ventpost of a permaboymoderlost the only thing i had going in my life and the only person I cld really lean on. it was stupid. i feel hurt. i dont know what to do now. i feel empty and wanna slam my head into a wall. i dont have anything left in my life to look forward to. everything's just falling apart for me. im a mess and a failure. almost killed myself twice today. i wouldn't be surprised if I do tomorrow. there's not a point. i just wanted to be happy and have something work out for once in my life. i tried and changed a lot kf things but it doesn't matter. i think im just doomed and fated to off myself. guess my parents were right. god i hate this life.or whatever hahahahaha im functional im fine.
>>43109095my body hurts. i hate this. honestly should've just offed myself years ago. wouldn't have made a difference.
>>43109095boohoo bitch
>>43109127whatever fuck you too.
maybe I should just reinstall grindr
>>43109095>i just wanted to be happy and have something work out for once in my life. ive been struggling a lot too op i became really close with a friend i met from this board but shes been gone for a month and i have no way of finding out if shes ok or not because i dont know any of her friends. i also had a dream where a voice told me "Some people choose to be tortured in this life so they have an advantage in the afterlife." so i also feel like I'm totally helpless to my fate, and I've been going through the worst time of my life for 3 years now. i realized im never gonna kill myself because im too terrified of being dragged to other nightmarish dimensions like in some of my dreams. ive also been having lots of supernatural problems and even had to quit estrogen because it made me start having psychedelic visuals when i woke up once, and now my ocd is much worse and i have to like calm myself down for 20 minutes every time i wake up. i don't have any hope for this lifetime, i genuinely don't think I'll ever be happy with my life because of the dream I had. I'm sorry you're suffering op, may things be better for us one day
>>43109095You lost someone? Well go find them then dummy!
>>43109095u should reach out 2 someone
>>43109095>be 20 year old boymoder>longtime friendship dissolves>omg I need to kms right NOWStop. Friends come and go, if someone was willing to drop you like that they probably weren't really your friend nona. You're still very young and have many many years ahead to make lasting friendships. You don't need to speed up the whole dying thing, don't worry something will get you eventually one day
