am i stupid? i would like a lean/built male body but my face disgusts me. its conventionally "handsome" but i think i look horrible. maybe im just too gaunt and eating more and working out would fix me. i go on and off e because i want it to fix my hollow cheeks but body changes distress me. generally i just think i have that asshole physiognomy. like a douchebag finance bro "handsome" face. i dont like it. and im getting older and starting to look like my dad lmao.this could just be a weight thing, i definitely have an eating disorder. I eat maybe one full meal every day or every other day. lately i havent been sleeping. but eating more both on and off e is distressing to me, im scared of the change.not discounting the possibility that i am just trans and hate my face because it's masculine. i find the female body attractive and wouldnt be the end of the world if i had one i guess. but i like the male one.
>>43143670Sounds like dysphoria to me. I was more or less the same when repping. That doesn't necessarily mean it actually is dysphoria, but it might be worth looking into more
>>43143670if you have decent beard genetics then that is a pretty easy way to totally transform the look of your face. sometimes they can soften a very masculine face. but also they're a pretty masculine looking thing.do you like having a beard at all?
>>43144118i have good facial hair genes, but i really dislike facial hair, it feels unclean to me.im pursuing laser.
