does anyone else just feel completely empty and hollow inside i guess it's from being a recluse and then a neet for most of my life but when i think about myself and my place in the world and everything ive experienced i can only picture a horrible black empty nothingnessi don't feel like a real person at all and everything ive ever done seems pathetic and empty. i can't imagine this ever changing
>>43076705Same
>>43076705all the time nona. what has you thinking about it tonight in particular? did something happen today for you? usually i find myself on the topic after prolonged time alone by myself.
>>43076705same. wanna make a suicide pact so that neither of us are lonely when we are sent down to hell
>>43076742its actually worst for me when i have to interact with other people. i was meeting up with my sister for the first time in a while today and felt it really bad like i couldn't even really think of what to say to her even though we are quite close. >>43076751sure that sounds nice
>>43076790ahh i know the feeling you mean..its tough to deal with that sort of empty feeling when it comes to words especially, isnt it? have you been able to do anything to relax since getting home to take your mind off it?
>>43076705>>43076717>>43076742>>43076751Anons/Nona's, as someone who has/had this feeling, this is just being lonely + depression.Hope this helps :)
>>43076818its not really possible to take my mind off it, it doesn't really ever get better. ill just sleep when im tired enough to >>43076892i guess. although it usually only gets worse when im around other people and i end up intentionally ruining most of the chances i get at friendship so idk
>>43076705Go care for something, even if it is a potted plant, and do it with your whole heart.You will start to feel different.
>>43076705That's literally everyone IMO some people are just better at deluding themselves that under all the layers of their life isn't nothingness. It's just that when you struggle those layers of delusion are stripped away. But in a sense this is a good thing because you can choose what delusions you rebuild your life around.Personally I felt like this earl in my transition lots of bullying, turbulence from having to rapidly alter my identity(parents pushed me into social transition fairly quickly while I wanted to HRT femboy mode a bit first), and existential fears of life as an adult. It completely holllowed me out.But from that nothingness I became free. Who cares about other people normies would hate me if they knew what I'm truly like inside. The only people whose opinions are worth while are the ones who will like me for however I happen to be. My life is pointless so I have purpose to be beholden to other than whatever I happen to want to do. Now I have friends, school hobbies and a gf basically living the school life I wanted in highschool at 25 in college. And while I'm engaged with all that I don't feel the emptiness. But when I'm alone unless I'm having a mildly delusional phase where I get obsessed with my daydreams and occult stuff. I feel that emptiness it's my companion everywhere because it's the truth but that's okay i can still live I can still enjoy despite it or perhaps because of it.anyways it's tough now but that abyss is your chrysalis and slowly but surely one day you will emerge reborn like the sages of eld.
