if im a twenty something year old transbian who works on videogames and likes anime and is weird and stunted and scared of intimacy or closeness should i kill myself and accept ceaseless divine punishment or do i deserve love like anyone else doesrhetorical question we all know the answer here the real question here is>QOTT:>what thing keeps you going when you feel it's all hopeless? is there something that persists in your life to drive you to continue living?
>>43148370>what thing keeps you going when you feel it's all hopeless?Nothing>is there something that persists in your life to drive you to continue living?No. At this point I'm just procrastinating my own death
prob kys desu
>>43148415>>43148574thanks anons i knew i could count on you guys!!i think im in a similar situation where every day i only continue living out of pure random chance rather than any conscious decision or want of my own, but im too weak to actually end things on my own terms if that makes senselets all hope that the dice rolls in our favor tomorrow as well!
>>43148370I have a hobby and am learning to be the best at it! that drives me and keeps me going. plus one day I may get a bf from the bf fairy
>>43148703that's lovely... i hope you continue to learn and grow with your hobby and get recognized for your hard work!! also good luck with that boyfriend thing... im sure you'll find the love you desire if you give it time
>>43148811thank you hopenon, im putting in a lot of work and practice to get better! I think the boyfriend thing will just kinda happy on its own, the hobby has a lot of men
>>43148370what kind of games do you work on nona? i keep getting laid off and have kinda given up on the industry and tech in general anyway. but also bills.the only thing keeping me going atm is my side project
>>43148415>procrastinating my own deathtoo real.granted i'm not actively miserable every waking second or anything, there are a few things i enjoy a lot. but like it's obvious i'm not going to have the kind of life i want and that it's just a long slow decline from here on.
>>43150231ahhh... my situation is more like being a modder who got picked up by the devs of a game (to do config/unity setup work and a bit of 3D art)in this case it's a naval simulation game, I'll basically be deanoning myself if i mention it specifically but its a proper game on steamive only had modding adventures and helping friends with their games before this so while im well acquainted with all of this its new actually being paid to do this workin that sense i am extremely lucky to have skipped the normal pipeline of employment and went straight into doing something I'm good ati hope things work out for u as well as they did for me!!
>>43148370make games first before killing yoruself
>>43148370Alcoholism, escapism through games, manga, etc. On a more positive note, trying to keep finding even the smallest reasons to keep going: cats need me to feed them tomorrow, friend wants to see a movie soon, can't die before [thing] comes out. Reach a milestone, pick out another in the near future, no matter how stupid or insignificant.
