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Anonymous

i keep disappointing and hurti(...) 03/16/26(Mon)10:35:20 No.42961360

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i keep disappointing and hurting the only person that cares about me Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)10:35:20 No.42961360 Archived

bpd is one hell of a thing and im a horrible person, the only girl that ever loves me is too dependant /attached to me to leave me, which i would totally deserve, i keep hurting her even though i love her so much and i feel so out of control of my actions sometimes, i really love her and i dont want to hurt her anymore, i dont know what to do it makes me want to cut myself or kill myself but that would just hurt her even more idk what to do :( i dont have anyone but her and i keep messing things up and saying things that hurt her even though i know i shouldnt be saying some things and from the outsider view it looks like i hate her sometimes which is just not true but i cant help it and be retarded sometimes and do retarded things idk why i am like that

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)13:30:08 No.42962509

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)13:30:08 No.42962509

>>42961360
I feel you nona I'm pretty much in the same boat. Unconditional love is strange and confusing and it's hard to be loved while broken and trying to get better.

I don't think you're a broken person, it sounds like you want to change and not do the things that you end up doing.

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)14:46:52 No.42963220

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)14:46:52 No.42963220

anyone know what to do against this :(

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)15:00:46 No.42963349

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)15:00:46 No.42963349

>>42961360
Well, have you told her all this? Maybe showed her this post? She's probably like to know your feelings about it.

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)15:09:02 No.42963422

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)15:09:02 No.42963422

>>42963349
i wont show her the post since she doesnt want me to use this site, but she knows how i feel and told me that when i hate myself or feel worthless, that she loves me more than i hate myself and that i should always keep that in mind
:( i dont deserve her at all
even after hurting her she stays with me and tells me that

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)15:25:56 No.42963564

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)15:25:56 No.42963564

>>42961360
you're in therapy right?

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)15:38:37 No.42963688

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)15:38:37 No.42963688

>>42963564
i used to be, but they just told me that bpd is common for women my age and that im just fucked and that its incurable, they dismissed all my other issues too idk
went to 2 therapists and they told me the same things

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)19:37:34 No.42965844

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)19:37:34 No.42965844

I hope things go well for you
All I can recommend from personal experience is to always make sure you communicate clearly with anyone you think youve hurt and if your not sure to ask them if theirs anything they dont understand or feel hurt about

Anonymous
03/16/26(Mon)22:03:53 No.42967489

Anonymous 03/16/26(Mon)22:03:53 No.42967489

>>42961360
what retarded things do you do