should i reach out to him and confess my feelings? he probably won't respond to my letter or even see it and it'll probably only serve to humiliate me further but i feel like i'll end my life soon anyway so maybe it would give me some closure
bump
>>43079085no
>>43079612why not
>>43079613confess to me instead
>>43079085you like gay men? why does he have painted nails
>>43079637i don't love you though
>>43079653he's pan
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no you desperate loser. just end it dont try to guilt him before you die thats shitty you selfish prick
>>43081051should i at least confess to my actions to my acquaintances then? a certain amount of guilt has weighed on my conscious about my deceptive behavior. i know they would be disgusted to know the depth of my obsession and unfortunately i'm sure i would still take some pleasure in having it be recognized. i know i am very selfish and self-absorbed, and i have definitely become extremely attention hungry after losing his attention, but there's nothing to be done now. if i can't be remembered for anything good i at least want to be remembered for how much i care about him. i know he's hurt many people, and to an extent i feel bad for lying to them about despising him as much as they do. i guess i do despise him in some ways, though i feel like a lot of that stems more from envy and ego than any real hatred for his actions. i also harbor some resentment towards them for how they've treated him, though i know he's not entirely undeserving of it. i just want to be remembered as his.
post him on the sharty for them to raid then heroically send him a warning. he'll forever be in your debt
>>43079085Do it anon!!! I believe in you!!!!!!!! Its true love!!!!!!!
last call for mortals
>>43079085not if a bad response would make you spiral. focus on finding a reason to live first
>>43086041i don't think i can spiral any more at this point, i'm at the end of my rope. he was the reason i kept trying. even if it was a "bad" response i could at least find comfort in knowing that he's still alive and safe
