>Me: Severely brainwormed mid-20s manmoder with some malefails, <2 years HRT>Kinda ugly and a huge shoulder/ribhon (18-18.5" bideltoid) but have FFS consult in December>The Boy: Late-20s cis man (looks like if Quentin Tarantino was into girldick instead of feet)>Not actually I'm just being mean (he looks like Tarantino but isn't actually a chaser)>Met online about a year ago, chat regularly with some mutual friends>He's really sweet>Insecure about a few things>But really nice and funny and handles my brainworms well>Send him /tttt/ brainrot on the regular and he threatens to spray me with a water bottle to make me behave>Develop some feelings for each other but not sure how to make long distance work>I get a gf instead but we break up at the beginning of this year because I might actually be straight and I'm horrifically anxious all the time with her (I think I'm bi but dysphoria makes being with a girl much harder)>Decide to meet up>He flies down from New England for an extended weekend>In the weeks leading up to it threatens to take me "grass touching" because apparently NEETmoding isn't good for me even though I'm gainfully employed and make more money than he does >Arrives Thursday >First night goes well, lots of cuddling>Not anxious around him at all>He's like a human capybara (picrel)>Very calming presence Gonna be a long one. Will do day by day. TL;DR exceedingly mundane hopeslop (no smut).
Friday>Sneak into my dad's place while he's away to say hi to my cat>The Boy goes full retardmoder upon seeing my cat>He's absolutely infatuated with her>Just stopped by very briefly because we're going to an amusement park for the day>Have a blast on rollercoasters >He's a little wimpy on them but he plays it off as being "an old man" >Walk around the entire park twice riding every coaster>Enjoy some poutine together (picrel)>Finish up before it gets dark and grab some burritos on the way home>Cuddle and kiss a lot more on the couch while watching a movie>Some fondling too>Pins me and makes it absolutely clear how much stronger he is than me despite being several inches shorter>Lots more kissing, but eventually go to bed
Saturday p1>Spend time downtown>First go clothes shopping>Really embodies the whole "clueless boyfriend just thinks woman looks good in everything" >Purchase a single dress>Grab lunch at a local Indian buffet (see picrel)>Go to the local nautical museum (he's a military nerd/former history major)>Have a lot of fun walking around the giant ship they have there>IShowedYouMyForwardGunPlsRespond.jpg>Have such a good time I try and think of other things we could do downtown>Clothes shopping again? No>Go to the dying mall? No (actually did that anyways and everything was closed)>Go to an arcade? No (I'd kick his ass)>On a whim decide to see if the local live theater (my former workplace) has any shows at the moment>Last evening show of a musical I performed in in high school>Tell him and he seems interested, though he's not a theater person really >Move up the dinner we had planned for Sunday since it's only a few blocks from the theater
Saturday p2>Stop back at my place to get changed into some nice clothes>Formal black dress + black underskirt + heels combo>The Boy wears a sweater polo thing>Heightmog him so hard>6'0" in heels vs 5'5" on a good day>Don't mind at all>Actually kinda adore being this much taller than him>Drive back to downtown, walk nearly half a mile in heels from the parking garage to the restaurant >Fancy atmosphere, but not too expensive (Dinner for two is like $60-70)>Eaten there once before, I think, but not sure>Various other couples there, mostly older ones, maybe one around our age>Share a soup that was insanely>He gets a pork cutlet>I get a quiche au roquefort (picrel)>He walks me to the theater>While he's dropping off his leftovers in the car, I buy us tickets from the box office>No one there recognizes me (I stopped working there just before starting HRT and had only attended once or twice since)>Box office lady (<3 u) asks me if I've been here before>"Oh I used to work here">Feel safe enough to out myself to her since we worked together for three years>She's shocked but actually seems really excited and gives me half off on the tickets (employee discount scheme on tickets is weird but she had some of her 50% off ones remaining)>"Who are you seeing the show with?">"...my boyfriend..." (felt less awkward than just saying my date)>She congratulates me and I get out of her hair while waiting for The Boy to get back>We get drinks>Bartender tells me I really need to update my ID (I do but I'm still wormy and mostly see myself as a boy so haven't yet)>Enjoy the show immensely>Theater kid sleeper agent activation code embedded in the opening number has me mouthing all of the lyrics and dancing in my seat to all of the songs >Head home afterwards>Formally asks me to be his girlfriend (I'm a boy but y'know)>Say yes>Cuddles and kisses a lot before going to bed
Sunday>Relaxed day>Head to the shopping district of a bordering city for brunch>Need to introduce this Yankee boy to proper southern cuisine>Restaurant is absolutely packed, about a 1 hour wait>Wait it out by going to the Lego store>Buy each other some Lego botanicals >Brunch time!>Share a mimosa, fried okra, biscuits + jam, and shrimp & grits (picrel)>Best thing we ate over the entire weekend imo>Head to a bookstore >Still haven't read Whipping Girl so look for that but they don't have it>Instead grab A Vindication of the Rights of Woman by Mary Wollstonecraft while he grabs one of The Expanse books>Go to Ikea afterwards since I need a lamp for my room and it's like a fun little shopping date thing>End up buying another blahaj (was gonna be for him but he felt like it was stolen valor)>Now I have a third shark>Go to a nearby state park for a short hike>Weather is really nice so we spend a couple hours there before heading back to my place>Leftovers for dinner>Cuddle a lot>Try and initiate some kind of sexual activity but I'm painfully shy in ways I have never been before >I'm technically not a virgin but basically am >Like I technically had sex once with a guy before starting HRT but it was really bad and I didn't like it and most sexual contact with anyone after that mostly left me a crying anxious mess>I was able to give one girl a blowjob but honestly after that I became more anxious and fearful >Not actually afraid this time, just really shy and embarrassed >Literally hiding my face with my hands as he's playing with my boobs>Also he is a wet kisser>Like his kisses are slobbery af>However!>He did improve at kissing over the course of the weekend
Monday>He's leaving in the afternoon so just take it easy while he packs everything up>Go to lunch and meet up with a friend (my ex gf actually) at a local Thai place>Still have a good friendship with her but I'm worried about her feelings a lot of the time>Still care a lot about her (same with each and every one of my exes tbhon)>Split a duck curry between the three of us>Head to the botanical gardens and walk around for several hours >Get ice cream before we leave>Go to the airport to drop The Boy off for his flight >Walk him up to the TSA gate>Hug goodbye >Make plans to visit him up in New England for his birthday in a month and a half>Getting time off from work will be a pain but I really wanna do itPicrel is me heightmogging him w/ heels on Saturday since I forgor to take pics of our lunch
>>43109572>I'm a boy but y'knowNona... srsly?
