let me leave that was the last one what is this

>>42928244
>qott: what'd you do with your day off, anon?

Today I went outside ot bask in the sun, it felt so fucking nice. then I checked the mail, and made art for a bit :P

Living the life desu <3

>>42928244
hi hella jeff

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>>42928244
what are the key traits that separate BOYmoders from MANmoders?

im curious

it's strange that you were able to type up a post considering you seem to be illiterate

>>42928306
Escapism

>>42928244
>qott
usually try to leave bed as little as possible and smoke lots of weed

>>42928306
Age

guess who just booked 10 sessions of face laser

despite being a gigaultramegabeardshadowhon who started at 23, i just managed to mailfail for the first time after nine months
what should be my next course of action?

getting laser

that sounds reasonable desu

>>42928244
>qott
same shit i do every day (fucking nothing)

I baked

I barked

cried about my abusive family.

>>42928831
me too bestie XD

>>42928745
i’m baked

>>42928964
hi baked, i'm gay.

i am bald

good

tomorrow is the everything must change forever for the worse day

>>42928474
What's the cutoff?

/gaygen/ and /mmg/ collab when

>>42931268
25

white supremacists being obsessed with woc isn't really contradictory

yt libs do everything in their power to be oppressed nowadays. they’ll label themselves to death but it’ll never outweigh someone being born black. and then bc they’re yt, the fact a black person is better at being oppressed than them sparks rage

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>>42928244
Last thread I post this in. Thoughts?

>>42928551
Getting topped

>>42928244
final fantasy fourteen

>>42931460
looks like it hurt

i am a idential to a male my transitioj is a failure because im effortgooning

>>42931460
cute af

>>42928306
passability

>>42928519
i had my 6th session a few weeks ago, i dont regret it one bit. hope it goes well for u too

>>42931460
lol you are mentally ill and everyone can see it

let’s say, hypothetically, that im a gay man on hrt with nonbinary tendencies. let’s also say that i enjoy all the effects of estrogen except for my breasts which have now grown a little too large. finally let’s say that my hips are small such that i will never pass as either a woman or a womanoid. should i get ffs or a mastectomy?

>>42931529
suicide

>>42931532
im beginning to think that a mastectomy would be prudent as i enjoy the freedom of binding

>>42931539
se mata

>>42931544
maybe i should ask the kind bros at hrt men general

>>42931505
thanks! i’m a little salty because like 2 hours after i booked mine as 10 sessions for like 2k, my mom told me about how my sister-in-law is getting 6 sessions of even more extensive laser for like $525 lol

>>42928244
>qott
i camped in a national forest and didn't talk to anyone or shower

You Ladies man passing today? Are you going to get through this day without one mailfail? Good luck ladies, I pray your coworkers stay non the wiser~

i have never and will never male fail

>>42932289
Do you grow your hair out?

>>42932222
quads of mockery, i apparently malefailed once from behind but haven’t actually been gendered female to my face at all

i only malefail from a 100 yard distance with squinted eyes in heavy fog at night

i am a failed male

When I'm done with uni, I'll move back to my parents place because shit job market.
They'll force me off hrt and I'll immediately start balding.
LOL LMAO I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE

>>42932743
to a blind and deaf person

gm moders

>>42932819
you're an adult you stupid piece of shit just dont tell them

>>42932926
It's fucking obvious I'm on hrt after 3 years.
Also my mom already knows because I broke down mentally over it as a teenager.

>>42932952
can you people do anything

i moved out immediately after i finished college idk

just get a job and escape your abusive transphobic parents you stupid piece of shit can you people do anything LOL
kill yourself

lia the job market was different in 1982

>>42933024
true job market was def different in 2008 kek

oh no i made an unemployed loser angry

Just day trade brah.

Also question what jobs can a repper get to become financially independent, move out and troon out.

share your positions cm

drug dealer

cm just kill yourself brah

>>42933061
I work as a network and implementation engineer for an MSP. Manmode though, but I feel like if they did find out at this point, it'd be more detrimental getting rid of me than just dealing with the tranny in the office.
If you can display a technical skill well, a lot of these service provider gigs really like to find and retain people with actual skills.

