The only thing I truly like is bondage. Of course, I've always felt attraction to girls but really, the only libido I ever feel is seeing them trussed up, begging for life and through me dominating them. Intercourse disgusted me. I just liked to see them squirm, moan and whimper in bondage as I jack off in the corner. Ever since I was a child I always was naturally gravitated towards seeing women in bondage. After BoundHub got IP blocked in the USA since like October, I started downloading and playing bondage games where you play as a woman getting tied up - overall, these factors are why I refused to ask out and speak to women ... because none of them could fit my desires ... no woman attracted me.THEN, right when this was happening - bondage games -, I started heavily questioning my own gender. Specifically, remembering memories of desiring to the be the other gender. Suddenly, I felt top and bottom dysphoria where something felt off about my body. And I started remembering past memories wishing in my early twenties that I wanted boobs (24 now). I started imagining myself with softer skin and boobs and a fully functioning vagina. I didn't feel aroused, just simply euphoric. But more specifically, that I'd become the object of desire - the bound woman. Now, from November to April I have considered myself transgender. I felt a desire to socially transition as in be called a girl or a woman ... and I feel a particular feeling of trans joy when I think about that. I've considered taking estrogen, FFS, everything and being called a transgender woman felt like something that finally fit me ... However ... after much consideration, I think the desire to troon may just be a culmination of the loneliness I feel in being a bondage weirdo. Women find me too chauvinistic as a man who wants to BDSM top them. So, if I can't find the perfect woman, I become the woman. Is this a repper delusion or am I onto something here?
same but i always played the part of the woman and tied myself up since childhood
>>43128110It reads like cope for repressed dysphoria. You couldn't imagine yourself penetrating a woman, like a man is supposed to so your brain came up with something more abstract to fill in for it, the bondage kink
>>43128195as a kid, I remember in the 1st grade I'd imagining seeing my teachers get tied up on the train tracks. as a damsel in distress. this was an all-consuming fantasy for me. I had not experienced or even known of bondage porn yet ... but felt an intense desire for this. By the time I'm 12, I'm typing into Google "women tied up" and learn of hogties and the sort and learn of bondage. But I'm too scared to click a video. Then I tie myself up and I felt the single greatest form of euphoria ever. From my teenage years, I just start doing self-bondage A LOT. for hours on end. imagining myself as the woman. and if not that, then normally just watching women in bondage. in my twenties, I started practicing more and more self-bondage with my own red ballgag ... and I felt a lot better when I imagined myself as a woman getting dominated ... idk tho ..
>>43128245When the neighborhood kids used to play cops and robbers, I'd always volunteer as hostage, even if no one had asked. The other kids would tie me up, lock me in places and generally treat me badly, in a playful way and I loved it. Then I hit puberty and found I had all the associated kinks and just felt ashamed about it from that point on
>>43128110Estrogen really fucked with my fetishes. You might take it and find out come out the other side pretty damn normal. Or might it not do anything for you. Don't know till you try.
>>43128276no same. but I used to be like the robber in my childhood. I do remember one time I played it with someone I volunteered to be the hostage and it felt amazing. arguably better than being the robber. and the shame part is so real. I didn't even understand erections until like 15. however, at like 11, I instintively felt that these fascinations were so awful I thought I was a serial killer or something ... I even looked up serial killer stuff ...
>>43128312I need to find someone to do that stuff with again now that I'm mostly over the shame. I wonder if it would still feel just as amazing. I'd still feel weird seeking it out though
>>43128312And I also used to think that it meant there was something deeply wrong with me. And there is, but I'm not evil or a horrible person or anything because of it
>>43128346You in NYC?
>>43128355Well desu I don't feel shame about it anymore. Just cautious about who I share about it with. Nothing evil about carnal intense human lust.
>>43128356other side of the world
>>43128245>>43128276i never watched porn of any kind till late teens but just based on half assed allusions on ota tv i did damsel in distress crap i would play tie up games with my female cousins but they thought it was weird
>>43128368Sometimes I wonder about how it relates to me being a tranny. It was definitely a good cope once I hit puberty, having a way to imagine sexuality without it involving my dick
>>43128110i thought i wanted to be one of the girls getting tied up and now that i am one i don't really care about it and just have sex with guys the normal wayonly problem is it's still the only kind of porn i watch
I was never like that, but when I was a little kid I liked to flip over a laundry hamper and curl up inside because it felt like being an animal in a cage. It was very comfy for some reasonand now I want a man to actually put me in a cage
>>43128477It's true for me too since transitioning, when I'm actually with people now it doesn't come up and it's still nice, even though in the past that was the only thing I could get off to. I still want to try it one day though
>>43128433my enby friend says its because the image of a trussed up woman is spiritually what trans women are: trapped inside maleness and masculinity. femineity and femaleness punished for existing. I used to imagining a woman's wrists and skin wriggling and that still turns me on so much - the feeling of being trapped and incapable of escaping -
>>43128222this same logic might apply to my humiliation fetish, whole time i was fantasizing about stripping girls naked in public i wanted to be the girl
>>43128496but cis women like being trapped and tied too
>>43128492after i got srs i got really excited trying all the sex things i had seen or thought about and never could do but then the novelty fell away and i just use a vibrator on my cliti think bondage is similar. i don't find it as fun irl as it seems to look at.
