I spent my life focusing on academics and career to distract from dissatisfaction I recognize that, but how do I get a personality now. Is it possible to get feminine if Iam basically a nerd guy with no emotion
people who study computer science are useless waste of space and deserve mass genocide
>>43133350take your hrt and work on your appearance, your personality will develop by living. no one cares about anything anymore so your personality will be for you.
>>43133373Shut up, you useless eater.>>43133384>>43133384>develop by living."Just be yourself"Total non answer.
>>43133398why did you choose to not be yourself for so long that your personality died? are you retarded?
>>43133350many such casesi hope you have friends at least
>>43133614if they had friends as an academic theyd have a feminine personality even when repping.
>>43133350do lots of psychedelics and don't tell anyone about it
>>43133373unironically it was everybody who resembled an authority figure telling me that that was actually true, except about everything that wasn't doctor/lawyer/engineer, that made me study computer science in the first place. Ever since I was a kid I was always naturally talented at history and social studies and loved it and everything like it from sociology to economics.But studying those things would be considered "bad" because I wasn't doing what I was supposed to do which was get training for a career, which of course, only exist for doctors, lawyers, and engineers, and everything else is underwater basketweaving.I've worked a cumulative total of 1 year and 2 months over multiple jobs actually doing computer science and as soon as I was actually on the job I realized I fucking hate it. The rest of the time over the past 8 years since graduating I've just been a NEET or worked entry-level labour jobs.Fuck computer science, fuck the culture of people who are in programming, fuck the products of it which are just a bunch of scum sucking, child-brain-molesting, digital circus rent-seeking, profiteering, often genuinely illegal but not prosecuted, drains on every real part of the economy fucking financial smoke and mirrors too-big-to-fail show where the main source of revenue is government tit-sucking, rent-seeking, child abusing, and cannibalizing pre-existing industries that had worker protection laws but it's somehow allowed because LE INNOVATION LE TECHOOOO TECHOOOOOOOO TECHNOLOGY1!!!!Please do not do what I did. Unironically follow your passion to an extent because the people who are the most skilled at literally any high-level craft are people who can get genuine enjoyment out of practicing their talent.If you love computer science and are reading this, I'm sorry, I should have never arrogantly put myself where you should be. Please finish watching/reading SICP already and share the software, thank you.
>>43133373many are saying this
>>43133723tfw love computer science but the degree was just programming nowadays so studied something else
>>43133723Lmao bro. I'm a nerd and got into coding at 12. I'm probs a high functioning autist. Fuck the software industry, seriously. Fuck it so damn much. I don't get along with anyone. Nobody has my standards. Middle mgmt just thinks cutting corners & accruing tech debt is being "pragmatic." Everybody knows tech debt lingers forever, nobody's gonna even let you go back & fix it, there's tickets you gotta do, features to add, bugs to squash, cleaning up the steaming pile of shit that is the codebase ain't a ticket so it ain't your job. And upper mgmt is even worse. Istg if I wasn't a remote contractor my boss would've probs tried to fuck me like he fucked all the HR girls.Fuck corporate, fuck software. I'm literally trying to get out of it but all my autistic ass knows is software.
>>43133373normalfags who can only think about fields and interests purely in the context of narrow and immediate financial interests like a bugman public official should be euthanized>>43133723Programs are wonderful little objects that we can build and manipulate in numerous ways to answer questions and explore our universe. It's hard to remember sometimes, but CS is deeply alive, and I'm of the firm belief that it can not only be a form of creativity, but a form of power that those who indulge in the craft can use for good.The tech industry can eat my ass. I was there watching every I/O and WWDC with starry eyes when I was nine, and I was there when every single corp settled on the businesses of addiction, private intelligence, democracy shredding, regulatory capture and weapons development. Which wouldn't be so bad for me if they remembered that the point of a computer is that its behavior is defined and well-understood.I'm sorry that you got DOCTORLAWYERENGINEERed into spending your precious time. You learn to dodge that shit very quickly in immigrant families. Economics is very cool, please consider studying it.
>>43134087>>43134123Thank you for your responses, to be honest I didn't hate learning computer science itself when I was in college and I got good grades. I like the feeling of conjuring spells on the computer, when I learned about big O and stuff my brain was on fire tying the idea to ideas in economics. I think it's a good thing you know, all those hippie programmer free software types seem like genuinely one of the better movers and shakers when it comes to maybe making the world an actual better place.I hope you too can find some outlet for your passion that's good. As for myself idk, it's hard to get into other jobs without experience or a degree. I did get a minor in economics at least.
>>43133350I did the same with focusing on academics, tho as a distraction from like gender shit/to help repping and as a general distraction ig.And idk either lol, im out of academics for good now and gotta find a job. And idk i feel extremely depressed, aimless and like a non person rn (more than usual).I used to enjoy what i studied, now i kinda dont give a shit anymore lol.At the same time i also lost interest in all hobbies i had. Idk its weird, pls do tell if you figure out how to get a personality post academics tho cuz i desperately need one too i think.
>>43133671genuinely good advice except you should tell someone about it because its smart to have a trip sitter>>43133373i used to study computer engineering, hard agree as long as you include computer engineers on the genocide. or really anyone who works in a private tech company to any capacity.i left tech and now im just a nerd in healthcare whos obsessed with open source software and commits automated copyright "crimes" on mass scale every single day
