I transitioned when I was 15 and can't stop thinking about if I had done it sooner, 15 isn't that bad if the only thing I'm freaking out over is my voice right?I just want to feel nice about myself, I wish my mom hadn't made so many jokes about trans people growing up. I didn't know people could pass as a kid or that she would let me troon. Why did they have to cast hons? I love Laverne Cox in oitnb but had she been a hot twinkhon or passoid I would've transitioned so much sooner.I wish I learned about hrt sooner, I feel so fucking disgusting. I want to claw my throat out people think I'm early stage ftm because of it, I hate my voice.I remember looking through a gallery once of trans people when I was younger and seeing how ugly they made themselves on purpose and it confused me.Every time I see a hon it reminds me of how ugly trans people scared me from transitioning as a young child.I never watched jazz Jennings show, not sure if that would've done it for me. What convinced me was seeing a passing trans person online talk about hrt at which point I went on it. Which happened too late.Seriously /TTTT/ I need to move the fuck on. Genuinely how do you all stop the bdd shit.I can't stop spiraling and crying my voice is gross I could be a gigapassoid or something fuck. I might just embrace androgyny idk.
>>43155262>I transitioned when I was 15kys
>>43155276The grass is greener, the fact is that I could've transitioned and had a squeaky high pitched voice but instead felt the need to stay closetedFuck!
>>43155262i started at 16 and it was too late for me so 15 could've been better too late for you. but chill out anyway lol
>>43155357i typed the word better for no reason at all and didn't notice until i posted it
>>43155262no literally i support u. bitterhons are gonna hate but they’ll literally never understand. i transitioned at 16 and i cry every day and dont sleep bcus of it i wish i could’ve been a real youngshit. i h8 it sm i wish i came out at 14 so bad. like what fucking ever i guess tho at least ur only problems voice so just like maybe embrace it and cater to gamp chasers to cope or get vfs. and like try and be positive and stuff and do things that make u happy. u gotta like focus on making everything in ur life beautiful and aesthetic and keep good health. and remember like ur literally not alone i guess.>>43155357omg same
>>43155357My test levels were 260 ng/ dl before transitionI visually pass but my voice is deepI don't feel good about my voice rn and its bothering me like crazy>>43155376Ty anon Yeah that's the plan, vfs or copeI have suspected ehlers danlos syndrome so that might be risky *sigh* picrel Im wondering if I should do an unseen or not, I feel like it might derail the thread
You fuckers realize voice can be trained right? You can literally change your voice if you put effort in, pretty much every tranny does that
>>43155262you literally just had a thread earlier this morning talking about how you want to pretend to be a tranny and asking what age you should claim to be. The age of transition you're giving here was the answer. Who are you kidding?
>>43155495https://voca.ro/1n6gHOCkR3nKHelp and rate plz
As a non passing youngshit I have little sympathy for someone who knew trans people existed but didn't try to transition, because why? You were afraid of being ugly? Like cmon now...
>>43155262why is it either ur confident in yourself but your a hon or you are a mentally ill bdd retard youngshitcan trans women just be normal?
