every time we talk to each other, i can’t help but feel like you’re lying about something

i'm short, skinny, young, have a pretty voice, and rarely ever get gendered male whenever i do leave the house. the only problem is i'm a pedophile and therefore must confine myself within these walls to prevent optic nukes.

>>42976216
i like bullying drug addicts and schizophrenics on reels
t. ransbian

i am a disgrace, a complete failure of a person. i am deeply ashamed of myself as i should be. i am so sorry i know it doesnt make it better but i am so so so sorry. i am so lazy and stupid and selfish and weak and cowardly, its hard to truly convey just how awful i am. gross how i try to blame it on 'mental disability' or 'metal illness' its not that! its all moral failure i am just a bad person. all i do is wallow in my own self pity to lazy to do anything to help myself or others, i am the number 1 example of learned helplessness. i am a pathetic failure, so pathetic

I had a relationship with my younger brother for years. Won't say ages. Now he's engaged to a girl and I'm furious about it but I accept that I have lost.
I'm FTM for context. I was still a woman when it started and all throughout it.

>>42976383
stop being a pedophile by any means necessary

>>42976465
is he bisexual or what? why tf did you transition if that meant losing him forever
not condoning incest at all ofc I think you're probably a pedophile and I don't like that but you could have been smarter about that point specifically

I secretly felt so much relief when the girl I knew stopped flirting with me dont get me wrong its not that I wasn't into her and loved her but the fucked up things she wanted that I played along with was to much and as hurt and betrayed as I felt knowing that suddenly there was zero obligation to ever do any of those things where previously I had built up an expectation that I knew I was going to dissapoint that I was a scary violent top Dom was honestly reliving in such a shameful way it was the moment I realized how much I truly hated it and made me feel even more ashamed I tired to act like a scary violent whatever just to hide the shame of how much of a people pleasing pushover I really was that I think I ruined everything with the people around me just by trying to hold that persona out of shame because deep down I just feel like a pathetic lonely thing and even know that I have a much healthier stable relationship I keep telling her about every thought I have out of fear that ill start making a fake persona to please her but know Im scared shes gonna see how pathetic I really am and lose interest in the worlds most pathetic dom

>>42977551
I feel like I destroyed my entire life out of shame and I miss the people I scared away so unbearably much that I feel like a liar to my girlfriend because shes so happy and exited about out future but I just struggle to imagine one anymore

my gf insults people by calling them a cuck and makes jokes about having sex with other people and it turns me on so fucking insanely hard but i'm scared to tell her that

>>42976303
i dont really like you

>>42976383
>ouhh my steak is juicy
>but my lobster? Buttery

i wish i could connect with people better. i have some friends but i yearn for something more. it could be because i don’t really hang out irl, i live in the middle of nowhere.

>>42978912
How do you know who your talking to on here genuine question like Im honestly curious

>>42979186
i dont care, if a post aligns with what I Think someone might say I bite
its more fun

>>42976216
There's a girl here who is truly the most beautiful I've ever seen in my entire life, she doesn't even compare to cis girls. I can't control it, it really drives me crazy knowing that I'll probably never meet her. She's a regular on passgen, but I haven't seen her in the last passgen. I don't know why she hasn't posted. I hope I see her gorgeous little face again.

I'm addicted to ruining my life and ghosting my friends. I am a lonely bad person with no prospects so I try my best to push people away. I've been on e for 5 years and haven't voice trained or presented remotely feminine the whole time, I put the opinions of others over my own happiness because it doesn't exist. I'm terrified i'm going to hurt my girlfriend but she's the only thing good I have going for me. I've been broken my whole life and I don't even know what a good life would look or feel like.

like a month ago a chaser from here messaged me on discord. I replied because he didn't seem flirty at all and I don't know I wanted to be nice I guess.

