i don't understand why i self harm. even on a good day, a great day, i cut myself and mutilate my injuries (hitting them with a hammer, pulling them open, etc) and i don't really know why. it isn't because i'm feeling bad, it's just like. as if it's a hobby. but i know it's really fucked up and unsafe. i just wish i could understand this fixation so i could try and fight it better. /lgbt/ because i'm trans
>>43046423>hitting them with a hammertf why
>>43046423I don't understand why I eat when I'm not hungry and drink every day. I know what it's doing to me, I don't want that to happen, but I can't stop. I'm literally typing this post fully aware that I'm about to get up and cook myself a double cheeseburger and refil my wine. I know I don't want to, and definitely don't need to, but I know I'm going to anyway.
>>43046499If you're like me you're processing self loathing into immediate carnal pleasure to push away the bad feelings. I stopped when I came to terms with myself, and it took some time.
>>43046528You're right, I REALLY need to get laid.
>>43046559I mean, sure, I do too, but it's also a way to smother self loathing. That's how I ended up dating other fucked people and having nutty relationships
>>43046423are you the person who was posting their cuts yesterday
>>43046587Yeah but you don't get fat or wind up with ugly scars forever when you get fucked by some rando sex addict.
>>43046471to see if i could make them bleed faster or bust a vein. i just wondered what would happen>>43046499im thinking i have binge eating issues for the same reasons>>43046592no i don't post my cuts or scars here>>43046634this is true
