I dont want to go through the constant humiliation ritual of transitioning and being a tranny, but i dont know how much longer i can take this.
>>42966458No
>>42966468fuuuuucckkkkk
>>42966458bump
>>429664582 months it's ago so far, but sometimes a catch a glance at my budding breasts and then see my frame and feel like some creature or freak of nature. Oh well, I told myself my worst-case scenario win condition was that I would keep my hair, and have better skin.
>>42966988have you had any thoughts about trooning trooning yet
>>42966458>is hrt repping viable long term?after 2 years it's starting to feel pretty bad so I'd say no.
>>42966458that's literally just manmoding.if you don't want noticeable boobs you WILL get them (grew to 40c by the end of my first year on ee2)
>>42966458after 3y of hrt repping I decided to detroon and go back to real repping2 days off e so far hopefully I make it
>>42968145no yeah is gonna be fucking over im already chubby/maybe minor gyno any bigger and they're female looking. but im honestly fine binding, its less about people noticing i have tits and more about having to be "a tranny"
>>42968150why'd you stop
Started HRT at 18, 27 now. Still boymode. I get mistaken for being young, but distinctly male even tho my hairs getting long again and dyed blonde. I'd say it's viable. I'm also 6'1 so I never had a hope to begin with.
>>42968174I was genuinely happier as a real repper. I’ll admit some of the effects of E are nice but it’s just too hard to be an hrt repper bc it feels like purgatory bc I can’t convince myself I’m just a normal cis male anymore but at the same time I still don’t want to be a tranny
>>42966458I'm two years into hrtrepping, honestly I wouldn't recommend it at all, it's not impossible, definitely not viable long-term however. it can be a very shitty experience.
>>42966458i think its entirely dependent on your dice roll yeah? like if your >6ft like me and that nona do you really have a choice?but also what do you mean viable? like is putting off social transition psychologically sustainable? or do you mean will you get "caught" and forced out. i have no idea. i cant imagine anyone hostile to it actually clocking me and saying something, only people sympathetic. but im not fat at all so im definitely not going to be able to pretend its gyno lolim just gonna manmode until i male fail which i wont so oh well whatever. i wasnt really transitioning for external validation from the average random in the first place.
>>42966458As scary as girlmoding was, I remember after I'd had a taste of it pretty soon I literally could not go back to boymoding. I was avoiding errands etc just because I could not take the thought of getting back into boy clothes.
>>42969388im talking like psychologically i just dont want to be seen as a tranny but im super done with how male my body is. i hiding it is not that concerning to me i just dont want the judgment that comes with being trans
>>42966458anon ur doing a thing nobody told u to do, ur the one running the experiment hereur the one that will tell ppl how it's working out or show by example of how ur life is
Almost one year in and aside from deluding myself by thinking men are more attracted to me now(I don't really believe it but it's fun), everything is the same so yeah I guess it is doable.
>>42969404just realized i phrased the original post kinda bad. im currently a non hrt repper.
>>42969409well u ask if it's viable but the answer is still 'lets find out'tell us how it goes over the years
>>42968150you'll go back ondon't throw out the meds
>>42969467im basically out already, wanted to make sure I couldn’t just start again on a whim
>>42969529you realize the manic gesture of throwing out pills is just another symptom right? you arent "repping" youre just in a crash. hope you didnt flush them all because the re-entry dysphoria is going to wreck you by sunday. post the trash can or larp.
>>42969541I didn’t throw anything away I just decided to stop when I ran out instead of ordering more. So if I panic and want to start again at least there’ll be a waiting period
>>42969403>im talking like psychologicallywell yeah but i mean specifically socially transitioning wrt psychology. like its kinda up to you if you care if people call you he/him even if you pass. some people, i think more than not, have to socially transition because of social dysphoria as much as they need to physically transition for physical dysphoria. if thats you and contradicts with being perceived as trans that sucks but it is what it is you gotta do what you gotta do >i just dont want to be seen as a tranny but im super done with how male my body is.for yourself or as perceived by others? either way transition takes years. what is "long term"? do you mean indefinitely? or a couple years? you could "hrtrep" boy/man mode until you male fail and just move cities. idk why you would be perceived as trans if you dont tell anyone or try to present female until then
Just repress without HRT. It won’t take long before you are 50something and then it’s all over anyways.T: repressor prime
>>42970172the wachowsky sisters seem to have fun
I'm 36 and married with children. Wife knows and doesn't want to be apart of anything (which is actually good or at least neutral). I've been debating on mono dosing E low or normal dose for a while. Even got hormone levels checked for a baseline. Idk if I'm going to commit yet.
>>42966458Idk been at it nearly 12 months and I'm still getting FFS and whatever.I guess I don't get much social dysphoria so it's okay but I still want to rip my face off pretty often.
>>42970550when are you planning on getting ffs? you're not planning to be a post ffs repper are you?
