As i promised, here's the video https://litter.catbox.moe/lrptse.mp4All the updates: (UPDATE 1)So I wanted to write an update about moments that i didnt foresee with diy orchi and provide some info for those who might be interested in it.Gore: I watched gore videos from when i was around 10yo, and i thought that i was desensitized to stuff like that... Let me tell you, doing surgery on yourself is a completely different level of gore, my hands were shaking the whole time, to the point I wasn't able to place stitches and had to call the ambulance. Riding with like 4 blood vessel clamps hanging from my crotch was quite the show. On that note...
>>42901459Blood vessel clamps: THERES NO SUCH THING AS TO MANY CLAMPS, i had 5 and honestly it was barely enough to do the surgery.Blood: There are at least 1 vid of diy orchi going around where blood loss is minimal, honestly idk if they did it in a really cold room or took some medication, In my experience i lost around 400ml. At least that what the surgeon that looked at vid of my orchi estimated. So yeah, there will be a lot of blood, so mandatory have someone to look for you. Scalpel: HAVE SEVERAL BLADES ON HAND, bc figuring out that medical scalpel dull out really fast is not a fun thing to discover in the middle of the surgery. Trust me.
>>42901463Ambulance: When they arrived at my house, one of the first things they did was to ask me where the tests were, to resew them back on... After I told them that I threw them out, they tried looking around my room, trying to find them.... So yeah, hide your balls pals lolololoolHospital staff: idk about US/EU, but in my postsoviet shithole, the primary care doctor that was assigned to me, called me "that retarded transsexual" when speaking with colleagues, so be ready to hear a lot of nicknames from staff. Also im kind of a legend (in a sense of a novelty) in this hospital, bc basically all the staff that was free, visited me when i was waiting for the surgery and in ICU, so there was A LOT of questions and A LOT of passive aggressive comments
>>42901468Hospital journey: After the ambulance arrived i was rushed to the surgery, then spent the day in ICU, and now I'm in a closed psych unit. In terms of recovery I should be ok by Monday.Rn in pain, but what did I want from surgery lol, getting my antibiotics+painmeds+blood recovery infusions. So overall surgery, although extremly dangerous, was a success.
>>42901479(UPDATE 2)Soooo, the previous update was on the day 2 after surgery, now i am finally home, so here what happened during those 1.5 weeks that i spent in the hospitalsAlso about the video and progress pics. I'm planning to release the video in ~1-3 months, when I'm fully healed. Progress pics will be later in this threadOne of the things that i forgot to mention in the first post, balls are quite shiny, giving their greish-white color, they unironically look like pearls when you cut them out. Neat i guess.As a local anesthetic I used lidocaine 5 (2ml, 10%) ampules total, which is A LOT of lidocaine, 3 injections in each cord and 4 in the incision area. The most important step is to aspirate, cos it can make you dizzy or in the worst case stop your heart.https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6036540/About the surgery when I was in the hospital: when I was getting strapped to the operating table, really unexpectedly for me, the anesthesiologist decided to use fentanyl as a painkiller. It honestly was a discovery for me that in my shithole with one of the strictest drug regulations/punishments there is fentanyl being used. Even more unexpectedly, after the anesthesiologist said that fentanyl will be used, he looked me in the eyes and said "lets give this med student 2 ampules" lol. Idk if he tried to od me or make the recovery as easy as possible, eather way im ok with that.
>>42901459trannies are mentally ill and groomersi am not a chaser anymore, only cis women
>>42901459that's crazy self surgery i would watch it, but i don't watch gore anymore
>>42901486In the ICU: I was laying in a room with 3 other people, all of them were alcoholics in a state of delirium tremens, almost constantly screaming some nonsense and trying to escape from restraints. I spent about 20 hours there and it honestly felt like a really bad fever dream.When I was transferred from the ICU to the psych unit, there were 3 med students who were really interested in the whole process. We had a really great chat + I showed the vid to them and had some feedback about the whole operation. What I learned from them:1) 0.05% Chlorhexidine solution is too mild to properly clean the operating area. When contacting with blood/bodily fluids it really quickly losses its effectiveness, it better to use iodine solution, cos it lingers a lot longer. Good news is it is only used as a wash solution after a round of isopropyl alcohol bath for instruments and a thorough wiping of the operating area. Fiy I used 2 by 2 meters rubber matt as a operating zone which i tried to keep as sterile as i could.2)About the comment from the last update about blood loss. There are a couple of medications that are used during surgery to contract blood vessels to decrease blood loss, sadly, bc of clusterfuck of a week i forgot how they were called.In terms of doctors in this hospital, there were mostly neutral, only one was treating me like shit. I already wrote about him in the previous update. He was the reason I was transferred from the ICU to a psych unit instead of a urology one.The psychiatrist in the psych unit was mainly joking about this situation, like "it takes balls to cut them out" basically dad jokes lol.