>>42933044
i'm an employed angry loser thank you very much

>>42933110
Doggy

>>42933166
I only ever worked construction and warehouse gigs. How hard is it to get into these positions without w diploma or w/e?
I can learn things pretty well when i have to. I know how to weld fiberoptic cable

hooray another hijacked repping thread about cm

Hate my shitty malebrained STEM degree.

>>42933265
I found it easy to work up from entry in the span of like 4 years.
Start with comptia certs and get a level 1 helpdesk gig. A+ and Network + look good to employers looking for entry level help desk positions. They're pretty easy ones too
Actually learn your shit and take more work and solve more issues than you should... If you make an impression on the office that you know your shit, when it comes time to find someone to fill a higher position, they'll look to your first.
Once you're in the help desk position, shift your studies to building out server infrastructure in AWS or Azure... Also try to take a crack at basic networking.... 80% of the shit you'd end up doing is troubleshooting simple Vlan configuration issues and loopbacks... The rest is just literally setting up switches and firewall from out of box to deployment. It seems to make superiors in this field real happy when you can display a level of competence they wouldn't expect from the level you're at. There are a lot of Bozos that come through, so when they see skill in action, they really like to hold onto it.
Only thing I will say, MSP work will suck the soul from you if you can't train you're reward center to release happy brain chemicals upon closing a ticket.

I like this field right now though because I have over 200 networks in my purview... I get to see almost every issue possible and find a resolution to them.. In a few more times, I would like to start marketing myself as a CTO, or head system admin at a singular company to spend the rest of my life on easy mode.

>>42933388
Very comprehensive thank you. Im not sure if im even gonna do work fulltime. Currently in college for a law degree but lowk.dont care about it. Would like to get tranny funds sooner than later but ehh.
I've done a bit of that in school but it was as basic as setting up a switch between two points but i think i could figure it out.

I have 0 reward center for anything but i can do shit for work when i have to.

>>42933388
Another thing to note.

I noticed that these MSP will try to keep you at the lowest pay they can without you leaving. However, if you managed to create a name for yourself in the company, you should be able to put your two weeks in, and simply watch as your president and director scramble to come up with a counter offer to keep you... I have gotten my two largest raises and a company car this way lol... Obv this one is one of those "millage may vary" type things as some employers have incredible egos that supersede their bottom lines

>replying to attention bait with 1555 characters of text

i have sex with my father in exchange for $900 USD a month

>>42933410
Honestly Senpai,

Stick with the law lol.... I feel like thats also one of those fields where you work your ass off in your 20s so your 30s onward are a breeze!
Do entry levels positions in that field require you to finish your degrees?
I feel like that'll make you incredibly marketable showing that you had a past in the field before even completing your education.

replying to bait and getting wordfiltered, nothing sadder desu

>>42933423
I like typing O.O

>>42933447
>Do entry levels positions in that field require you to finish your degrees?
Yep unless ur literally judt applying for low level office work at a law firm.
You need to pass the lawyer exam.to do anything in the court but theres a lot of other shit to do just with the degree


Point being i dont wanna wait.5 years to troonout and i have 0 money. Might have to look for online work or like call center bs or smth during.

>filter cm
>life is good
>he regularly gets people replying to him with gigantic blocks of text
okay.

>>42933465
Ive actually been thinking about doing paid millitary training for 1 year to secure the troonout funds and then going back to college. They pay sorta well and with 1 years worth of salary id have enough not to go homeless if chuddy parents delete me.

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>>42932222
I am too tall to ever malefail but my mom did ask if I was hiding my chest for any reason yesterday

I'm happy they at least ID me for booze still. Otherwise itd be ogre.
I wish i could be a youthful twink boy who is rly into cool fashion and passionate about his special interests and who has friends and stuff... Its ogre.

>>42933480
Is keeping it a secret from them not an option? Or are you intending to go full woman mode the moment E touches your bloodstream?

