I often lay awake at night wishing I had someone I could beat the shit out of.
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>>43152851i would allow you to beat me up but i care too much about my appearance
>>43152851i, very often, lay awake at night wishing i had someone who would cause me physical pain, while also genuinely caring about me.someone who'll hurt me but also hold me close and make me feel the intimate embrace of a hug
>>43152855>>43152857>>43153120why do all of you want to be hurt? i can understand OP but this makes no sense to me
>>43153130>t. first >>
>>43153130idk, i bet someone psychoanalyzing me would say that my lack of intimate experiences makes me unable to comprehend care without physical pain.if someone has enough emotions toward me, positive or negative, to cause me physical harm, they are already so far above the average person that i would fall for them in an instant.but i dont know why, since high school at least, i've gotten pleasure from the physical pain of putting binder clips on my finger tips. idk maybe mental illness?
>>43153162>if someone has enough emotions toward me, positive or negative, to cause me physical harmHave you considered that strong feelings might not always be a reason for someone wanting to do physical harm to you? Have you considered that some people might just be generally frustrated and view you as an object to take that frustration out on only because they know you’ll let them?>>43153145You should think about this.
>>43153145actually, my parents would hop from hitting me with a belt to being the sweetest most loving and supportive people imaginable in the span of like half an hour, so i think i have my harm and love responses mixed up.>>43153162>idk maybe mental illness?that's a given and the answer to 80% of questions on this board
>>43153188>Have you considered that strong feelings might not always be a reason for someone wanting to do physical harm to you?>Have you considered that some people might just be generally frustrated and view you as an object to take that frustration out on only because they know you’ll let them?that is good enough for mei have never felt desired by anyone ever. idc what they want me for, as long as they hug me for even a moment. pleasing someone who likes me is more than enough.being more notable than the average passerby is miles above my lived experience. idc how many black eyes i come out of the moment with.>>43153195>that's a given and the answer to 80% of questions on this boardokay, true, but my mental illness isn't going away any time soon. and someone treating me like how i describe above will only be positive to me.its hard for others to imagine how bare-minimum people's experience can be. any desire is greater than zero desire.
>>43153271Wow this is really fucking sad. I’m so moved hearing this, now I’m not so sure that I’d have the heart to actually act on my impulses. I wish someone would hug you without the pain. You deserve it.>>43153195My sympathies go out to you as well, and all others like you. There is greater love out there than the kind your parents provided.
Personally I just want to get slapped spanked and hair pulled at about a 6-8/10 intensity because it makes my head feel nice and makes me feel a little funny between my legs
>>43153317>Wow this is really fucking sad.yeah, it really is. i'm fully aware>I’m so moved hearing this, now I’m not so sure that I’d have the heart to actually act on my impulses.tbf, i'm very likely too much of a coward irl to act on anything i say. im a complete loser really.>I wish someone would hug you without the pain. You deserve it.i really am fine with either. ido have, at least a little masochism. i just want to experience love, that's all that matters to me really.>>43153363desu, never understood slapping. the pain might just be too sharp for me. i'd absolutely enjoy someone holding my throat roughly tho.respect it either way tho.
>>43152851i often lay awake wishing someone would beat the shit out of me desu
