I’m planning to detransition (mtftm) over the summer. what should I know ahead of time? my current plan is to just stop taking HRT, dress manlier, shave my head, stop shaving anything else and start lifting. I’ll also be cutting off most of my social network because p much all my friends are trans. is there anything else I should do? I haven’t had any surgery but I’ve been on HRT for 5 years with optimal levels.
you have to ween yourself off so t returns. you can have health issues otherwise
>>43100049>what should I know ahead of time?that little wound on your soul will not heal as a man either
>>43100227Will it ever heal?
>>43100292nope, but you'll search for ways to heal it for sure, like you just did by transitioning before and detransitioning now, you'll convince yourself you finally found it -- this person, this group, this idea, this has to be the answer, the way to heal -- you'll believe it for a time, years, decades, wholeheartedly even, you'll find yourself a partner or a group of like-minded people and you'll all do your best to comfort each other as long as your way of coping does not break the general narrative, you'll be happy, distracted, sedated, but that itch of the wound still being open will always return, it will always be there lingering when you are alone in your room. you might try to maintain your narrative fearing the costs of leaving it, getting deeper on it by making new connections, friendships, kids, reputation, everything so that you can shut up the itch, the uneasiness.you might also do something like you are doing rn and just leave it all, search for something new (tho being a guy again is not particularly new imo), recognize that all the effort you invested on your old life was ultimately pointless, welp, the itch never really went away, but there has to be a way, right? you just have not found it yet, yeah, that must be it, I just gotta keep trying, the next thing will be the thing. It has to be. I'll give you something anon, takes a lot of balls to just ditch everything, most people just don't. But be aware that you are particularly doomed to be forever aware of your wound, more so than most, your actions spell that, so think about that wound, it's origins, how it has molded you into what you are rn, understanding oneself is a great way to find new ways of sedating the itch.
>>43100600should I just kill myself?
>>43100049>>43100635destroying yourself won't make God love you more