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>>42901493Given that orchiectomy is basically impossible to get in my country, it was expected that nurses didn't know how to apply wound dressing properly. Unexpectedly they actually did listen to my instructions, so on that part everything was fine.Now to the not so fun part:Transfer to psych hospital: When it was time to discharge from the hospital my primary care physician set up a consult for me with psychiatrist from republican research institute to cover her ass.It was a clusterfuck, first she said that she "didnt understand whole transgender thing" mind you, she was a PHD professor in psychiatry who was in charge of one of the biggest psych unit for suicide/self harm patients in the country...On top of that she outright refused to use my prefered name and pronounce, which wasnt a problem for any other doctor even im my postsoviet shithole during those 1.5 weeks.By the end of a consult she promised me that i will be discharged that day, she just need "get a confirmation from higher-ups, which would take 10 minutes", after hour of no updates i found my physician from wich i found out that i will be actually transferred to closed psych unit for observation and also that she already ordered an ambulance to transfer me there and quickly left... The thing is legally in that moment i was fucked, im my country, if a psychiatrist decided that you can cause harm to yourself, you cant refuse a hospitalization. There is actually a way, but its a legal clusterfuck that could take weeks or more, so the only option i had left at that moment was to give up.
>>42901502In total i spend a week in a closed male unit, completely cut of out of outside world, 24/7 inside 4 walls, no phone, no personal belongings, barred from visitations. Psychiatrist that was assigned to me was really surprised that i was send here after dialogue with me. Thankfully with his help i was able to be discharged in a week and not in a 3 to 8 weeks, wich was a standart observation time for people that were send there.I was mostly just extremely booooring and exhausting week there. Thankfully on the day 3 there i was transferred from the observation wart to a regular room where i was allowed castrated pencil and a notepad, so i could sketch a bit.Weirdest moment there happend where i wanted to scetch a piano that was there. It didnt have any place to sit in from of it to have a reference, so i "borrowed" a chair from the main hall. At that moment there were a bard standing there from a local dnd group who witnessed the whole venture and looket at me in disgusted, as if i committed some sort of crime. Then we had a really weird dialogue where i tried to explain to him that you can improvise in real life too. (picrl, text at the bottom "explaining improvisation to a bard")Got harassed there a bit. Several time man that was there tried to group my boobs, flashed me with their cocks when i was near their rooms, and generally a lot of people were annoying af asking to show them boobs/cock/surgery resultsAlthough some were actually supportive and tried to protect me from weirdos or outright transphobes.Healing process: after i was stiched up and wake up in the ICU, when lidocaine and painkillers wered off tha pain actually started. For the first 3 days it was hard to even sleep without painkillers. It started wear off on the day 4 and by the next day was mostly manageable. Day 6, when i was transferred to the psych hospital, the pain was mostly gone. I only felt it when i cought, also got sick there with coronavirus, so i cought a lot...
>>42901512Until the removal of stiches, i had to wear a compressive dressing to decrease the load on the incision area. It has to be changed on the daily basis to prevent infection. Generally it was an uneventful week, there were no infection, no puss, and only a couple of blood drops during the first wound dressing change, so everything went fine.On the day 9 stiches were removed and i finally were able to fell how the surgeon stiched it shut. Honestly i would of done it a bit different, but still not a bad job, so i don't really have any complaints.I used scrotal approach, so the incision itself were only about 2 cm long, vertical incision in the middle of the scrotum. I wil copy this text a bit latter to tttt with picks of the healing process on day 3 and day 15.Unexpected results:Rapid acceleration of penile atrophy during first week. By rapid i mean RAPID, after only 4 days it was already painful yo open foreskin and on day ~6 skin actually started to tear with minor bleeding in some places near the tip of the foreskin. Also there were A LOT of skin flakes. As a solution to this, i constantly make sure that my foreskin was pulled all the way back, to stretch it as much as i can, and regularly moistured it. At least it was the maximum that i could do in the settings of a closed with psych unit, with only moisturizing cream on hand. This thankfully seemed to help. Although it still a bit painful to pull the foreskin back, its much better now, and now that i home, i can have a bonner to stretch it back.
