i've been on HRT for 8 months now and while it is working and making me feel somewhat better im starting to want to quit i dont think i'll ever be able to self actualise as a woman, present feminine and wear makeup and voice train, all that stuff. i just don't have the strength for it. i can barely go outside and face people now i could never do it as a dumb looking twinkhon with the thread of actual violence and hatred towards me. i have trans friends who have been really supportive but i just feel like an embarrassment for not actually transitioning.i know if i quit i will probably just kill myself but i think i'd do the same even if i stayed on hrt it would just take longer, so i might as well hurry it up
>>42785549DON'T QUIT! KEEP GOING! I BELIEVE IN YOU!
that sounds roughyou have to pick a gender and stick with it sadlyif nobody actually gives you shit though then nobody gives you shit
>>42785549why take the route of definitely killing yourself (detransition) when you could at least see if life becomes worth living at some point as a trannyif you're gonna die anyway you might as well die with tits
>>42785552i think i already gave up a long time ago. maybe some part of me was hoping that starting transition would magically give me some will to live but it hasn't worked, of course >>42785560it's pathetic but i'd rather just die alone and invisible as a man than suffer more humiliation and hatred from trying to be a woman. the former is much less painful
>>42785549>8 months>already failedwhat does "self actualize" even mean to you?well whatever it isyou'll never achieve it with that kind of attitude
>>42785549what do you look like? i'll let you know if you have potential
>>42785549Don't quit, you started once for a reason, right now you might feel it is not worth continuing but going the other way is worse, it feels like you are going nowhere and that the end goal is not in sight, yet you'll never be able to drop out, that dread will only grow as time passes and regret is more difficult to deal with.
>>42785549I've been having a rough day today, ruminating on past social experiences. I know I'm trans I can't help it, but I've only been able to maintain social connections pretending to be cis. Before hrt it was much easier to pretend but now I feel marked. I'm not gonna give up but something I'm doing right now needs to change.
>giving up on transition before even tryingyep, im old and it's over
idk you dont have to do all that? why would you? you alredy doing one thing society tell u not to why you feel obligated to do another you also dont believ in. its not like every girl wear makup. fuck cosmetic industry propaganda
>>42785549this is some shit anna would say
>>42785549I was the same and decided to detrans but then I couldn’t go off hrt and now I’m in this weird limbo where I don’t want to transition anymore but still take e
>>42785549>twinkhonEmbrace hrtwink. Not even joking.Life, fr. You don't have to do any of that humiliation ritual if you don't want to.>it is working and making me feel somewhat betterEstradiol isn't magic. It's a pharmaceutical product like any other. You like it, you continue to take it. You don't like it, you stop. It really is that simple.There is no "rule" that says you have to wear make up or voicetrain or identify as whatever just because you shoot up girljuice.
>>42785549you can literally just take hrt and live as a man dude no one is stopping you lol
