i'm trying to find a way to make trooning out as painful as possible on my psyche (i hate myself and iwnbaw) so that i will eventually find detransition or roping the less painful alternative>never leave the house if i can help it>only wear hobo clothes when i have to>look at terf blogposts everyday to fully internalize iwnbaw>avoid voice training to make talking to others painful and humiliating>convert to christianity to internalize my existence is evil>bishit so i top up on agp and meta attraction rhetoric to internalize i am disgusting and pervertedthis sound good or are there any improvements i can make to my self loathing routine
>>43169910i wouldnt recommend this bc i basically did this without taking into account that im too baby to actually kill myself and now im a completely broken "person"
>>43169940i wana heal you im also beoken tho i hope ure okay i love you
>>43169910 Indoctrinate yourself into the maga right so you know where your place is
>>43169910have you considered hopemaxxing and being happypilled instead of tormentmaxxing and being sufferpilled?
>>43170434already tried that, I was a /poil/chud during my teens but I couldn't repress my troon urges>>43170445i still view trans people as their agab and cis people will never accept us fully either, so what is the point
>>43170445genuinely, how would i learn to be happy, I spent so much time surrounding myself with hatred that I don't see a way out anymore, I hate myself and IWNBAW
Do you people realize you need to make your mind so that you believe you are really women?
>>43170560if the world was more accepting i'd maybe be able to delude myself, but that's just not how it is, the majority of society won't accept me as a woman, so IWNBAW
I wish I was a woman and could be happy