>>42933618
are you new here

The Rapist

>>42933618
Nah i intend to be a cis male on hrt bc i dont have dysphoria and would hate to be seen or treated as a woman. Issue is that my mom is lowkirk skitzo(still love her a lot tho) and like searched my room for drugs or whatever and has been doing so ever since i was a kid.

One time i bought vit B12 and my mom threw out the whole pill bottle and lectured me about how its probably bad foe my liver so i think she'd freak out over hrt.

She also tried to gaslight me that im not balding and keeps bitching about balding meds and hair health suplements.

>>42933606
Aww shii,
Im running into the tit problem too now. Not too sure how I am going to tackle summer 2026.
God was funny af to me.. He made me short for a man and basically body hairless, then gave me the manliest of manly facial features.

>>42933668
Shorties and small weenies are usually high testosterone bc during puberty once you reach a certain level of T the growth plates fuse and thats it for yo dih and yo height.
You can fuck around with HGH but thats dark science.

Also the reason behind elven-core angelic twinkhons with huge fat githy schlongs.

>>42933642
Kind of, started looking for trans spaces not too long ago because I decided I should actually interact with other trannies instead of basing my perception of the community purly off of what I've seen on reddit.
So far funny enough, this place has been the most tolerable.

>>42933682
>>42933656
Damn, sorry to hear that.. Hope you figure something out soon!

And yeah, would've been nice to have facial hair at the least... Probably could've still been repping. It was a cruel jape giving me a chad chin with no beard to style it with...

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>>42933668
>>42933668
Yeah summer is gonna be rough this year especially cuz Im in southern Cali so it’s gonna be rlly hot
And I’m sure ur not as bad as u think u are Nona. We’re all our harshest critic and that goes doubly here

>>42933731
Oof good luck out there desert nona!
Im hoping my Hawaiian shirts can hold the line this year xD

Also, thanks for your kind words~

there's not gonna be a women's liberation you stupid bitch

good morning I hate men (me)

>>42932222
all day every day, coworkers know I'm a troon anyway

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>>42928306
Having to ask this question

>erm cis women don't do that
bro the average cissoid woman is probably victim blaming and defending some rapist moid on live tv right now

>>42933331
>malebrained STEM degree.
you have a highly misogynistic outlook

i asked chatgpt if my 17.5 inch bideltoid is wide and it said that it's wide cause the NHANES dataset shows the average female bideltoid is between 14 and 16 inches and that even if it was feminine on ansur that ansur was a hugbox (yes it used the word hugbox) but then i pointed out that NHANES didnt measure bideltoid or biacromial and that it was hallucinating and that ansur 1 survey data is from before women had combat roles and then it apologized and said my shoulders were feminine

>>42934709
ffs

>>42934709
chatgpt sucks for this. use deepseek if you want to use ai for spiraling

>>42934709
can you hold my hand while i sleep i've been having bad nightmares

>>42934797
Can I use one of these Models for gauging what I should seek in terms of FFS?

I feel like seeking a consultation from an actual surgeon is like asking a used car salesman what car he thinks I should buy

>>42934818
you can try with chatgpt. But it would just predict how your ffs would end up looking like based on the before and after pictures it has access to. I doubt it would tell you what you should get just like that. You'd probably need to do some amount of manipulating it.

>>42934888
Yeah I tried GPT

Not sure I can trust that one... It feels very hugboxy. Tells me I need minimal interventions on the areas I felt were the worst. I need to find like some russian developed model

faaah my rib cage is so wide

is it normal when you buy pajama that if you raise your arms it shows your belly lmao even belly button. bought fucking XL.

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Im getting far too manly without HRT. I can't goon to feminization looking at myself in the mirror like this. GOD HELP ME FUCK. Also I can't be a high level crossdresser without getting laser since I look like twink jewish Rambo in a day but I like my stubble to attract the ladies~ GOD HELP ME FUCK.

>data centers in Israel get blown up
>mmg suddenly gets much slower
hmmmm

anyone here trans?

>>42934919
it will always tell you that you pass and ywabaw and so on. Tell it what you want and to edit a picture of you in that way. Then you decide for yourself if the outcome is good.

