>have the perfect opportunity to be a part of an organically formed friend group>openly invited to make conversation >instead flounder and do nothing for weeks>let all good will that i have fizzle out>ghost everyone and leaveWhy am I like thisCan I be fixed?
time will fix you when you become old and desperate
>>43068493Autism. Not even meming. It's not your fault, you need proper support, and that shit is really hard to find. You didn't chose to be born with wrongbrain. That's a thing that happened to you, not because of you.
>>43068493God I hate that meme.
>>43068504I’m desperate now. I can’t see it getting any worse. Why would I suddenly not be alone then?>>43068522I don’t want to hear this. I should have agency in my social life. I shouldn’t let myself wait until proper support (whatever that is) just drops into my lap out of nowhere. It will never happen,Besides, I don’t know how I could be treated any better than I was now.I’d rather you name me something actionable and meaningful that I can do to overcome this.>>43068535It is a bit tacky.
>>43068557>I don’t want to hear this. I should have agency in my social life. I shouldn’t let myself wait until proper support (whatever that is) just drops into my lap out of nowhere. It will never happen,I know sweetheart. It's not fair. And you are so not alone on that. I wish I had good answers, but we're not there yet. >It is a bit tacky.It's not about tacky, it's just so so fucking sad I can't even bear it. I can't being lonely any more. We weren't meant to live this way.
>>43068493You don't need for 4 fucking hugs for "survival" nobody has ever died from not being hugged
>>43068493Maybe try reaching out to that friend group again. Ask them to be patient with you and explain you might be flakey but would like to join them when you can. I’m guessing they’d be happy to have you come along for stuff even if it you end up disappearing periodically.
I dont even want to be around people but i miss when my brain worked right and i still got excited over things and had goals and dreams
>>43068522Thanks for this
>>43070431You're welcome. I love you.
>>43070317i did...
>>43070830rip
I'm not bpd but also sad and i need someone to save me
>>43070999I would but I live in the part of Australia that humans don't live in. And also I'm poor.
>>43071016You're a kangaroo?
>>43071292Not me personally, but most of my friends are.
>>43068493schizoidy
>>43071016I want to visit Australia one day even tho its a shithole. You guys have cool gold rush era malls and folklore.
>>43068493btw if you want hugs buy a weighted blanket and cover your self up while you lie on your back (including your head) and then hug your blahaj or equivalent
>>43068522stop autism doom posting I know its you
>>43071486Nta but that's not even dooming lol
>>43071501they are literally saying your brain is broken and you will never be able to socialize comfortably .
>>43071518but thats literally correct? most of us arent strong enough to mask
>>43071525yea but I don't want to hear it because it sounds horrible
>>43071565>I don't want to hear ityou need to keep exposing yourself to the truth so it drives you to suicide, youll be happier!
>>43071577I can't Sui because im paranoid that hell is real and all suicides burn. I do not understand why god so much why would he make my life so hard and then keep me from the only way out.
>>43071599just sleep
>>43071518.... Yeah autism is a disability not a quirky trait
>>43070819I’m OPPlease tell me this too.>>43070386I already had a chance to make an effort to build meaningful connections with them. I wasted it and here I am now. It’s too late.>>43071305I wish. Maybe I wouldn’t care as much.>>43071442I’ve done this. It felt good the first few times/Now it just leaves me longing
>>43068522im not autistic at all and my therapist told me im not but I relate to OP so much... cant keep friends and i ghost most of them but still text them at least once a year, even years later lol. Tbh im okay being alone but I know its wrong and idk why im like this :I I also have to keep everything clean and organized or I get rlly annoyed. If something changes my daily routine I get upset and cant focus and there goes the rest of my day. sorry for the blogpost
>>43072285then you are probably schizoid pd
>>43072307I dont hear any voices and aside from all that and being trans I'm mentally stable so idk
nobody is going to come and save any of you, just kill yourselves
>>43072338Schozoid is different from skitzo
>>43072400fuck:(>>43072347ok
>>43068493omg same bestie
>>43072285Sounds autistic af tho
>>43072997<3
>>43070317ummm actually I have, sorry...>>43068504what if im already old and not desperate?
>>43068493as long as your alive there is hope
