i told people about my mtf sex change fetish on 4chan, reddit, twitter etc. which involved furiously masturbating while wishing i was a woman for like 15 years straight. i was also an incel neet.lots of people told me i was a repper and that i needed to start hrt. i decided to try it when i turned 27 and i've been on it for 2 years now.i'm still an incel neet. i haven't changed anything about my appearance. i can't talk to women. being around them makes me anxious as fuck. i thought hrt might be the solution and that i would find my purpose and get the confidence to change my life for the better. i still masturbate and wish i was a woman most days so the fetish is still there. what the fuck do i do with my life. i can't keep a job. i can't relate to my guy friends and women terrify me. i just wish i could be a normal guy with a girlfriend
>>42787811>tranny wants to be cis, whether a cis male or cis female wow who woulda thunk it. don’t you realize you’re cursed? whether you rep or not
>>42787811just keep on furiously masturbatingbut now like shave your hole body and like train your voice and throw yourself at men like i doi still hate myself but it's nice to be held and getting fucked feels really good too actuallyyeah just give into being a faggotyou're fighting your male ego too much
>>42787811same I knew I was doing this for a fetish and now regret it bc the fetish inst like it was before and now I’m scared to go outside so my life has gotten even worse. I tried stopping E but that caused me to have a complete meltdown so now I feel trapped
>>42787811lol idk why fetishists tranisition and get mad. why not just cross dress and microdose e
Another autist groomed by tranny freaks, bag em and tag em.
>>42787811same issue i just take antiandrogens and dutasteride and low dose E.
>>42787838i'm not attracted to men. i don't have much body hair so it doesn't bother me that much
drop acid. or ket. be open. see what happens. what to be afraid of? yourself? you arent evil mofo, right? so everything will be all right
>>42787840wtf is microdosing estrogen gonna do
>>42787811i trooned because of fetish and now i don't have libido and i still don't regret it cuz i feel much better being a fem person anyways
>>42787928idk they get off on it. i dont rly know exactly since its not a fetish for me
>>42787944u hot?
>>42787900i don't do drugs
>>42787840i'm not mad, just lost and depressed
>>42788006that's everyone you faggot
>>42788006yeah im sure giving yourself reverse gender dysphoria sucks...
>>42787890you don't have to be attracted to men to have sex with themit's a little weird at first and i have to construct elaborate narratives in my head sometimes to get off but like besides the obvious like some guys suck in bed and others have small dicks it isn't always a bad experienceactually some of the best sex i had was with a bf idki miss dating women, but i'm not about to seek that out and potentially make someone uncomfortable
>>42788053do you look like a man?
>>42788053what kinds of things do you think about in your head while in the moment?
>>42787900Acid confirmed it, I was suspicious, didn't think it was a fetish , more like I door I locked shut as a teen and refused to check out. I have many of thoseI chose to rep, this was years agoEvery time I think "it was just a phase" That shit crops up a day or two laterIm not bothered. I feel like it looses all validation on the fact that I'm actively refusing to do anything Only ever told one person, a year later, they half joked repeatedly that they're a TERF, not long after, terf talking points.Less ostracizationLess to factor in when wondering why people think I'm offI cant be totally invisible but I can be close, that would be impossible otherwise Im over 30, ships sailed and I've stablilizedTruth be told people who've transitioned are tougher than any cis mf I've met outside of my mother, the ambient hate is crazy, tranwomen do even have to be around for the hatred to spew..I could've only imagine, it seems so disheartening to deal withAnyway, acid does a great job at helping you be honest , brutally honest. Just ask im I a weird man with a fetish?Or am I trans?It really doesn't matter as much as people pretend it does either wayThe actually important question is simplyCan I continue to live in this body as it is.
>>42788495>Truth be told people who've transitioned are tougher than any cis mf I've met outside of my mother, the ambient hate is crazy, tranwomen do even have to be around for the hatred to spew..I could've only imagine, it seems so disheartening to deal with>Anyway, acid does a great job at helpingtruthbomb. toughter than seals and top fighters. extreme respect. especially in bad countries. or extremely unhinged low inhibition.going back to acid its very visual and inaginative. shows "core" higger dose is more transcending but still youvare universe is a girl
>>42787811I trooned because of a fetish, also because I was so envious of women I ended up hating them for the emotions and experiences they got to have, also because I felt like a husk of a person being a man.So far it's been pretty good. Every step I take to further feminize is thrilling, arousing, joyous. I feel like im righting a mistake biology got wrong and I never want to go back.
>>42788072yeah i think so but I don't get misgendered and I've been called bdd>>42788146actually idk maybe the elaborate narrative thing was something i did with women not men and idk it was some like weird reverse cuck thing like getting off to the idea that she was someone else's and that we were doing some sort of taboo by having normal straight sexidk maybe that's bc i was topping?i much prefer it when someone else takes the controls and i can just focus on the sensations
>>42787811>i thought hrt might be the solution and that i would find my purpose and get the confidence to change my life for the betterRespectfully, hrt isn't magic. It's one component. Essential, yes, but not sufficient on its own.You still have to build a personality, work on the rest of your appearance and put order in your life in general.I was you. I trooned to escape inceldom at 24 but then didn't do much other than save up cash from a shitty job. After about 2 years (and a nervous breakdown) I got into doing things mechanically. Went to theatre classes to learn how to feminine mannerisms. Practiced socialization the bruteforce way. The first 100 attempts were a total disaster. But they built the thick skin. By the 1000th attempt I had picked up two cisf friends. Yes, it's hard. But it's absolutely doable.Now 8yrs-and-something later I'm on an SRS waitlist and getting married this summer.>i still masturbate and wish i was a woman most days so the fetish is still therethat never goes away. Trooning makes it easier to cope.Gotta work with what you have. But the operative word is WORK.You can't just do nothing and hope girljuice will do the work for you. It simply doesn't work that way.
>>42789671Yes!!!! Theater nona! I remember you from other threads. You are a wonderful source of actionable information. OP take heed of this wise nona's words!
>>42789704idk why this comes off as some wild thing.theater is literally the place where people learn to cosplay other people.and since most theater people are somewhere on the lgbt spectrum or at least sympathetic, finding someone to pay to teach you how to be feminine is the most straightforward thing to do when transitioning not just from male to female but from lonely incel to socialite.It's also not terribly expensive either.
>>42789853It's not wild so much as brilliant solution
No refunds!
>>42787811> reppper reppingKek! Never change repper. One day you'll be a real man.
