Why am I transitioning? Genuinely why? Why does gender matter? Why do I care about something so arbitrary?Why do I have to complicate my life so much? Why am I doing any of this?
>>43159095because you’re a retard
>>43159095>Why do I have to complicate my life so much?Builds character
>>43159152sure...
>>43159112perhaps, probably, pretty likely
>>43159095You fell for the psyop
>>43159095I figured eh might as well before i rope
>>43159095gender isnt real but it has social implications. those social implications, you want them. nothing wrong with that.
what is picrel from again i cant rember the name
>>43159095Intersex condition of the brain is my guess
>>43159095you were born with the tranny curse and now must walk the perilous path of self-actualization
>>43159844Milk outside a bag of milk outside a bag of milk ouside a bag of milk iirc
>>43159992Thx
>>43159989That's such bullshit. Why couldn't I just self actualize without transitioning?
>>43160042because you don't like it. for you to self actualize you have to actually like it. theres probably some way to make you like masculinity but we don't know what it is yet and we probably don't want to
>>43160169Why do I have to like it in order to self actualize? It's also so silly that I seem to fail at just changing what I like into something more convenient
>>43160226are you still waddling around in the afterglow of the first time you came? Didn't it feel great, though, even if it did end? Actualization and acceptance aren't new states of being or essential shifts in character. It's a process that fades in and out, comes into and out of focus as things like new habits and practices become formative to a new system of being, there's no magic serum or math trick to make it work. It's up to you, not the directions others have given, not the example they've set or the standards you're being held to.
>>43160537Can't tell whether this is more inspiring or daunting
>>43159095you're almost free of your mental illness anon. it's the question many here refuse to address. If gender is arbitrary why feel the need to physically change who you are.
>>43161868I doubt that will happen, but wouldn't it be nice?
>>43161868Why do people change their physical appearance in general?
>>43159095>Why do I care about something so arbitrary?autistic hyper fixation, unfortunately instead of trains you got trans
>>43161868I don't think it is arbitrary, but I also don't think it's completely immutable.
>>43163026Actually interesting question tbqh. The pragmatic answer is obviously quite straightforward and plain, but what does actually drive us to care about our physical appearances. Why is our identity so tied to our bodies?
Being a girl is comfy.
>>43164408Not when you look like a man
I don't know
>>43164520I can't see myself right now at all. But being a girl feels comfy.
>>43160042Did you try?>>43163190>Why is our identity so tied to our bodies?We are social animals and the body is the first and most important thing we put on display for fellow social animals. You can cope and pretend like "First impressions are lasting impressions" is an exception and not a rule but there is a reason you have heard that phrase your entire life.
>>43164630I can't be a woman without also looking the part
>>43159095i feel the same way.for me, presenting fem is uncomfortable socially, but my body being masc is very uncomfortable physically. im both disgusted when my arms are unshaven, and scared someone is going to detect that i have tits.i also dont want my transition to affect my personal relationships and my relationship with my family. in my mind it seems impossible to have my cake and eat it too (transition AND still be close with my family), but its so sad because it doesn't have to be that way. they could just, love and accept me.people say find your truth and live your life, until "your life" consists of you not wanting to be a man. then suddenly everyone has an opinion. so what is the truth? my ideas or theirs?mtx, 22, ~1.5y
>>43164843>people say find your truth and live your lifeExactly, live yours and not your parents. I understand how it feels to lose your bond with parents over transitioning, its hard but I wouldnt take another month of repping over it ever again.