>>43128477do you at least get chocked and slapped
>>43128509I guess the fascination is different? cis women may not develop bondage as an obsession as do trans and gay women.
>>43128506I think its one reason why trannies have so many overlapping kinks in general. When you look at what they all have in common, its usually some kind of sexual script that omits the genitalia
>>43128530there were a lot of blogs on tumblr made by women which made me think these women think of it in the same way that i do
>>43128526otoh maybe it's the ultimate penectomy/castration fantasy that i managed to do that for real lol>>43128529no>>43128530there's plenty of cis women doing bondage shit though? porn aside (because it's paid) you still see them on fetlife and shit
>>43128534well, can life be livable in this repper delusion of cope cis male fetishry?
>>43128526idk, I still vaguely remember the feeling from when I was a kid. If it still feels anything like that, it'd be incredible. Not necessarily directly or exclusively a sexual feeling though
>>43128534will i derail the thread if i say diaper
>>43128540it could be just domination. negotiating power in a world that denies you of it.
>>43128552It wasn't for me. You'll have to figure out yourself if its for you>>43128563It fits my theory so not imo. Never was my thing though
>>43128548sex with men just makes bondage more viable though women will never tie you up and self bondage is so limiting and you have to think of your safety which kills all the fun
>>43128632plenty of women who will happily tie you up
>>43128645none for free that arent fat
>>43128632Doesn't that just make the prospect of transition only an endeavor taken because of an incapability to conceptualize a woman could ever love you? The bondage-to-trans pipeline seems to me as just a place where incel men "turn" into women because they can't imagine a woman ever loving their sickoness unless they were a woman. transmaxxxing?
>>43128654also not true in my experience
>>43128632my bf says he doesn't have any kinks so it's hopeless
>>43128668im just talking about the partner not your self image it's still female
>>43128707cis men are the least likely to have interesting kinks. most of them are content with just getting off and not putting in any thought beyond that. if they're slightly kinkier than that, it will still usually in some way end with them getting off inside someone else. it's the only acceptable endpoint and everything else has to lead up to it, which greatly limits how weird they can get with it
>>43128645still less than men and they rarely have the same dominating energy
>>43128195this, my first orgasm was a prostate orgasm from dry humping my floor while tucked and tied up. I ultimately wanted to be a woman before I developed a fetish for bondage (from feeling trapped in my identity).
>>43128759oh yeah the soft penis orgasms in those days were even better than prostrate orgasms and happened deep inside
>>43128732okay so why can't he tie me up and them cum inside me?
>>43128783He can, but coming inside always being the goal sets a limit on how far their imagination usually goes. The further from standard sexual scripts your thinking goes, the more of a pervert you will be and since the standard script is made by and for men, they're usually not that authentically pervy
>>43128854pretty sure training and owning you is their goal usually and keeping you neck deep in subspace
>>43128110i got tied up and locked in the closet by a close male relative when i was a kid and now i like it when people tie me up and just generally restrain me can't imagine wanting to do that to another person thoughi just transitioned bc actively repping was driving me insane (I'm still crazy)
>>43128979A friend once threatened me with a staple gun. I had never seen one and thought it would shoot them like an actual gun and was really scared and today I want someone to threaten me with a gun and make me suck on it
>>43129067>your kidnappers will never release an extortion video of you sucking on their guns
>>43129097it's double unfair because guns are illegal here so I will never even properly roleplay it
>>43129137what about airsoft guns
>>43129097spprrrrrinnnnngggg brreeeaaaakkkkk
>>43129144lack the taste of gunpowder residue
>>43129169do you know what gunpower residue even tastes like?
>rope shitapparently nerdweebs are known to be into it
>>43129182how did this thread go from bondage makes trannies to sucking on phallic dem gunz?
>>43129190more nerds are into bondage than weebs are. nerdweebs may need to be investigated. the most infamous tranner into bondage is Lana Wachowski who literally cheated on wife with a dominatrix.
>>43129182I don't and I never will. The nanny state is cucking me out of it
>>43129275well then you wouldn't know the difference if someone made you suck an airsoft gun would you?
