>be me>Cis male. Faggot though>Hate not being cute, try to anorexia my way into it from 12 to 19>Reach adulthood, realize I want to be an actual male>Fucked all my HGH levels during puberty>Small hands, short, thin bones>See other guys>Insane jealously and dysphoric breakdowns, I'm a underdeveloped midget that didn't went through real puberty>I will never be a real man>I genuinely want to kill my reflection in the mirror.>I want to kill myself because I'm not masculine enough
>Fucked all my HGH levels during pubertyhow
>>43076596Severe mentally illness (turbo cortisol)Avoided sunlight, did nearly no excercise, maybe too much masturbation, awake all night, poor sleep, malnutrition.I see other guys and try have huge hands and arms.And mine are skinny and subhuman and look tweeny.I want to chop my limbs with a machete and throw myself under a train.
>>43076537this is common stage 2 in the gender dysphoria pipeline yesanorexia during puberty is extremely common and overrepresented among gender dysphoric patients. you knew you wanted to be cute and you instinctively fought masculinization by not eating to limit growth. the pain you're feeling now is just internalizing social bullshit, femmephobia or whatever you want to call it. how far are you down this path? have you tried sarms or steroids and gymcelling?it usually goes like thisstage 1 ana during pubertystage 2 autoandrophilia develops to survive as malestage 3 failing to pass as chad and learning that the act is not only unsustainable but that you don't actually enjoy it results in identity crisis and acceptance of your atypical gender identity
>>43076537>>Reach adulthood, realize I want to be an actual maleso it is likely BDD not gender dysphoria. compounded by toxic masc4masc looksmaxxing culture. first priority is overcoming self loathing
>>43076623It doesn't sound like gender dysphoria because you don't actually sound like being female holds an innate attraction to you. You just hate your body because it doesn't fulfill a societal ideal.Look, you're in a hard, sensitive stage of life, where everything feels 100 times worse than it will at any other point in your existence. Do NOT do anything drastic to your body aside from exercise. Save money, work on your skills, and try to meet people who aren't part of your current culture, which is very empty, soulless, and leads to superficial and fleeting highs followed by predictable lows (everybody is going to age out and feel the wakeup call of mortality sooner than they think).One day you will be sitting in somewhere in another part of the world, chatting with someone you like very much who likes you too, and be very glad you did not go through with roping.
>>43076633Didn't took anything yetTried excersicing in hopes that I would maybe trigger the puberty I missed late on and finish becoming an actual maleOf course to no avail.I'm still generally thin and my arms are half the size of an actual male my age.I'm also generally short and I'm terribly embarrassed about it.I'm not feminine and I tried being cuter but my facial physiognomy is fundamentally masculine (huge chin, low cheekbones, huge nose, huge browridges, I'm not pretty at all, but distinctly manly)And yet my body does not fit the masculinity I wish I haveMy back is not big. My arms are not long and huge.My torso and my height is short.My shoulders are unimpressive.My dick is thin, my voice is not deep, my foot and hands are relatively smallI was supposed to be a big guyAnd now I'm small and miserableAnd I'm not even feminineI'm nothing desirableI'm literal landfill that got animated into speaking.
>>43076724this is a great post>>43076737ignore my last post i was projecting. it sounds like BDD, not GD. which is still going to be hard to treat but at least we can rejoice you dont have to transition. also, you highlighted your masc traits as a bad thing for transitioning, while highlighting your fem traits as a bad thing for the masculinity you desire. this is common with BDD where you only see the bad (cognitive distortion). listen to the other anon their advice is good
>>43076623>Avoided sunlight, did nearly no excercise, maybe too much masturbation, awake all night, poor sleep, malnutrition.I did all this and I turned out fine.
>>43076809I was *very* malnourished.
>>43076537>>43076737realizing that i couldve had this if i starved myself harder growing up is genuine ropefuel
>>43076990i starved myself in puberty and my body is a weird mix of masc and fem like op. im not sure if its even relevant but i think it may cause low bone volume (thin), but they will still be of masculine proportions
>>43076537Can I peg you while you wear lingeret. 6'2" pooner
>>43076537there is definitely a tranny to incel/looksmaxer continuum. theres a subtype of weak zoomer male, the "sensitive young man if you will", who is just perma fucked when it comes to feeling comfortable with their gender presentation whether that manifests a wanting to be a girl or wanting to be a muscly dude.
>>43076952then then your family is vegan?
>>43076537sounds like you are just malnourished, stunted, and deformed - and you're unhappy about it?i dont think that's the same thing as gender dysphoria lol
