28yo cis male. Long story short, I live in a country where being trans will get you killed. I know that technically could happen anywhere but moreso where I live. I cannot leave as I have family members here who depend on me and I can't bring myself to just abandon them. I'm currently engaged to a girl who is very beautiful, I thought maybe getting married to a beautiful woman would help curb my faggy thoughts but it hasn't helped at all. I love her and will be a kind honest and caring husband to her but I can't talk to her about this ever, she'd never understand and would possibly be a bit freaked out. I don't just want to be with her I want to BE her.Quite frankly, I do not wish to go through the pain and effort of medically transitioning. Transitioning would not fix my dysphoria anyways as I really just want to live my life over again from the beginning as a biological female. My only option now is to just live the rest of my life as a man and maybe just twinkmax, despite my burning desire to be a woman. Maybe I can live vicariously through my future wife. Will this pain ever go away or am I doomed to have these cursed thoughts until the day I die? Will I be an 80 year old man and still be wishing I could live again as the fairer sex?
>>42965982"What is 2+2? And don't tell me 4, give me a real answer"
>>42965982>I cannot leave as I have family members here who depend on meSend money like every other immigrant on earth?
>>42966009what do you mean by this >>42966125it's not just money, I have a younger brother and sister with severe learning disabilities. They need me physically to do things for them and my parents are getting older now so it's harder for them to do the things that need to be done. It's really hard to hire carers for them too because they don't take kindly to strangers they basically only trust me.
>>42965982Kind of late for twinkcoping honestly I doubt you can honestly pull it off that age out of the blue. I did everything to preserve myself, and I'm walling hard at 29. Tbqh I'd just take e and ralox, and twinkmaxx if I were you, let yourself do it anon, you deserve some happiness. It's honestly just your business. t.stealth trooning atm
>>42965982>How do I cope with the fact that I will just never be a woman ever >28yo cis male.stopped reading right there. baby, you don't need to be a "woman" do you even know what a woman is? 99% of the people fail to define that term. But maby this will help ya, cutie: You are perfectly fine as you are, you can be my feminine boy, you can cross dress all you want in bed, nigga you can even present femme irl, but you don't need to pump hormones in your body and I'd still pump sperm in your anus. You are perfectly fine as you are <3 don't get wormed, you are just a gay faggot and that's fine. (I still support trannies) but wigga, get over it... you are 28, many trannies look like shit, even when they transition @16. You have to be ultra luckshit with money, but even then, it's not guaranteed, because you (probably) grew up giga malebrained. And you Link picrel confirms that (but hes a hot twink, just like you <3)
>>42966646>I have a younger brother and sister with severe learning disabilities. They need me physically to do things for them and my parents are getting older now so it's harder for them to do the things that need to be doneTranslation: I live exclusively for other people and can't even conceptualize thinking about myself.You deserve your misery.Come back when you realize that life is short and you don't owe it to others 100% of the time and you do in fact deserve some happiness for yourself and there's really nothing wrong with telling others to fuck off from time to time.
>>42966831Yeah I get the whole live for yourself thing but I can't turn my back on people who need and just spend the rest of my life worrying about them
>>42967218*people who need me
>>42967218>I can't turn my back on people who need meYes, you can.You don't want to, but stop lying to yourself that you can't. Of course you can. And in fact it would be a very good idea to do so. But you refuse to do it and choose to harm yourself for absolutely no benefit to yourself whatsoever.Own your choices. Your misery is your fault and a direct result of your conscious choices.