>>42901459Video not loading for me either. Vanilla Opera if that matters.
>>42901520Problems with peeing. For the first day after surgery, when i was in the ICU, it was almost impossible to pee, i felt that my bladder was full, but still had to spend nearly an hour concentrating to pee for the first time. By the second day the problem was almost gone, but still it was weird. Nurces REALLY tried to place a catheter, but it looks like there were almost a wall inside soooooo they failed.Having spend 1.5 weeks around people using my prefered name, i realized its actually sucks and honestly idk which one to chose. The only option that i liked is Rory for the really cringe reason, bc of character from anime Rory Mercury, i like her cos she gives off the vibe of someone who loves to fuck around, which i vibe with a lot. If you have any suggestions of female/fem leaning names that give off similar vibe, please let me know.There were 2 documents for sick leave, 1 from each hospital. In the one from the psych the reason(diagnosis) for hospitalization was writen f64.0 lol. The thing is now i have to take this docs to my job to explain where i was all this time and get my sick leave paid.... God i hope they wont look up what f64 stands for, im still boymoding so idk how i would explain this.
video got deleted, RIPalso, not reading the wall of textcut your dick off next
>>42901459I'm too afraid to watch this...
>>42901523Vanilla firefox is loading
>>42901533What are the results:1)I dont feel my balls. It was a major dysphoria trigger for me. When i walt, sit, move, felling my balls move in my crotch made me wanna throw up every time. Now they are gone, so no dysphoria from them. I cant even start to describe how it was a blessing for me. I finally can say that i fell normal, first time in my life.2) Boners are almost completely gone. Now i have to really set up a good atmosphere and have some time with it to actually have any kind of erection.3) Easier hrt. Now i can decrease the dose of injections, makin supply last much longer.4) Insurance in case if i lose access to hrt. Leving in postsoviet shithole where i real risk being jailed for just being trans, this really lifts weight of my shoulders. At least i know i wont masculinize any further.5) Masturbation feels different. Eather because i dont fell my bals or because of decreased dysphoria, or both, its actually became much more pleasurable. Although i need to note that i primarily use magic wans style vibrator, so i dont have to toch it, and honestly, with how thin the skin rn, i would be scared to use my hand to stroke it.
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the video works perfectly well for mecongratulations op, you're very brave
>>42901523works on microsoft edge
>>42901538Nope, still is there, even on chrome
>>42901553SOOO THA MAIN QUESTION: Was it worth it? ABSOLUTELY YESIts a first time in my life where i dont have a cripling dysphoria hanging over my head. I spend last 2 years in constal chase for ways to turn off my brain, just for a chance at not felling a cripling dysphoria for a moment. For the last 1.5 years i spend drinking copuos ammounts of alcohol every day because it was the only legal thing that were able to shut my brain off and keep me from ending this miserable life. And now, for the first time i can confidently say that i dont need it. I actually feel normal, i cant describe how happy im right now. After all the pain im honestly, for the first time in my life I can say that I'm ok.
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>>42901575do u pass ._. and how tall u are. these are very relevant questions to ur diy orchi
359MB.The vid works.Thanks, OP.Now use this as asylum claim in Poland or Lithuania.Seriously, gtfo from your country.
>>42901459that’s so cool wtf. what did u say to the psychiatrists? like cus u just did it for practical reasons right lol. did they think u were in psychosis or something? what ended up happening with the balls they were looking for after u threw them out?