>>43155584because my conservative family would fucking reject me? Because I live in a homophobic country? Retard luckshits having perfect environment and dont even comprehend just how difficult shit can be
oh, jesus, you're a woman, calm down. men don't perform these histrionics
shut the fuck up retard
>>43155611how is this even histronic
>>43155431>Ty anonyesswhat ever the hell elhers danlos means tho>>43155546just talk more feminine u have an online neet autism accent no shade to autists
>>43155696you're a gigayoungshit, you're worried your voice MIGHT not pass, and you wrote your dissertation about it. some of us have real problems
>>43155760I identity openly as autistic/neurodivergent and was diagnosed as a kid.>ehlers danlosIt's a disorder that affects the entire body and how tissue works in generalIt can affect the healing of the body after surgery quite a bitVery dysgenic disorder all around admittedly
>>43155801oh damn that’s kinda cooked rip vfs>identity openly as autistic/neurodivergent and was diagnosed as a kid.omg girl autism accent now js voice train
>>43155767https://voca.ro/1lqEJ3aqcR3A
>>43155861https://voca.ro/1hrC3I15Zm5Y
i was to scared to come out at 7 bc of some transphobic comments my dad made, so i only came out at 12 and its litterely killing me knowing i couldve had a normal childhood
>>43155886IkrMy mom bitched about my trans half sibling and how my biological dad was gay and how that was like different from a woman being gay or something idk.I'm so manic I can't stop thinking about my voice I hate my voice its all people hear online I wish I had transitioned sooner why did my mom larp as a feminist omfggggggggggggg"Haha your sibling is a stupid tranny and ur dad is a fag hahahahaah you can tell me anything btw hahaah"I hate this so much this is body horror shit i hate it so fucking much how are you going to raise me without gender but then whiplash out of nowhere syart treating me male wtf is wrong with my life why is my mom so bad at parenting fuckShe constantly freaked out over gender shit and I thought she would sperg about itI dont want to derail this thread but fuckIm trailing the fuck offfffffff I had undescended testicles how am I so masculine wtffffffffffff THERE historonic stuff over
>>43155968im so sorry sis thats genuinely evil :( but im sure you voice isnt as bad as you think! although i do understand how much it must suckhelp same tho, like my testicular tissue didnt rly work and i only ever peaked at 50 ng/dl yet my eyes are still more sunken in my skull than most men, and a waist to shoulder ratio any man would dream off AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>43155968you're good, you can vent. it's just 4chan. it's also just, because it's 4chan, when someone is emotionally vulnerable, one is obliged to give them a hard time about it. i get how you feel about your voice probably more than you would think. i don't even play online games anymore bc my voice is so ruined (i'm >>43155873 btw)
>>43155968>>43156009ur both so real i was crying today abt how even if i did transition at 14 or 13 instead of 16 i STILL would’ve had an entirely not normal fucked childhood cus literally my whole lifee up until i realized i was like no one at all and changed myself and got rid of everything abt myself that was genuine for my fathers validation like it was cooked. my levels were so high and bad tho compared to urs and like yes why are my eyes so deep set
>>43156046Thanks lolIm just so sick of people making comments about my voice, I tried so hard to embrace feminine stuff as a kidIdk it felt she knew deep down I was gay or something but didn't want to accept itWhy the fuck would a "feminist" bitch about feminine men constantlyIts so tucking stupid, listening to my mom call women fat cows and shit Not to be a dick but she's lucky im not some retarded rape incel type or something idkEvery time my half sibling came up, my mom and step dad would like laugh and shitSo fucking annoyingIts their fault my voice is like this, they get to act like such fucking allies"OH no your botched circumcision SON sits peeing (nothing actually serious just feels better, it doesn't spray everywhere or anything) sitting down thats a big dealI didn't do something she wanted done? Pansy! What a fucking larpSeriously though having doctors handle my scrotum without being told what was going on felt like rape a bit idkAmong other things (hypothetical)I dont relate to endosexed mtfs but at the same time the intersex community isn't for me Older trans women are a different crowdI think I like midshit youngshits or something idkMy frenulum or whatever is fucked Theres like one strip of my raphe that has a nice velvety texture idk its weirdWhy is incest such a huge problem lolGuy at the psych ward clocked me, sorry guys he's the reason this thread got made
>>43156107Thats pretty common unfortunately sorry that happened, I'm phone posting so i missed yaDeep set vs heavy brow ridgePersonally I have a very prominent brow ridge but its somehow not that feminine? I think theyre mostly just like hooded eyes or something I have enough ridge for eyebrow piercingsAnd so do both of my biological parentsI'll take your word for it tho this ain't a passgen
>>43156213which of your family do you want to fuck? half-sibling?