>>43129196The thread made me horny, sorry for derailing
>>43128110>these factors are why I refused to ask out and speak to women ... because none of them could fit my desiresSon, bondage is the #1 basic bitch entry level fetish. Literally every woman on the planet enjoys being tied up.
>>43128110How do you even find people to live out fetishes with?I doubt i will ever get to experience that kind of stuff
>>43129326They're all around you. Often they're slightly autistic and will let everyone around them know what they like in one way or another
>>43129301>Literally every woman on the planet enjoys being tied upTry explaining to foid that you want to have them nipple clamped, hogtied and barefoot, ballgagged as I whip them repeatedly and that they don't eye contact with me.
>>43129357That's gonna have to be something you work up to. You don't cold open with whipping and eye contact restrictions
>>43129395Point being, not everyone is into it. Bondage like 50 shades is entry-level but deeper down its not "entry-level." Everyone can swim but not everyone's michael phelps dumbass.
Do you need a rope bunny OP?
>>43129301i wanna be the woman though bound owned and branded
>>43129420Yes.
>>43129418I would be down for something like that with someone I trust a lot. I would be down for some light bondage with someone I trust way less. If you open with the most extreme scenario you're into, you're gonna put people off before you can build enough trust to actually do it
>>43128110>So, if I can't find the perfect woman, I become the woman. Is this a repper delusion or am I onto something here?Peak AGP
>>43129439You dumb bitch. That's NOT what I'm saying. I'm saying extreme bondage is not commonplace, you said it is. Die. You sperm.
>>43129437Where are you located?
>>43129466NYC.
>>43129462I didn't say that, but I guess I should have put a nta somewhere. Still, chill out
>>43129473:( I’m never getting tied up.
>>43129479Ok. Sorry for being mean. Sorry for calling you a dumbass, a dumb bitch and a sperm.
>>43129481wya?
>>43129481Same here
>>43129500Queensland Australia
>>43128245same, still do.>>43128540That take me backI recall a blog was called my trapgf or something>>43128632self bondage is still better than bondage with someone, IMO>>43128654>none for free that arent fatTHIS, I checked.>>43128732Nice way of looking about it>>43128759My first orgasm was from dry humping my pillow while wearing my cousin's pantie>>43128777Concur>>43129301Nah, most women don'tOnly few actually want to just to satisfy their men just like >>43129357 said.>tfw no femboy to tie up
>>43129562why tf is everyone in australia?
>>43129569Any good guides on self bondage?
Similar here, except with impact play and manhandling Albeit I don't find sex repulsive by any means, I find the majority of my pleasure in pinning someone much smaller than me down under me or within my hands. Im nearly 6"5, the feeling of having my hand around a girl's throat and pinning her to the wall, breathing down her neck with my erect cock pressed up against her stomach as all she can feel is her asphofogas tightening from my grip and my huge hairy frame mashed up against hers....its a fucking rush. The best part is finally letting go, letting her tumble to the floor like a rag doll limp, only to crawl to me clinging to my big legs looking up to me with beady puppygirl eyes pleading saying "Thank you, sir".Only to spit in her mouth and give her a long wet kiss scratching the back of her ear in return
>>43129635fuck. hot. wish that could be me :(
>>43129571It’s nice and sunny
>>43129569>self bondage is still better than bondage with someonewhat are you dumbthe aim is to be absolutely helpless and and the mercy of someone
>>43129655imo bondage is better with someone than self-bondage. self-bondage gets into sub-space slightly. not entirely. bondage with others feels amazing. they have all the power and you can't do anything about it. makes me moan just thinking about it.
>>43129673Yeah but what if I never find others
>>43129721>tfw no grindr daddy with a bondage gear collection
i remember seeing a tweet about bondage therapy and i think about it a lot. getting tied up nonsexually by someone who knows what theyre doing sounds awesome and really relaxing
>>43129737Well youre joking but ill never get to live out my kinks and die miserable and regretting it.I envy everyone who ever could live out their fantasies
>>43129765not joking i would absolutely put myself at risk a maledom could even make me act in a bubbly stupid way which i've never done
>>43129906Hard to find such a good person thats also not too scary and also not act too autistic when socializing with them
>>43129906>bubbly stupidThats the exact way my ex was after I did >>43129635 with her. She was quite smart, sometimes even moreso than me on things but as soon as I was rough with her, pulling on her collar or leash even in the slightest shed go numb in the head drunk it seemed. >>43129647What's stopping you from finding someone?
>>43130099fetlife is co-opted. online dating services suck. and its hard to find someone to trust who won't just post you on the internet for blackmail.