>>42901459lmao holy shityou are very brave op
>>42901459You're one crazy tranny nona, I could never I'd be way to scared to fuck up and bleed to death, I have two questions tho, are u gonna go further, and which post soviet shithole, my guess is belarus
>>42901459Why did you do this? How does that heal? Where are the stitches? Holy fuck I feel so bad right now
>>42901459I will mirror your video on my site.thank you for sharing, the have been 3-4 cases of self performed orchi posted on this site but none as well documented as this
>>42901459you were shaking so much with nerves im glad it went okay
>>42901533marina
wow, I didn't expect it to be so quickI've kinda been wanting to try this but after watching that I don't think I could go through with it all the way
>>42901459thanks. where the heck to get lidocaine? im from yurop
Holy fuck this is hard core. Ngl i have friends who do nursing and surgery. Might ask them to do for me in my shithole of a country where its not paid.Respect to you op. Also hopefully your reddit doesn't get banned. I like your posts there.
I thought I was cool funding my clam vag selling drugs, but you Miss. You have me beat.
>>42901459nice fetish content
posting in a legendary thread.
i wish this sickness was against the rules but i don't think it is so i just wish death upon you
wow, congrats. its awesome to hear that you are happy for the first time. it is sad the amount of pain trans people must go through. it was scary when the scalpel turned dull and it felt like you were on the verge of giving up after one. it was relatable when you were shaking too hard to put the caps back on the needles, but maybe i wont shake so hard from just injections after watching this. thank you for making an educational video like this, im sure it will help reduce harm
Fucking based thread put me in the screencap
omg this is crazy, you must have been really desperate... i feel so bad that had to resort to this instead of surgery by a professional. i hope youll be okay nona
>>42901459Historic thread, as many people as possible need to keep this video safe for the future
>>42901459That's crazy, but i respect your commitment
respect, got many cissy balls aching on xitter at least
life uh… finds a way
>>42901459everyone has fucking forgotten about mesityl mesityl (dot) substack (dot) com/p/orchiectomy-part-2she did it better
idk this all sounds way to invasive and complexfor a real fallout-like dystopian wasteland scenario, i keep a bottle of vodka and two syringesknowers know
>>42901459pov: youre the first to fall asleep at the sleepover
good job nona glad it worked out so well!
>>42901459i thought about doing this when i was like 11 because of an old tranny comic i read had a character do something like it, seemed like a good idea. never went through with it though.
I can't really imagine how hard it was for you, to turn towards this kind of extremity. Honestly, was this ordeal easier than leaving your country and getting help abroad?I had leg surgery when I was a kid, and after that I really doubt I'll even get any voluntary surgery, even something as easy as boob implants, I'm so scared of recovery period.But that's me. You did amazing, sis. I really glad you survived and succeeded. Still, get out of where you are ASAP. Your life is only beginning, and you shouldn't spend it in post-Soviet hell.
Why tho?Just take your meds and find better peers. It really is that simple.
>>42901459>It is not instructional. It is not aspirational. It is a record of desperation.By the way that so many compliment you on this idk if I'd agree with that, but if it was really the only choice you had to defeat your dysphoria then I guess I can't really argue with itAlso, get a trip and actually bother to talk instead of just copypasting what you already said on reddit
your based nona love ya
>>42901459>tfw my gock passes better than OPsguess i should nut up and cut out my balls on video too
i feel like people on other social media ESPECIALLY xitter keep misunderstanding this as some sort of tutorial when its the complete oppositeyou did well, its kinda like self immolation in times of protests :)
what the fuck
bosting in ebic
BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRGHHH *vomit*I SAY IT NOW FOREVER TO BE CASTED INTO STONE AND FOR THE HIGHEST LORD TO SEND HIS PUNISHMENT:YOU ARE STERILE MAGGOTS AND WILL BURN IN HELL FOR THIS!FROM EVERY RECORD YOUR NAME SHALL BE ERASED! AND IN EVERY BOOK A SMALL CHAPTER SHALL REMAIN BUT ONLY TO MOCK YOU!LIKE SODOM AND GOMORRAHLIKE SODOM AND GOMORRAHLIKE SODOM AND GOMORRAHTHIS IS THE FATE YOU DESERVE
>>42902432You're reacting like she did an orchiectomy on you and not herself
>>42901533>Nurces REALLY tried to place a catheter, but it looks like there were almost a wall inside soooooo they failed.Did you pee out a clot of blood which had traveled up your tubes and hardened into a plug, or do you think it was like from the tube collapsing as a result of pressure drop from the severed side of the network?