Getting it to judge your appearance is probably just pointless. Try uploading the same image and telling it you are ftm. It will tell you that you are a chad gigapassoid.

>>42935449
no I'm a liar and a fraud I just wanted boobs and a pussy not to be a woman

>>42935107
TAKE YOUR FUCKING HRT RETARD

>>42935487
don't engage with that guy he's been here for years making retarded ass posts like that

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using hp and lining up the perfect angle to make sure no on else gets hurt

>>42935487
ok
>>42935522
yeah im trying to fix stuff im so lazy

If there are anyone from France who wanna meet and become partners some day, please respond here:
desudesux@proton .me
t. 27yo manmoder on hrt

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trying is always a mistake

>>42935458So like, I am not even asking it to tell me if I pass.
I will paste the exact prompts down below I have been experimenting with.

1: What shaped head / face do I have
-upload 4 pictures of front left profile, right, and from bottom up

2: Precise breakdown

3:What cosmetic procedures specifically around FFS would have to be done to have the face lean more towards feminine/female?

4:Which procedures are and are not recommended?

Proceed to upload more face pictures just to reinsure the model is still making its estimations based off my references.

Results: Procedures that could make sense (optional, not necessary)

These are enhancements, not corrections.

Soft-tissue brow lift (or Botox brow lift)

Only if you want increased eye openness

No bone work

Subtle only

Very light cheek fat grafting or filler

To enhance softness

Not for structure

Not to create angles

Botox (situational)

Brow lift

Masseter only if muscle bulk appears later

Procedures that are clearly not recommended

This is now unambiguous.

Brow bone reduction

Rhinoplasty for feminization

Jaw angle reduction

Chin reshaping

Cheekbone implants

Full or multi-procedure FFS

These would:

Disrupt facial harmony

Increase surgical look risk

Offer minimal or negative feminization payoff

You think I'd have better luck if I just out right ask it to edit pictures to fall in line with results of common FFS features and make my own determinations instead of trying to take it from an analytical approach?

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which of these characters has your favorite design

>>42935590
they're all terrible holy shit stop

i'm about to have my first proper meal after fasting for days and I'm excited that I'll stop feeling like i'm dying. i'm gonna have to measure my plate though since my tummy isn't big enough for my ravenous appetite and i don't wanna end up throwing up.
>>42935590
the fourth one. looks like the boymoder

>>42935579
Yes. Even you using the word ffs is interpreted as -> this is a troon! Hugbox mode activated.
My brow bone is pretty noticeable, and it tells me that it is barely visible. But if you need chin and forehead work should be obvious without anyone telling you anyway.

>>42935671
Gotcha, I'll give your advice a crack
I really wish they could make these things without a morality filter lmfao.
If only objectivity wasn't such a taboo these days V.V

>>42935579
please dont ask gpt what ffs to get holy shit haha

>>42935737
Im not trying to take it's word as gospel.
I was just hoping that it could give me a more analytical and objective approach based off the metric fuck ton of data it has to work off to get a better idea of the direction I should be going.

Like I said earlier, (and this is probably just stupid stubborn male thinking)
I worry that going to an actual surgeon for a consultation would be akin to asking the used car salesmen which car he thinks I should buy from his lot.

Unfortunately, it appears that GPT and even grock has had all of their objectivity neutered.

>>42935775
it's just autocomplete bro get over it

>>42935775
research what the procedures do, look at before/afters for them to see what real results look like
ask other trannies here, there are several who've had incredible results and you can ask them about it without masking
then go to consults with more than one surgeon if you're still worried about it

sometimes I wish I were "worth it" to other people the way they seem to be to each other
other times I am grateful for my outsider perspective
: )

>>42935841
.ask other trannies

Yeah... really should try that.
Guess the only thing stopping me from doing that is the idea that my face is too fubar for any type of FFS to have any real effect.
I think in my mind, hearing that from a script was easier to digest than it coming from a real person.