>>43110756YesOkay seriously I have, as some kind of defense mechanism against dysphoria or trauma or whatever, basically settled into "I'm a boy who is a woman" which is kind of how I saw myself pre puberty anyways. It's not great but it's workable.
Ah, young love. I remember when my boyfriend who is shorter than me and makes less money than me flew out to visit me the first time... We've been together for almost 20 years now... Best wishes in your journey
>>43110769>I'm a boy who is a womanAh, so MEF.Yeah, that works. But it works better if you lean into the feminine role. Ask me how I know.
amazingcuteawesome
>>43109607Poor liddle bichudSo squishyYou should let him steal your E
>>43111251Not quite MEF? That's more parallel to this.
>>43111341Several friends and I have joked about forcefemming him. I even took his measurements when he arrived. He's definitely cis.
not a chance im readin allat but that pic was funny
>>43109607>hey babe before you leave or whatever come take a completely horrific picture with me in my disheveled bathroom where we both stand side by side awkwardly and autism stare into my dirty mirror and I make you look like a pooner in comparison due to my large features and stature, i need it so i can post us both on 4chan, i’ll shittily scribble over our faces with iphone photo editor dw babe>hope u don’t think im weird babe!
>>43113184It was to send to mutual friends but ok. No need to be an asshole.
>>43113214there was SO much more I could have been an asshole about just fyi, but the pic was funny so I mainly just spoke on the circumstances that led to the pic and the awkwardness of pose. Could have included something mean spirited about the fried hon hair, the dress, the choid’s frumpy appearance, the odd amount of scissors on a bathroom sink, or the choice to leave quirk chungus cat bag in the photo. that’s all from a cursory assessment.
>>43113233>continued asshole behaviorcope and seethe tbhon
>>43113259you made a full grown man look like a pooner in comparison
>>43113233Fuck you nigger jew.
>>43113572Yeah and? He's 5'4" and I was wearing 3" heels. I don't mind being a lot taller than him. As long as there's a height difference of any kind I don't mind.
>>43114775Maybe a lil aggressive there
>>43113233>>43113184>they hated him because he spoke the truth...
>>43109441you stupid motherfuckers don't know what manmode isit's just replaced boymode
>>43114913I'm too old to boymode! I'm 26!
did you make your little boyfriend ejaculate yet op
>>43114981Not yet I'm kinda worried about it because of just how panicky and neurotic I became around sex.
>>43113151He's definitely going to crack
>>43115251If he hasn't at this point I don't know what would make him.
>>43115056nta but make the boy cum, nona.a little frotting or a handjob goes a long way :3
>>43115317I will not frot! I can't even be the big spoon with him because of genital dysphoria issues. Next time I'll see him I'm flying up and will be on prog so will ideally be more able to engage tho.
>>43109441i am sincerely happy for you
>>43115363Thank you! Feels like picrel but it was just really naturally easy being around him.
>>43114816shut the fuck up retarded hon
>>43115740Why are you choosing to be mean?
>>43115267Just timeTime with youLearning to enjoy your identity~
>>43109441I'm happy for you nona
>>43115782Not the first time someone I dated came out while I was dating them actually...
>>43115842naturallywhere do you think transbians come from?bisexuals chase or become the chased
>>43115857Actually no the ex in question came out as a trans guy as I was dating him.
>>43115871This was years before I started transitioning myself and was the first openly trans person I ever knew. He clocked me as a closeted tranny though.
>t. groomed by a poon
>>43116159No he actually kinda psyoped me into not starting estrogen because he was kind of sneedy "you don't need HRT to be valid" kind of person when I am much more focused on materialism and medicine.
>>43115333>I will not frot!And you say you're not mef :)Dw, I totally get it.Still, you should make the boy cum so he falls asleep big spoon with you :3Also, blowjobs are hot and fun even if you're not particularly horny.
>>43118254They are hot but my oral fixation died within a year of starting HRT.
>>43118254>get the gnome big spooninglel
>>43118385You gotta get it back :3Also, you don't need a fixation to do it. It's enough to like him.I blow my guy at random sometimes just because I like seeing him happy.>>43118399What? When I was larping as a straight man I loved it to fall asleep in a woman's arms.
