Can a better feeling exist than realizing for the first time you became a passoid? That your transition has been succesful and you are finally the way you wish to be. Is it really the best or am I idealizing it? If you managed to get there, tell me about it.
>>43104675If I had to look like pic to pass, I wouldn't want to. It's too extremely feminine. I don't want to be that much like a female.
>>43104976>I don't want to be that much like a female.How would you like to be?
>>43105017Sort of like I am, more of a boy's body, some hip development, but not really big and small breasts, with long hair dressed in jeans and an ordinary top, maybe a pretty color. Women's casual wear and tennis shoes
>>43105064Are you close to reaching it?
>>43104675idk I passed early in transition, though I'm just trying to be normal and not like hyper fem.
>>43105086Yes, I've been a change for years
>>43105094What is your normal level like?
>>43105118>low part of the cycle>2 months agoEstradiol 871Testosterone 0.8elevated prolactinI've dropped my dose from 5mg/5 days to 4mg/5 days. I feel leveled out right now.
>>43105188Sure, but I meant the normal level of being a woman (instead of hyper feminine).
>>43104675Freedom is a constant struggle.
>>43104675It's kinda uneventful desu
>>43104675I don't know, I gave up on ever feeling that way a long time ago
>>43105302Hard to believe that it just happens one day without much emotion?
>>43104675>Is there a better feeling than when you realize you pass?Successfully performing that piece you’ve been spending months on your violin.It’s a unique feeling, much similar to your first love, first good trip, finishing university, etc. Personally I’d argue the feeling of entering that Flow State of mind while doing a hobby is an exhilaration in comparison.
>>43104675not a passoid but a semipassoid who thought i'd be a gigahon forever.it took years of work (4), but the first time i was she/herred (without being clocked (as far as anyone can be aware)) it was just infinite relief. i was so happy. i felt butterflies and when i got home i just cried.i still get clocked or he/himmed if i'm not rly effortmaxxing, but there is hope for me. i'm so glad i got to experience a fraction of being a woman
I will never be shorter
>>43105432>it was just infinite relief. i was so happy. i felt butterflies and when i got home i just cried.Yes, this is more in line with what I imagine it is like. Ideally you get used to it and it becomes the norm.
>>43105017Its something wrong with you sis
>>43105118nta, but similar situation: i tomboymoded (ie, baseball caps, hoodies, and jeans/camo pants) for a while, and after like two years progressed from hoodies to sweaters sometimes, and after four years i started wearing dresses occasionally, and somtimes necklaces. i do not wear makeup but i take care of my hair, and it is usually tied up, since baseball caps are mostly untenable at this point in my life (out of school). when i go out casually i like to wear hoodies and camo pants, still, but i also often wear tank tops, which i find very comfortable. at work i wear plain gray pants and a black short-sleeved shirt with a button-up collar.sometimes when i was still tomboymoding and felt absurdly brave i would wear tube tops and camisoles out, but i don't do that anymore. today i am wearing a Hawai'ian shirt and some white capris because it's comfy and cute and the weather is really nice
>>43105618Why?>>43105622Thanks for detailed description. Are you satisfied with where you are now?
>>43105219as in head space and ability to express myself and other people understanding me, apologies.
Imagine how much it sucks when you stop passing after years of being a passoid lmao
>>43105648>Are you satisfied with where you are now?no...i don't know how to express this, really. i know that i pass, logically, but this fact cannot penetrate the brainworms in my head. for a while (around the time i first started wearing dresses, actually) i felt really great about myself, and i was super confident and definitely satisfied with where i was in life, but somehow i've lost that. i am extremely insecure now and while i really do like the way that i present, part of me wonders if i am simply afraid of committing to something more feminine. i have a very poor relationship with my gender and lots of yucky feelings. i've thought of myself as nonbinary for a long time but i was recently called out for enbycoping and i'm beginning to wonder if there is truth to that.all in all things are good externally but internally i have a lot to fix.
>>43105648there is nothing better than being the best of any catergory
>>43106458nta but who decides what the best of anything is? i quite like anon's description. if i could choose, i would want to be boyish and unassuming myself. unfortunately i am involuntarily ostentatiously boyish lol
>>43105302What?
>>43104675
>>43104675people tell me im a passoid but i dont really feel it desu. i get cocky from time to time but i know deep down its not real and if anyone pushed harder id probably fall apart instantly. there was a blip of like a month a couple years ago where i genuinely felt passable but it went away pretty quickly. i still put effort in but not because im chasing a high off success but because i feel like the bar has been raised so incredibly high now that im just trying to not have people be freaked out being around me. i know most people can instantly tell and at this point rely on being "clean" and "prim" to mask the fact that i can't socialize/be normal if my life depended on it. its gotten to the point now where my maintenance alone is close to $800 a month and i still feel so far behind some of these other girls that look perfect after not showering for a week. it feels like i snuck into a party for an hour and got kicked out and will probably never get let back intldr grass isnt greener
>>43104675I WISH I was a passoid jeez louise
>>43109512you literally are a passoid ;.;
>>43104675>Can a better feeling exist than realizing for the first time you became a passoid?The feeling of aggressively fucking a passoid, moaning and whimpering like a girl while her small cock flops around helplessly, only to cuddle her afterwards while laying down, her head on my chest.