>>42935898
you're on t4 so everybody is gonna be a cunt but underneath that we're all stupid faggots with the same fears as you
i need type 3 forehead smashing, hairline advancement, brow lift, lip lift so i can have an upper lip someday
im still debating if i should get any jaw contouring kuz i might not need it if i lose like 40 more lbs kek

>chamber the round
>pussy out and eject
>repeat x17

anyways lets talk about fun stuff

>>42936116
why post here and not in mtfg? please be honest last hance

i'm going to hang myself by the neck until i am dead.

>>42936139
wdym im in both

>>42936147
gay
adn likely to fail
brain damage and facial disfigurement

I malefailed in the middle east, corrected the guy (said I'm a guy) and got stared at :(

I will only accept 9mm HP through my fucking brainstem
not even SN I sawhow bad that gos I'm too puss yfo that
RIP efchan

>>42936151
both what
please these are my last moments be honest why are you here

you know I was the one who suggested EFchan look for other more effective methods
just because she lashed out when I tried to be sympathetic re: her appearnce
I think I killed her LOL

>>42936152
sorry but i'm built different and i wouldn't fuck it up.

I told her to try SN instead of hanging
likei s' actulaly many fault

>>42936185
goood for you have fun idk there's smoeone itt who posts talking about a failed hanging
you see the suicide gif thread recently? good shit even a teen girl who gave up ad na hero'd that way, vdery sad but effective

I just feel such terror at those last gurgling sounds and clutching at the neck like holy shi wha if you are PARTYLY concsious for that
nothihg but pure brainstem obliertarion for me

B O O M

just like what if you taste it or feel it in your neck of the roof the mouth that's what Im worried about

>>42936201
>obliertarion
fucking lmao

like tyler durden
>what's that smell

>>42936224
xd
givigng up I'm a grammer nazi and spellin fasscist snf make other feeel like shit for msall mistakes but but w?e

>>42935917
Yeah, shits telling me to do nothing with my nose and chin! THATS A FUCKING LIE LOL

>>42936232
not trying to make you feel bad, sorry. i said "obliertarion" out loud and the pronounciation made me lol. definitely the name of an elf twink in a bad fantasy novel

>>42935107 here

im going to shave and see if i look better in the leggings and marie the aristokitty pajamas. against the grain which will probably cause bleeding.

>>42936173
im literally posting in both threads
>last moments
i enjoy being social with people who are like me
>>42936270
if youre gonna get hugboxxed at least get hugboxxed by a person amirite

haven't even done my own hrt
did my final dose last week
no point

Ok so.
Assuming in a tranny.
Even if i take hrt ill still be quite ugly right. And i'll still need to figure a lot of shit out.
For now i need to figure out
>Money
>Fitness
>Hobbies so that im not a husk no more.
All doable. I will seriously consider hrt but all of the above is imho far more important.
Idk tho.


Sorry for being an indecisive bitch ive just had a p tough life so.im not good with being wise or doing the right thing.

anyone I haevever or could have met will be better off with me gone

you can figure out if youre trans 'for sure' without taking any steps to transition
>>42936410
you dont think for the entire rest of your life you'd have a positive impact on anyone or anything
not a single one time ever
?

the blind leading the blind

do you ever think maybe we should just admit that all pussy looks kinda gross and everyone's just pretending to like it?

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>>42936425
How would i go about that?
Whenever im drunk i really want to look 1:1 like a woman but it never happens when im sober. I drink a lot tho.
>>42936531
I been saying that.

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>>42928244
i see so many homestuck related images on this board. what is it about homestuck and lgbt people?

>>42936531
no I think pussy is beautiful from the arby's roast beef to the coinslot puffy vulva

I should go to sleep but i rly wanna play some mewgenics.

you gotta separate what you want from what everybody else wants
what other stuff do you want when youre drunk that you dont want sober

after approximately two months of doing absolutely nothing all day, every day, completely uninterrupted, i have decided to simply stop being depressed.

at a concert wearing the band’s merch, they’re gonna kill me

ruined everything award

i’m sure there’s plenty of things you haven’t ruined. there’s probably even things you’ve improved

>>42936785
she didn't think so
not enough
not good enough

>>42936531
YES

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cheese and cracker din yum

it's red lol

>>42936857
Lia could you answer my question or talk to me some.