>>43130156I live in a heavy lgbt city in the PNW thats how I found my former tpuppygirl. Join local chat groups, or bdsm clubs. Im near Seattle so there is lots of opportunities here.
>>43128110yeah. i didnt know what bondage was until my late teens and now i literally loathe being alive knowing im never gonna find some guy to fulfill those desires, all because im a gargantuan tranny hon. i thought i found someone but he only really pretended to be into it, after we fucked a few times he lost most of his interest in me.
this is me 10000%... god i need to find someone to use me like that so i can stop being such a hyperindependent bitch
>>43130235nta but i live in a rural area. i hate the city. i feel like im doomed to be along simply because im not a typical lgbt person. i have no interest in large cities or being near them. being nearly two hours from a metropolitan area is close enough.
>>43131461Sounds dangerous. Christcucks if they find out where you live they will hunt you down and kill you and nobody could do anything to stop it.
>>43128195>So, if I can't find the perfect woman, I become the woman. Is this a repper delusion or am I onto something here?you just explained all of troonism>incels cant get bitches, become bitch>roiders cant get bitches, become bitch>old ugly boomer cant get bitches. become boomerhon>failed male cant get the girl he wants: become girl he wants.all trooners are just men who cant find a woman that likes them so they become the woman. its simple really. also why u get so many disabled troons. no one wants to date disabled.troons are the epitome of the undesirables. hence why they are being targeted. ugly, insufferable, misogynistic incels weirdos freaks druggies diapers, polycules messy disorganized people. they have legit mental illnesses and they try to normalize it to the world.
>>43131699you forgot to add gamers, anime watchers, figurine collectors, sci fi nerds and furries.
>>43128110I would give anything to be restrained like picrel.
getting bound up is fun and all but getting fucked while bound is on another level
>>43131604thats not even close to true. most people my age barely go to church and dont give me shit. im a hon too.
>>43131797this the type of shit that makes me suicidal. no one ever will do this to me.
>>43131952Can't you just find a kinky group, go to a kink party or whatever, whats wrong?
>>43132022Nta but do those places feel lonely if you’re shy?
>>43132022the kinky groups are full of people so far they cant see their genitals. i wish i was joking.
>>43132037Everything feels lonely if you're shy and hungry for human contact because of it. Just accept it, yeah, it makes you weird on top of your probable autism. The good news is that kink spaces are filled with people who are familiar with loneliness and repression; not all of them, of course, but you can tell by the eyes and posture and stuff. Stick to your own if you want.>>43132047You mean fat? Is that really a problem for you as a bondage-obsessed bottom, lol. Do you really fucking care how your dom looks while you're gagged, tied up and fucked? Maybe blindfold should do the trick.
>>43132112oof. fatty spotted.
>>43132112bro im not attracted to people that indulgant. its gross. youre sounding like a loser hedonist now.
>>43132148I'm 64kg@175cm; my partner says I've gotten too thin, actually. It just baffles me as a bottom who loves bondage. Personally, I don't give two shits about how my rigger/dom looks, only how confident and charismatic they are. I guess you've never even tried this with a person or something. Let me tell you that the most beautiful man or woman on earth will become your biggest turn-off if they don't have the rizz and can't vibe with your bottom energy. And the ugliest motherfucker on earth will be your next god saint forever icon if they just always know what you need during the action.
>>43132312aorry but i geniunely have minimal to no physical attraction to fat people. i take care of my own body to a degree. i fast regularly, my medical tests all show me as healthy. why would it be odd to.expect the same for a partner? i like being outdoors too, off trails and in the wilderness, fatties cant into that.
>>43132355So you do have brainworms. I'm guessing you're projecting your repressed desires to eat more food and shit; like, if you can fucking keep this at bay, you expect this minimum from the other person, yeah? But no one gives two shits about your retarded expectations, you know that, right? People are on their own, wildly different tracks of life, just as you are. But here we can see exactly what stops you from being more social and outgoing. Just because you're so anal about something, you somehow deluded yourself into expecting the same thing from others. You gotta fix this in yourself, or you'll continue to be miserable. Also, your dom/rigger might not be your partner; you can keep these things separate. Talk to your partner about it in advance, of course. Partners don't have to be kink-sharing, but being kink-understanding and kink-supporting is important for me, for example.
>>43132454fatty cope.
>>43132496I can't even... you're, like, 16 or really stupid and old, right? I can buy a semaglutide pen right now for 30 bucks if I want to get thinner. I don't need to; I actually want to get more fat in the right places, but you know it's a solved problem, right? Me, my generation will not get fat and diabetic after 30 if we don't specifically want that for some reason.
>>43132579ok?
>>43132112I don’t have autism but takes me time to feel comfortable to come out of my shell with people.