But turns out he lived like 3 hours from me and wanted to take me on a date. He was pretty insistent and wanted to meet up irl right that weekend, when I knew nothing about him (his name, what did he look like, etc). The only things I knew about him was that he was into computer science or something like that and that he was way older than me. I stopped replying with no explanation because he only wanted to meet up and I really didn't, but I feel kinda guilty and I regret not making myself clear earlier :(

>>42979359
Oh okay lol

I’m fake trans and im sorry I tried being friends with you and even decided to transition becayse you said Im trans and I wanted to believe you
I’m sorry for bring faketrans Im sorry I made you believe in me Im sorry for bring a disgusting moid.

thinking about getting back together with my ex who i've been in a situationship with since breaking up with who wants to get back with me immediately but she's kinda normie and 100% definitely a lost cause in the longrun that i can't fix without massive changes she refused to make and i only want to get back together because we can legally claim common-law from how long we've lived together and it turns half of my student loans into grants and it'll probably destroy her even more to go through it again and it's pretty objectively evil i think to do when i know i'll break up with her again down the road. part of me justifies it because she's fucked me out of several thousand dollars while we've been together. really thought or think i love her still, it's just scary that she has 0 concern for her/our future and refuses any actual planning so she just drowns in debt and drugs and brainrot to avoid doing any thinking and gets upset when i ask to do a budget or plan out investments but wants to own a home and have acreage like no darling you have 5 figures of debt and if you started working full time at double your current wages and spent $0 on anything but rent and food you still couldn't put a down payment for 10 years and your career plan of "go with the vibes after i graduate from liberal arts" isn't exactly promising, nor is the complaining about struggling to pay her half of the rent while paying twice that on her monthly liquor but she doesn't want to hear any of that so i'm doin what's best for me and me alone
i think what i'm feeling is normal i just haven't had a lot of (any) long term or serious relationships before this and i think i've put up with a lot more than i should have in the first place to get the validation from the relationship and affection

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I absolutely love that some messages out of context could basically ruin my life. One of my mistakes was being friends with people from the bay area where every edgy thing is judged 500% more harshly. But hey, complete sexual degeneracy is completely okay, you have to defend women especially BPDemons since sex is everything to them. Its not like they are people who can defend themselves.. Oh you better keep it secret too, if they find out we wouldn't have anything to talk about. I guess the common consensus is the judge jury and executioner, now. They don't realize I was always there, they could have said something, if they at least had a guilty conscience.

You are nothing and everything, my unrequited dream
You touched my life and for once it seemed
that anything meant something to me
You fade slowly until I forget your face,
but then you haunt my sleep, reminding me
I know it's been so long and you've forgotten me,
but to me you're unforgettable

Requiem of a stupid bitch

>>42976216
I think I'm getting a big crush on you, but at the same time I fear you're already moving past the novelty of me.

>>42977590
what makes you struggle to imagine a future anymore? or one with her anyway, it sounds like she's happy

>>42986462
She is and im so happy to hear how happy she is she introduced me too her family and they all seemed to really like me and tell me how theyve never seen her so happy before and I would never take that from her but emotionally I just feel nothing, I told her this I made sure she understands like I love her just after losing everything it feels like im just completely emotionally numb which makes me feel guilty all the time being around her because she seems so happy and keeps telling me shes never felt this amazing and I keep telling her how much I love her but it feels like im lying to her which makes me feel like a horrible girlfriend even if she knows all this and keeps reassuring me im not I just cant see myself as a person anymore I cant imagine myself in the world around me and it feels like im pretending to be a person for her none of this feels real anymore I feel like that last thing's grounding me are gone

Im so scared shes going to realize im not really a person anymore and leave me.
I feel so ashamed for being so numb

I am faithful to you

But I think you know
I would fuck him if you let me

I don’t need it
It’s not hard to be faithful

But I do want it
And I think that upsets you

I’m sorry
I can’t control what I want
Only what I do

>>42976216
i’ve been seeing him for two years but every time i run into you i’m reminded of how strongly we used to feel. you still have me blocked everywhere but do you really still think about it? i do