>gay and AGP on the internet>asexual but straight feeling in real lifeWhat is this called? Why am I like this?
>>43127368It's called being closeted.
>>43127385But the feelings are real, not a cope or a coverup
>>43127368i believe the phrase is closeted homosexual homophobia in childhood usually
>>43127412you have internalized homophobia, you think it's perfectly ok to be a yaas slay at home but not in public because you are ashamed of it and it bothers you others can be their gay self and you have to hide it so it comes out as anger
>>43127368Kinda same, but even though I feel bi irl there's no way in this country to act out on these feelings so I'm just straight and depressed
>>43127425>>43127431I don't care for the yass culture even at home lol. I'm able to separate out these feelings I don't think it's motivated by homophobia
>>43127368it's easy to be gay in the abstract when you're thinking about the ideal guy or even a 2d anime boy but in reality most guys don't take care of themself at all, are stupid, or are assholes
Your sexual life and your waking life are divided irreconcilably. You have to actually figure this shit out on your own. Assuming you aren’t just closeting (taking you at your word) you have to ask “what does being womanly in my fantasies give me that I can’t get as a straight man?” Like, perhaps when you’re AGP you feel like someone wants you very deeply, and in your waking life, you feel totally invisible. If you dream of being treated like a woman by a man stronger than you, you have to imagine there’s some deep unmet needs that are causing it to erupt in your sexual life like that. It’s like Byron Noem. In his waking life he’s a cuckold trapped as a trophy husband for a dog killing psychopath. If he’s been dysphoric his whole life, he’s done a brilliant job hiding it. It’s more likely that imagining himself as a “bimbo” is a way for his subconscious to work through how humiliating his life has become. There’s an avenue for women to be empowered through brainless sexual subordination, but men have no equivalent. And those are really your two choices. You either figure out why a straight (probably bisexual desu) guy is wanting these things, or you figure out your public self is just a mask, and then you’re repping.
>>43127368Fear
>>43127368Idk but same
>>43127590>perhaps when you’re AGP you feel like someone wants you very deeply, and in your waking life, you feel totally invisible.Not OP but this is very relevant to me. It's about power and control.
>>43127590I am bisexual, but a relatively straight feeling one weirded out by faggy gays. At least some kinds of faggy gays, unless you're really really cute I guess.I am also invisible in my day to day life and I do enjoy that. But it's also probably not healthy>“what does being womanly in my fantasies give me that I can’t get as a straight man?”I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I want a vagina and that's something I can't have, but other times I don't really know. I don't really want to be womanly.
>>43127694>I don't really want to be womanly.What even is womanly today? Women have more freedom than men.
>>43127590>Like, perhaps when you’re AGP you feel like someone wants you very deeply, and in your waking life, you feel totally invisible.What am I supposed to do about it?
>>43127385>>43127425Maybe but a lot of gay guys are disgusting and go after gay porn and Stereotypical gay looks, there’s a reason “straight” / “bi” men are fetishized on Grindr.
>>43127590By far the best answer. Really thoughtful
>>43127368idk, having an anxiety disorder while also being a fag?
>>43127823I do have anxiety disorders yes.
>>43127368It's called brainrot induced psychosis, go take a walk where the trees are tall.
>>43127368i feel the exact same way. outwardly im a skinny beta autist moid. internally, im a agp meta attracted freak that goons to ai chatbot forcefem scenarios.
>>43128029I felt this way long before I became totally brainrotted
>>43127368Because 99.9% of guys irl are gross. It's why there are so many incels, it's why pretend most guys don't exist. There is a tiny amount of cute twinks and a tiny amount of hot big dick hunks (no, shrivel dick roidtrannies with busted faces don't count)
>>43128216I'd say attractive guys/girls ratio is about 1/4. Tho the attractive people are themselves a small portion of ones I see outside.
>>43127853well that explains everything doesn’t it?
>>43128216This I agree with. It's largely a 2D thing I guess>>43128467Not exactly
>>43127590Shit this was really fucking well thought out actually and almost, almost, almalnalmalalmost invoked the tiniest shred of sympathy for bryon
>>43127368that's called being a femboy
>>43130343Hi MWAHnon !!When i first read your name i thought it was MWAH Hon.
>>43130588>When i first read your name i thought it was MWAH Hon.that wouldn't be wrong eitherrr
>>43127368It's called conditional homosexuality. You're only gay under certain conditions.
>>43130634You mentalpass as insanely cute but i understand that genetica tend to be rough so i cany comment on that
>>43130343I'm way too fuckin old lmao>>43130763I've never heard of such a thing
>>43127590>Like, perhaps when you’re AGP you feel like someone wants you very deeply, and in your waking life, you feel totally invisible.this hit hard, yeah the biggest thing for me is probably just wanting to be desired in some way. it’s harder for me to lead in social situations i feel like i would be so much better at playing the role of a woman in relationships
the solution is to bring the public into your home and start sucking dick and having men cum in your asswe got apps for thathave fun
>>43131521Eww that would require me to interact with other people