I drank a lot and want to be around ppl rn

>>42936720
Ooooh uuuh.
I guess to play vidyagames but online ones with ppl.
When im sober i ALWAYS go with path of least resistance and just not do anything ever bc im a deeply repressed man in all manners of life.

Also to write like shortform narratives.

oh i have a good idea
lia maybe you and cm could go hang out in repgen instead of here

ah man i think i sprained my nutbladder

can't sop throwing up xd

>>42936907
>>42936907
Sorry

>>42936907
im comfy right here anon :p

>>42936951
Ok so heres my opinion.
Its generally agreed uppn that your drank self.isnt the REAL self.
So even if right now with a BAC of 0.20 i want to be Asa Mitaka its probably not something to base longterm life choices on.
RigHt?

haven't puked like this since my 20s hory shet

if you had a million dollars and 20 years you still wouldn't look like asa mitaka you retarded repper fuck off into repgen you selfish piece of trash

if i had a million dollars i would drink myself to death in 2 years

>>42936926
take benydril

>>42937063
wait how expensive is your booze

>>42937047
Thsts 100% true sadly and one of the big reasons im REPPING.

>>42936737
i need to do this

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stop this at once

>>42937063

Had a million dollars in 2023, Presently drinking myself to death

t. failed transition, tranny shit is a lie, SRY gene intersex doesn't mean you should troon like I did.

>>42937112
Im off to speep for 5 hours

>>42937115
how much shmoney you got left?

>>42936737
happens

pukey pukey!

500k would be enough for me never work again

>>42937126
i got aids not money.

>>42937159
spent 1 million dollars on designer AIDS

shirt that says "i spent 1 million dollars on alcohol in 3 years and all i got is AIDS"

>>42937158
that's enough for anyone, if you invest it wisely

lmao

I genuinely couldnt look like Asa bc of my crooked nose. Face is kinds okay snd hair is getting better. Might give in snd do wigs even if their obvious as fuck. I JUDT EANT TO BE CUTE. ILL do lowkirk anything to be cute. I mean it.

how do I tell a moder I want to kiss her

>>42937431
directly and without any bullshit

>>42937287
will u do ffs?

as a manmoder I am stricken with delusions of adequacy

>>42937457
i’m realistic, i know i’m deeply inadequate at everything

it's awesome living in a country that routinely loses foreign wars against smaller and poorer countries with less sophisticated weapons

>>42937431
brap in her general direction

maybe no injection this week

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im wearing marie the aristocat pajamas. i feel like a legit woman. its so feminine and my arms are shaved and im wearing a bra. its quite comfy ngl. no homo. only thing is my face breaks the illusion. ai is grooming me ever since i saw an ai feminization thread its been grooming me to act this way, in fact it told me to go buy it. but its nothing serious. just funposting. marie the cat is really cool shes snobby but cool/funny. hehe. thats it.

>>42937580
at least they spend billions on those wars while providing very little to their citizens

https://youtu.be/20iCZeU35eQ

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i am a sad faggot loser and my life sucks dick.

worthless human being award

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other people get to spend their friday nights doing things together with others and having fun and decompressing after the week
I get to spend them crying and throwing up alone

im worthless and disgusting and everyone hates me

>>42938432
same worstie

>>42938203
would your life suck dick if you were sucking dick? would the suck squared outsuck the sorrowful and sordid soliloquy of your sovl?

im playin overwatch wif elfi its fun

please unblock me

please

can we get a suicide caused by lia counter going

>>42938437
no u r almost certainly better than me,
worstie is a good one though

i was born to be an illiterate serf and toil my life away growing crops. it's very unfortunate that i'm forced to read and write and do skilled labor.

