud who was proud of my retardation>nowadays i consider being a tranny "elite", i consider talking to people on grindr "elite", i consider playing games with people "elite">will probably die of malnourishment eventually because even eating food is "elite" and it's disgusting for someone like me to do iti feel bad for even using a lain picture since it's also for the elite and people who have more than 5 braincells