>>43156259Nobody, there was nothing that happened that I want to happen again and I have no intention of starting anything weirdObviously an extended cousin duhhhh... next.
>>43156270>next.are you "botched circumcision SON"? you're telling me you john money'd yourself?
>>43155262>Every time I see a hon it reminds me of how ugly trans people scared me from transitioning as a young child.That's exactly why they all waited until they were old enough to stop giving a fuck. Do it as young as possible or suffer the consequences.
>>43156291No its really just an issue of the doctors being retarded and not letting it heal properlyThat or the entire thing was fucked from the start idk take your pickAll my medical records were deleted illegally before the retention date was up, absolute bullshit I'm sure the dude doing it fucked up and they pretended like everything was fine like all doctors do since, idk fucking alwaysAnyways it shouldnt affect anything srs related I dont think and honestly thats all that matters to me atpOvershare on my part, I just felt like using the last moments of this thread to get something outAgain I should mention my dad and mom both share ancestry from an already bottlenecked population so it's no suprise I have weird health issuesI have a couple other small "rare" abnormalities like with some of my teeth for exampleDoes my voice sound cute?
>>43156421your voice sounds very cute, much cuter than mine. but i am an old angry bitter jealous hon so i'm probably not the best person to ask
>>43156421Adding onto this i have a voyeurism fetish from being examined by doctors and have a fear of doctors as a resultI remember seeing a clip of Clavicular transvestigating this one cis woman's vagina and I found it hot, she had her privates being examed by everyone around herShe looked physically powerless in the situation, shes like small and the dudes are like tall and scary lookingIdk is that bad of me? Never acted on the fetish only thought about it and stuff>>43156438Ty anon, this thread has been very helpful
>>4315526215 is considered midshit btw i trooned at 17 and am a lateshit
>>43156508the only way this nomenclature makes sense is if we create "postshits" to designate trans people who transition after first puberty
i started hrt at 19
>>43156508i am a lateshit despite starting e at 16 because i had a horrifying early puberty and essentially finished puberty at 13
>>43156551i started at 25. there are people on this board who RIGHT NOW who started in their 30s
>>43156541the nomenclature makes sense if you apply the rule youngshit = transitioned before me
>>43156554yeah <\3 i haven't grown since 13.5 (i'm 5'9) and have stayed the same weight
>>43156620yeah same lol. i'm pretty sure it super stunted my height though (i have two little brothers 6'0 and 5'10) so life gives and takes i guess.
>>43156569Same. Complaining about starting at 15 seems really silly with that in mind. Like, fuck you, you were actually in a position to transition as a teenager.
How did my parental unit manage to ignore the following> want to do eyebrows>want longer hair>into gardening and stuff as opposed to hunting like everyone elseb>attempt to make female friends but not really allowed or encouraged to>into fashion but not allowed to pursue it> this gets shuts this down and she insists I make friends with "like minded peers"I had a foid kindergarten teacher yell at me for grabbing purple scissors instead of something else, I would've been fine had my mom not given me a short haircut fuck>wear baggy more loose fitting clothing as opposed to addidas track suits> get heat stroke cuz she got rid of all myNice soft shorts and stuff so instead I wear cargo pants and shit like a lesbo as a little in scorching summer heatHow is she suprised? Theres a bunch of other shitIs my mom a retard? Did I get my intelligence from my dad? I certainly got my bipolar from him. "Ur just like ur dad" yeah im gonna be if you force me to be a MALEEEEE Is she retarded? No joke my bio dad hit her a couple times but I think she was just born that wayWhy the fuck did she get so mad at me for acting feminineDid it remind her of my dad? She bitched about him 24/7 growing up and he came across as pretty flamboyant and stuffPretty sure my dad is a repressor or something idkSorry mom dont fuck fags and you won't have fag kids!I
>>43156009what 50 ng/dl of T can do to eye deepness :(