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What did this achieve?
>>42902436sir, please. please. just bleed out...
>>42902460yea, he needs to BLEED OUT AND DIE.
Incredible achievement. Proud of you nona. wait till all the moralfags start crying about it on xitter
jesus christ
>>42901459so based
>>42902546>nazichanhello glowie
the whole reason to advocate for coverage of gender affirming procedures is so returns don't attempt this at home.
>>42902578can you say that again but into my chest?
>>42902587>tfw your husband returns you because you did the sissy snip yourself to save money
>>42902590returns because they gain their wings ^.~
>>42902233Purposfully misunderstanding trannies to make then seem more insane is like bread and butter tbf
lmao the tourists in the thread, this is extremely based I've been waiting for this video since ur first update :p the way your hands shake make me feel maternal
>>42901459holy fucking shit nona congrats on the successful surgery and please apply for asylum. also that dull scalpel was fucking me up jesus
>performing an axewound on yourself
>>42902851>orchi>axewoundnew tourists are so retarded
hiiiu it's me again can you tell me ur discord im a youngshit I want to do this pleeeez
Holy fuck, I didn’t realize how actually demented /lgbt/ wasThe fact that you’re being praised for mutilating yourself is upsetting. That and some of the replies being from teenagers. I really hope you don’t end up regretting this.
This is what happens when trooning out is normalized
>>42902939 S N E E DN———EE———EE———ND E E N S
>>42902851why are you gigaquoting her?
>>42902939having balls is mutilation
bumping this so it's not buried in bait o algo a si
Based and diypilled
>>42901459Damn you are brave.. I can't even imagine doing something like that on myself.. Hope you feel much better now nona!
Based
Holy shit. I realize now my dysphoria is not that bad lol. Which postsoviet shithole are you from, if you dont mind answering?
>>42901459Peak and champion of the peoplepilled
so happy for you sis, you are an inspiration and as a med student I hope I can advocate for better gender affirming care. Please don't get doxxed and stay close to your real life support group :D
faketrans agp rapehons will seethe and cry at this video
>>42902100thats what im sayin...
>>42902939Someone felt so much pain and needed a surgery so bad that when it was denied to her, she did it herself. She's obviously not going to regret it for sure, just suggesting it is unrespectful in my opinion
>>42902939being constantly raped by testosterone is mutilation.
>>42901459based based based
>>42901890Ask at any pharmacy.Or travel to less regulated places (like the Balkans, Hungary or Slovakia) and buy from there.
>>42901459holy based
I’m not trans or anything, but that’s insane you pulled this off and I’m glad you’re okay now. Sorry you had to resort to this, I hope this helps someone get proper medical care
>>42901459They’ll say it isn’t a mental illness, and then shit like this…
>>42903487who is saying it isn't? it's a disorder, we have something abnormal in our brain and we have to treat itit's dysphoria, it's studied, it's distinct from body dysmorphia and requires distinct treatmentyou're not smart for pointing out the obvious, you just look stupid
>>42901459wow props to you, really inspirational, been waiting to see the vid since i saw the first post. i knew a trans girl online who tried something much less extreme, she cut into her testicles but didnt cut them out, she only planned to damage them so that the hospital would have to take them out. very courageous of you to do something like this and i hope you enjoy life more now that you have gotten orchi :D
It’s beautiful
>>42901459sir... another opticsnuke has hit /tttt/
toasting in ebic bread
>>42901459took some balls lol
>>42902982This is what happens when people’s bodily autonomy is denied; when they are denied access to medical care they need
>>42903487Of course it’s a mental illness, the very well documented fact that trans people resort to extremes like this is why intervene with providing them transition services
>>42901459ima be fr with you op, people who are extremely retarded are gonna be weird and repost this video for le "shock humor", but overall i hope that you're doing ok.
>>42903487nothing can treat dysphoria besides trooning and surgeries.
It was worth it to upload 100%
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>>42903900not bad
>>42903886you're the goa/tttt/
>>42901500same hope it gets reuploaded so i can just download.
what the fuck man
>>42903961Link is still up, try switching browsers or turning off the addblock
>>42904011turning off adblock let me download it ty
