>normal childhood as a boy>develop autogynephilia and cross dressing fetish at 13 due to porn>cross dress whenever i had the house to myself as a teenager>repress cross dressing fetish in my 20s but still masturbate while imagining myself as a woman>get daily panic attacks about my hairline receding>try finasteride, doesn't help>open up to strangers online>they tell me my fetishes are just a consequence of untreated gender dysphoria>start hrt at 28>manmode but eventually come out to parents due to shame of keeping it a secret>rejected by family>mental breakdown>lose job>can't leave the house>ruined my life>it's all my fault
>>43164554Sounds like it's because your family are assholes more than anything else, nona
>>43164554Because listening to people who said you should reconsider wasn't "cool" 5 years ago during the pandemic, was it?
>>43164565maybe but i'm still to blame for listening to randos online
>>43164554I understand that it's hard, I feel fortunate in that I'm more sure of myself due to memories from when I was barley sentient of being a girl.I'm sorry that happened to you, do you wanna detrans?
>>43164613uh no your parents are to blame because they are assholeswhich probably makes you an asshole too cause they raised youlolol
>>43164666i want to stay on hrt but live as a man. i don't look or act feminine whatsoever because my brain is male
>>43164704well ya you should just be yourself, what do you most enjoy about hrt?
>>43164741softer skin, less body hair, breast development, no libido, slight changes in body fat distribution, softer face, more calm mentally
>>43164554Some troons say autogynephilia is caused by untreated gender dysphoria, but even if you take the opposite approach (Blanchard’s), autogynephilia is an innate naturally occurring sexual orientation likely rooted in a developmental issue in the brain and a percentage of autogynephiles become genuinely gender dysphoric. It’s dysphoria under either framework. Good luck nona, fuck the haters and keep taking care of your needs.
>>43166179Real trans people at least act like their gender but I'm just a guy with a messed up sexuality/fetish. I can only act like a man so transitioning is pointless.
>>43166285Autogynephilia isn’t a fetish and autogynephilic transsexuals are real trans people. The majority of trans women are autogynephilic, even some very beautiful ones, and even ones that say they aren’t. It’s true that autogynephilic types are on average more masculine at baseline but you can do whatever you need to for your transition. You can work on your body language, voice, whatever. Or you can not do those things. Do what feels good/correct, and work on the things that don’t.
