Is transitioning even worth it if I get panic attacks from thinking about how I'm basically gonna chemically castrate myself and have to face immense familial, romantic, and possible career challenges? I wanna start while I'm still young and before I have a wife and family that will have their lives ruined if I John50 but it almost seems like it's not worth it. Especially since it feels like such a self centered act (at least in my case). Why should I give a shit about my happiness when my job is making other people happy?
>>43141743Why do you think that your purpose is making other people happy? Its your life, live for yourself
>>43141767I am nothing without other people so I need to return the favor. Like I'm paying tribute.
Take your HRT retard
>>43141788Stop doing this, I ruined my life doing this and am just left being a non-person.
>>43141743I'm sorry you see yourself as nothing but a utility for others, I feel bad for inner women.
God I wish I knew the answer to this. It’s so easy to tell myself “I want to start hormones because it will make me personally happier in one part of my mind” but even easier to tell myself “This will complicate every relationship I have with other people, my family will feel burdened, and I will still probably be unhappy because the world sucks for other reasons and I will have new problems”.
>>43141743if you are trans it works opposite to chemical castrationyou have never been truly horny before and it is going to sneak up on you before the second year if your levels are good
>>43142510No what I mean is I feel an immense discomfort from anything affecting my balls. During my first zoom appointment about hrt they were about to end the call because I was so distressed from the fertility talk that they didn't think it was safe to talk further without someone near me.
>>43141743>Why should I give a shit about my happiness when my job is making other people happy?Then go ahead and be a subhuman whose sole existence is to be goycattle for humans.Don't self-actualize. You don't matter. Be a good goy and serve your betters. It's what you want.I hope I'll still be alive when you John50 anyway so I can tell "we fucking told you so". That is to say if you do live till age 50.
>>43142552Hrt doesn't make you permanently infertile its basically always possible to regain fertility especially in the first decade.
>>43142608Still anything happening to the balls that affects functionality or size greatly distresses me. These things give me such great anxiety, not because I want to get rid of them, but because I couldn't live if I didn't have my plumbing. Any changes feel like a threat to my mental well-being.
If you're not sure you should transition than don't.
>>43141743>>43142552>>43142632Bank your sperm nona. It is super easy these days. I did it and now idc if I'm frying my balls, I could get hit my a car and die tomorrow and there could still be children born that are biologically mine.
>>43141743Hey Nona, I saw you have a wife and kids. I've got a question out of left field. I am struggling with this.Have you opened up to your wife about your feelings? If so, how did that go. If not, how do you feel about it? Are you scared she'll leave? Are you scared of living without her? Is it worth it?
>>43141743Makes me happy when people become who makes them the happiest. Boom. You're now cursed to transition. You're welcome.
>>43141743You know, the crazy thing about the Anne Vitale article with John50 is she says something really, really, oddly insightful. A lot of the Type 3s (You're a Type 3) would transition *without a second thought* if they were told by God to do it. Have you ever thought that maybe you are being told by God? Like, as insane as it is, you're actually being called to do something absolutely fucking bonkers? I think a lot of Type 3s would be much happier if they lived in the Bronze Age and they could say the gods gave them a blessing the normies are too stupid to understand instead of wondering why they can't have 2.5 kids. For what it's worth, I'm sorry about your family. But I think you just need to be clear-eyed about what you're doing. If you aren't going to transition, you need to make your peace with the fact it really is never going to happen. And if you can't do that, every second you spend delaying only makes it worse. Either believe that transitioning is for the best, or don't. But the worst thing you can do is torture yourself.