I was born to die

I don't know why I've dragged my heels on yeeting my balls I could never have or take care of or raise a child I've been a fool
the diy orchi video got me thinking but I'm pretty sure I can just get a doc to do it for me

it would be a fun and elaborate suicide though esp if I streamed it

>>42938529
PRUNING SHEARS PRUNING SHEARS PRUNING SHEARS

>>42938541
ok where do I stream it

>>42938411
you could always try having fun here

>>42938578
how

>>42938585
idk. we have fun sometimes i think

>>42938595
lol

i haven't had fun since dakota disappeared

gave myself bruises again award

only worth to anyone is not killing myself and leaving more of a burden to others like it's an obligation

screamed my voice hoarse again award

4 hours elder scrolls arena retrospective

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we don't have fun in here, we post ragebait and rehash the same 5 topics over and over again

got my friday pajamas on

not worth anyone's honesty or inclusion intheir life

computer, run program "manmoder mpreg breeding farm". safeties OFF.

>>42938608
i once bruised my own forehead

>>42938646
that's what I mean
might have given myself a black eye again too lol ioops

everyone always decides I'm not good enough

I don't get to have family

I don't get to have friends

I don't get to have anyone

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do you think alfred is a repper

>>42938684
your art is trash

>>42938650
it wasn’t self harm for me, i just stuck a suction cup to my forehead and it bruised

>>42938706
oh
I like to sit alone screaming and punching myself in the face

made one girl change her number and get a restraining order
made one move states and drop out of a friend group
scared another's family and ruined her life

probably best to give up and stop trying with anyone

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>>42938691
not always

danny phantom ass faggot shit

>>42938729
this sucks ass bro

>not always
>posts something worse
lole

>>42938729
sorry that was mean but that's not helping lol

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time for the daily kale smoothie abomination

I wish I could understand and copy whatever makes it so easy for someone to move on from and not think about about someone else they said they loved

i need my pussy ate

same but I have no pussy and I'm not gonna live long enough to get one

should i learn how to make vocaloid/utau music?

i need my peenus sucked on till i fuckign splooge

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I'm going to learn how to bite the bullet baby

thinking things are ok or improving is always a trap and I will never let it happen again

shell never leave me because i give really good head

>>42938857
giwtwm

anyone wanna come over and smoke the acetylized jew with me

did she leave me because my head wasn't good enough

I think this is really it

a whole in my head will fix me and the wrongs I've done to others

whole

>>42938870
yes!

hole milk

my ex couldn't get enough of the head or dick game and kept coming back for it
too bad it wasn't enough to make her be honest or not cheat on me lol
nothing I do or try is ever good enough for anyone and never will be

nobody's head has ever compared to my dad's. honestly ruined relationships for me because nobody else is good enough.

i give horrible head(penis)
i give alright head(non penis)

>>42938857
my ex left me despite me giving good head and receiving no head

I'll never know if the people I've been with are bad at giving head or if I'm just bad at receiving it

nobody has ever made me cum from any kind of external stimulation and i don't know if they are all just bad or i have zero sensitivity as a result of shooting up bathtub chemicals

>>42928244
>qott
got tricked again and fellf or it

I'm always the problem and I'm removing myself from the equation

>>42939220
maybe you need your ass fucked

>>42939246
that's retarded. you need your ass fucked. fuck you

>>42939205
that's because you need to get fucked in the ass

>>42939285
>>42939292
I only ever let one person really do that and it was great but she didn't like it and it was my last chance so

call me the TIM man the way im painted silver and missing a heart

>>42931460
I want to run my finger down it like a stick against a fence

>>42939354
you’re painted silver?

>>42939275
it feels nice emotionally to have a guy on top of me but ultimately that doesn't work either

I don't deserve to eat

I'll never be compatible with anyone

how's about my dick is compatible with your ass

it's not lol

i'm the one who decides that.