>>43105110post proof
>>43105188pg/mL or pmol/L? because bad news.. that shit is too high
>>43106030good luck anon, you sound sweet no matter what
>>43109954>100% STRAIGHT
>>43109954Why does someone saying 'head on chest' always gives me the fuzzies, it feels very Freudian...
People tell me I'm a passiod but I don't trust them and probably a bit Bdd, so I don't think I'll ever exactly get that feeling.
>>43111758>100% STRAIGHTCorrect. You got a problem with straights, poof?
>>43110791thank you nonny :) i'm happy you think so. very best of luck to you, too <3>>43111908it's rough :( you may never have some epiphanic realization, but i believe someday you will come to feel good about yourself. trust that the world around you perceives you more accurately than you do...if you can't trust friends, trust strangers; that's what i do.
passing is meaningless, being a hon with a loving bf is much happier than a lonely passoid
>>43104675I don’t feel like a passoid. 5 yrs hrt + a few surgeries But I’ve been gendered female pretty consistently recently by strangers. And ppl tell me I pass even tho I don’t really believe it.>>43112262Ngl it feels like I wouldn’t feel “deserving” of passoid status unless I get male attention or something, which seems kinda messed up. I am not even into men and there’s no way I’d seek them out
>>43104675 (OP)Mfw i realise many of these girls will not experience "Can a better feeling exist than realizing for the first time you became a passoid?" because BDD will not let them realise they've become a gorgeous passoid and immediately they'll pass to sleeping around with six men a week for validation, rather than just accept they're hot.
>>43112324Are you humble bragging?
>>43104675>Can a better feeling exist than realizing for the first time you became a passoid?Being born a cissoid would be a better feeling, and that is what 99% of humans on this planet get for free. The peak of a tranny's life is reaching half of what everybody else gets from Day 1.
>>43112449Cissoids can't value it as much when they never worked for it.
>>43112430I’m acknowledging that I’m very fortunate but I’m also not exactly overjoyed because it doesn’t seem real. I started transitioning during Covid and I’ve basically been a shut in for most of the last five years so I have no idea what is real and what is delulu honfidence
>>43112490If you are gendered female consistently, it's not honfidence.
>>43112513I guess it’s more accurate to say somewhat consistently. Like I got gendered female this weekend when I was girlmoding hard w makeup. But not really gendered at all when dressed neutral.
The first time I kissed a guy in public without telling him I was trans I listened to Frank Sinatra's My Way the whole walk home
>>43109954>Her head on my chestYou are fantasizing and doing this to mikey
>>43113692>without telling him I was transDid you ever tell him?
>>43113850Yeah, on the second date. I said 'oh I thought you were bi and wouldn't care' but he was straight and got a bit upset. Then a while later he cornered me at an event we were both at and asked me whether I was pre or post-op, and that if I was post-op then he'd like to date. I told him I was pre-op and he then told me it was too much and that he couldn't handle it. Haven't heard from him since.
>>43114313i will never understand straight mens minds
>>43116777Dick is a turn off for straight men, who would have guessed
>>43104675I mean passoid in the literal way of just passing just made me feel safer desu. I was still big and ugly as hell, getting facial hair removed + voice train +7 months of hrt facial fat was all it took despite being very tall (6 '2, so like actually fucking tall, and yeah you can pass and be huge, i know everyone's too brainrotted to realize this) and I was very uggo. Actually being on hormones a couple years and having my bodyshape mature and getting srs then ffs is what really felt good. I am like a few months post ffs and now that all of my dysphoric areas are fixed (the ones that can be fixed at least) I finally feel connected to myself and it is a really great feeling. I still feel ugly a lot of the time, but I don't feel dysphoric, I feel connected to my body, it feels like my body. It's great, so surreal to realize this is just how cis people feel baseline. But for a tranny it's an amazing feeling when you've literally never gotten to experience it. It feels fantastic!!! Low key makes me very mad that cis people just get this at baseline and with better bodies.
>>43104675need to breed
>>43117135>you can pass and be hugeCongratulations to you but how? Height is one of the reasons I have to repress.
>>43104675Honestly the feeling isn’t as great as you’d think. It’s nice, I’m glad for the safety it provides me and for how I’m treated by society but it’s far more an absence of pain than a presence of pleasure. There are moments of joy in it, being part of “womanhood” is nice, I like when other women try to lift me up and I like to do the same in turn. But any pleasure that comes from passing is always tainted by the knowledge that you are only being treated well because these people do not know what you are.
>>43117396>you are only being treated well because these people do not know what you areWell said, this is the angle I haven't considered.
