I started e injections a few weeks ago, gave me a positive boost and I hyped myself up to get a bunch of stuff done: waxing my eyebrows, new hair style, etc. Did none of it and slowly my positivity quickly turned into the negativity; that a thousand trans women are currently doing this and none of them pass or are as successful and how slow and complicated the whole journey to be a girl and get over self-hatred is. How there probably is no end to it. Then everything started seem like wasted effort again to the point that I resigned to pre-hormones "I'm not going to do anything unless a pretty trans girl comes and scoops me up" thoughts. I wish for them because I know they won't happen. I didn't do my injection this week because my boobs are coming in too fast. I have a happy early transition friend that tries to hype me up and she's so positive but every time she tries to gas me up or talk optimistically about gender I immediately shut her down by finding negativity and saying I will never be the lucky one. I don't know what I want to do. I just keep feeling like over and over again I can't make myself valuable in any way.
>>43143163transitioning actually could have saved him
These are common sentiments from men pretending to be women. Trutrans exists and you are not it. If that's a problem for you don't transition. If it isn't because you don't really care, then your complaining is pointless.
>>43143163femininity is practiced and developed over a long time - it's impossible to grasp all of it all at once. trying to do so will only burn you out and worse make you seem like a caricature of femininity. practice slowly and steadily and eventually it will become easy and natural, like any skill.
>>43143172Knowing you're faketrans doesn't change anything, I'm 100% faketrans by tru standards and I still had the compulsion to try E for 6 years but constantly shamed myself for even wanting to do that. Eventually I had to do it. But by all means continue thinking that any trans regret is because someone is faketrans it's not like we're in a terrible era to be trans and a lot of the alleged trutrannies won't feel regret because they're constantly having to suffer purely because they're trans.
>>43143224It's not that I don't think this shit is slow it's that I think it's pointless as myself. Like I'm worth nothing to myself and a joke to my friends so going through even the most slightly embarrassing shit like getting the eyebrows done and attempting to make them into a girl's is so lost already.
>>43143244>cant do the slightly embarrassing shitAh I see, you're a lost cause and its the fault of your own weakness. I had all the same problems you did and plowed through via sheer bullheadedness and refusal to care what others thought. I am a Nietzschean uberwoman and you're a little idiot slave boy. Enjoy your life of torment and mediocrity before you gracelessly expire.
>>43143163>I will never be the lucky onewhat ever made you think you would be. 50% of people are a 5/10. guess who else thinks they are fat/ugly/unwanted? women
>>43143263Yeah you're so much more noble and nietzchean for refusing to help another person with your own problems and bragging about it in an unseen 4chan thread. Get a grip loser.
>>43143311This is just ranting. You know damn well why a random trans woman would think they could be a pretty girl it's not rocket science.
>>43143332because they're retarded? past that i got nothing
if it was right for you, you'd be finding a way to make it happen regardless of your circumstances. the uberwoman is right
>>43143326Problems like this can only be resolved by the person being willing to change. I fully believe OP could be just like me if she was willing to ignore her anxiety and the opinions of others. How bad do you want it? Just take it. If a bit of embarrassment is enough to keep you from doing even basic stuff then what hope do you have? I got my eyebrows waxed at a men's salon. They didn't care. I manmoded to Goodwill and walked out with a bag of women's clothing. They didn't care. Or if they did, I didn't care enough to notice the stares, and no one confronted me. Just do things, get what you want. Actualize yourself.
>>43143163happy for you nona. i wish i could get a trans gf and encourage her to do this and make her happyt. straight man
>>43143353>t. straight man
>>43143332>This is just rantingme or them?>You know damn well why a random trans woman would think they could be a pretty girli dont, but i do know 4chan incels dont consider women they wouldnt fuck(onlyfans egirls) to actually be women
>>43143349>Problems like this can only be resolved by the person being willing to change. I fully believe OP could be just like me if she was willing to ignore her anxiety and the opinions of others. How bad do you want it? Just take it. If a bit of embarrassment is enough to keep you from doing even basic stuff then what hope do you have? I got my eyebrows waxed at a men's salon. They didn't care. I manmoded to Goodwill and walked out with a bag of women's clothing. They didn't care. Or if they did, I didn't care enough to notice the stares, and no one confronted me. Just do things, get what you want. Actualize yourself.I don't think you understand that the opinions of other people, they are noticing you buying women's clothes. Just because your autism didn't touch the social part of your brain doesn't mean that it didn't touch mine or others. People like you love to spend time telling others to actualize themselves but the moment the general population finally confronts you about what they think of you you'll go back into the same shell I'm in and want to kill yourself, and then for the rest of your life pretend your insecurity is something real in the world and not trauma that was inflicted upon you. But sure become an ugly woman and shame me for not making myself into one too it's not like I'm confronted with the fact the world doesn't understand that part of me everyday. And you'd be the type to not understand, to insult me immediately once I did something slightly out of line. In fact you literally did it not even moments ago all to brag about your faggot philosophy you inherited from chuds, maybe to "help me" if that was even your intention. Then your reply is going to be you saying I'm retarded cause you have no other recourse. Fuck off.
