i've known him for two years. we've worked on small projects together for just as long, and we have never done anything to ever make me think i have a chance with him. but i can't stop thinking about him.i don't know what changed. i've only ever seen him in a platonic way, but now every time i think of him i feel weird. i think of how nice he is, how much he praises me when i code a feature he likes, how soft his voice is, etcbut i know it's weird because we're not actually extremely close. i don't want to damage our friendship by telling him how i feel, especially not if he feels the same way. i feel like im going crazy over him but there's nothing i can do. he deserves so much better than a mentally ill tranner gf.
So cute. Probably best not to act on it though. Just enjoy his company. It can be quite beautiful if you get into the right headspace about it.
>>43163057i know :( i told him i was ghonna go to bed because i made an embarrassing joke and now hes asleep and i feel insane for missing him. we hang out like once every month or so
