I hate that I was born male. I wish I were an afab and a cis woman. I don't see the point of living if I can't be a cis woman, I would rather kms.
me too but you go first
>>43080722Have you trooned?
>>43080728No, I don't want to be a trans woman at all. I only want to be a cis woman.
i did troon and ur life only gets worse i dont recommend
>>43080738Congrats on finding an excuse to not do the one thing that will helpGrow up and call Planned Parenthood and get some hormones. It's not hard, just do it.
>>43080837I only want to be a cis woman
>>43080915Yes, you have created an impossible standard for your own happiness to excuse doing nothing. "I could only be happy if I was a cis woman""I could only be happy if I was a millionaire""I could only be happy if I had a 10 inch hog"These are all obviously not true statements. They are a coping mechanism to avoid dealing with your unhappiness. Wallowing in despair is easy. Believing that you deserve better and you in the future can be happier if you work for it now is hard.If your options are suicide or something physically impossible, why not roll the dice on a third thing? Call planned parenthood and get on estradiol. Think about a girl's name you'd like. I don't know what your sources of dysphoria are, but if they're fixable like body hair or voice, try taking some steps to fix them. I'm not saying go full blue hair and pronouns if that's too big, but fuckin try a little something.You said it yourself, you have nothing to lose.
>>43080915Well, that's not an option available to you, but if it helps, women born with Complete Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome have anatomy that resembles a "golden path" post-op trans woman. Gender is more of a spectrum with a bimodal distribution than a binary. You are not alone.
>>43080966Sure it's impossible at this point, but it's not anywhere near unlikely as being a millionaire, the odds were literally 50-50.
being trans sucks. ruin 25~ years of decent living for the worst life ever, hated by all, never find meaningful love, never have an easy time getting a job, everything you do is soon to be criminal
>>43080976OK, your mom rolled bad. So what? Doesn't change a thingYou are alive and unhappy now. You could be alive and happier in the future. You just have to allow to believe it.It takes work. You do need to get on hormones and hormones will do a lot, but they are slow. Figure out your specific sources of dysphoria and what you can do to ameliorate them. Lots of dumber bitches than you have done this and seen great results.You may never get to level 10 happiness, but you're talking about killing yourself on a anime porn board so you're at maybe a 2 right now. Wouldn't getting to 5 or 6 be nice? Wouldn't that be better? It's possible. You can do it. You just have to work for it.
>>43081036I don't believe that being a trans woman would make me any happier at all>Wouldn't getting to 5 or 6 be nice?Sure it would, but that's extremely difficult considering that it at least implies that I have to move out from my third world country somehow without any real skills and then also pass. It's a lot easier to just kms and it would also solve all the issues
>>43081132>I don't believe that being a trans woman would make me any happier at allYou gotta get one thing straight; you already are a trans woman. Men do not wish they could be women. No man is going around out there thinking "If I was a cis woman, life would be so much better".You are a trans woman right now. You are deeply unhappy because you're trying to pretend you aren't.>Sure it would, but that's extremely difficult considering that it at least implies that I have to move out from my third world country somehow without any real skills and then also passBitch I live in Texas. The government could make me illegal at any point. I still got on that girl juice. You know why? Because I used to be as unhappy and hopeless as you are now. I used to think the same thing you did, "if only I had been born a woman. But I wasn't, guess I can only persist in misery"I can't tell you how much better it felt once I took that first step. Just calling the clinic left me buzzing. Because I knew I was doing something to make my life better. I was escaping the pit of despair you are in right now. The same way you can.>It's a lot easier to just kms and it would also solve all the issuesYou are posting here because on some level deep down, there is still a spark of hope inside of you. There is something about you that you needed to express so you came to this anonymous anime porn and racism imageboard to shout it out into the void. I know that agony. You want someone to talk you out of it, to snuff out that spark so you aren't tormented by it anymore. But it won't go away. You need to feed the flame. A little bit of effort, a little bit of hope, build the fire inside you. You deserve to live. You deserve to be happy. You are trans. These are facts about you, and they will always be true.
I gotta go run errands for my dad, but there's nothing more to say. You just need to have a little faith in a better future for yourself and your ability to make it happen. Nobody can make you do it, you gotta do it yourself. And you can do it.
>>43081262>Bitch I live in TexasIs that supposed to be worse than a third-world country?
I would prefer to kms but the problem is that I'm not sure if I want to do it while my parents are still alive, or rather I kinda don't want to do that while they're alive.
>>43080725how
>>43081132>considering that it at least implies that I have to move out from my third world country somehow without any real skills and then also passI have a similar background you can get HRT OTC not everything will be available but cypro (often called androcure you cut it in 4 halves take one a day) and progynova usually are and if you're lucky injections but do your own research, i had to go to different pharmacies when one gave me trouble got lucky after a few years and found some nice folks who would save some boxes for me.Then it was a time game, ended up finding a man online marrying him and moving with him in a first world country wouldn't have been possible if i wasn't already male failing IRL.Now i never have to go back there still waning off the brainwashing but i am healing.>It's a lot easier to just kms and it would also solve all the issuesI truly cannot recommend that. your state of mind will follow you will end up in the same place more or less if not worse.But if you're serious find a Goddess you like (Isis maybe) work a relation with her and when communication is more clear ask for a rebirth, you can negotiate on what you want.A new face a new body a new voice a new purpose, new shores await.You may have to do some personal work before getting a good deal tough, but then your current body naturally dies in your sleep from what i heard.