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>>42939434
huffingh

does anyone want to make out and then kill ourselves with one bullet through both of our heads like a cartoon

>>42939550
would desu

>>42939553
wya

>>42939550
mogs me

holy fuck I need to die so badly why am I such a coward

there's no fixing things or coming back

there's nothing left to fix

it was all just in my head wasn't it

there was nothing there all along

I want to die
I need to die
it's for the best

simply put its too late

>>42939559
drive down colorado state highway 82 off hwy 24 just south of leadville and keep going until you reach a hairpin turn near willis gulch trailhead after which you will come across a small gravel pullover that leads to a water gauge bridge. go over the bridge and hike into the aspen grove until you see the rusted shell of an old car with bullet holes then go straight towards the clearing and eventually you will find a collapsed mine near the base off the mountain

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>>42939606
I don't drive

its over

it's all going to be ok I promise
I'm sorry

anyone wanna meet me in the Love's truckstop bathroom in Hagerstown, Maryland in an hour? just tap on the door of the last stall in the men's room and i'll let you in.

which one of you did i meet at tanbark ridge overlook on the blue ridge parkway while it was snowing north of asheville on thursday during the morning and you asked to see my photography

I think I'm making a mistake

I made a mistake failing at killing myself years ago and I'm a mistake for hannging on this long for nothing and no one
everyone whos elives I have touched will only improve when I'm gone

I just wish no one had pretended
it would have been easier
can't stop thinking

that's the worst. when u can't stop thinking

literally cannot stop screaming
maybe someone will make the clall and I get to suicide by cop

to be completely genuine for once i care about u moders and i do hope u all get what u want in life

fakemoders only*
you don't care about me
I aiont' shit to no one

>>42939707
gaylord

i dont deserve what i do have

i love truemoders to because i am one

how do I get over the fear of fucking up or that it might hurt

with a gun

>>42939756
got that!! still a coward, watching a lot of videos recently of attempts gone wrong and worried

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>>42939744
know before you go

if you use a slug and aim towards the stem of the brain it probably has less chance of going wrong but i don't think you should do it because things are probably not as bad as you say thoughie

>>42939774
neat thanks for the info
I wouldn't dare try hanging though, watched failed and successful attempts for that too and it seems awful no matter what

can someone acknowledge my existence

>>42939776
they are worse
I am naively optimistic and believe what people say when they are lying and being positive because I want to see the best, and that only brings pain
I am torn between in the mouth, under the chin, or against the back of the head all pointing at brainstem - no side of the temple vegetable land bullshit

>>42939782
how do you know it is worse?

>>42939639
>Love's truckstop
must…poast…coal
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qve_SrXx5pY

>>42939801
I am experiencing worse than I ever let on to anyone even here "anonymous"ly

>>42939713
just like me fr

i skipped showering the last two days. i think i probably just smell bad instead of stinking good :(

as long as you don't smell like actual shit there's no amount of stank that can turn me off

why am I only attracted to men and trans women and should I kill myself etc

I'm gonna smell like actual shit when I pop myself lol still not sure if I wanna do it in the shower and be consider or do it in bed and be comfy

u should go into the woods so the mess is just lapped up and eaten by coyotes. better to die under the stars methinks

>>42939846
maybe that would be kind of nice
I used to fantasize a lot about going to my hometown and wandering into the mountains to do it but I'd have to fly so I'd need a different method

>>42933649
Hi
>>42938726
>restraining order
What did you do

i can’t kill myself, my brother is probably gonna get a divorce soon and have to deal with baby custody if so and adding a dead closeted tranny to that mess seems a little mean to my family

>>42939901
>What did you do
just beeing myself!!!

>>42939913
keep your stinger to yourself :/

>>42939928
working on it!!!

my life was better when i was drinking until i pissed my pants on a regular basis

need moder4moder

>>42939961
no more
never again

>>42939963
what went wrong? :(

>>42939967
me

do any of u fw RAotCA/part ways with self

>RAotCA
what?

voice anti-training where I deliberately make myself sound more gravely and deeper

>>42941059
that's still voice training

>>42941175
it's just me screaming and sobbing lol but yeah I know pooners voice train too

my horoscope said I would meet a new love tomorrow and to put myself out there
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzRml5pHQCs
I think I'll just wallow in my own misery alone inside all day just in case

>>42937449
Nosejob is the most ill do bc its hella cheap and changes a lot.

>>42941194
can we date I'll hold you and tell you everything will be ok

i'm getting chubby but in the ugly moid way instead of the cute way :( kms