As a brown transgendered in Latin America I've decided I will start chasing white trannies, invite them over to my apartment and cook meals for them to take to campus. Because I am a gentleman I would never ever ask them to use their penises and at most I would frot but only if they ask. I am completely content just watching them and cuddling and I swear it's not because I am afraid of intimacy. I would also write fanfic about us (courtesan poems as a declaration of never-ending love) and show them to my other brown himejoshi friends.I know I am talking in plural but I will actually devote myself to just ONE woman.
>>43171480Why do i get the most dysphoric alone at night
>>43171500Because the world is mean towards us, because it forces upon us love we do not want while denying our most deep and sincere desires. Our existence alone is beautiful because it was never a given and it won't be for a long time.
>>43171525Well idk im not even on hrt and I’ve been around my dad alot recently and I’ve been feeling even more dysphoric since he’s harassing me into cutting my long hair and it’s just like too much i think im gonna go crazy
>>43171537Honestly I do not know how to help you I am really an autistic loser and not a witty troubadour who has mastered courtesan love.What you are going through will hurt until it stops, they will never stop trying to destroy you and as sad as it is the best option is to just go away. I have not seen my extended family since COVID, I missed my grandma's funeral because I was afraid one of my cousins would try to assault me and even though I wish I had a big family like so many people do I understand giving up on myself for them is not worth it.
>>43171480my favourite kind of chaser!!!
>>43171698Nah im not giving up on myself im getting diy on Friday hopefully i just wanted to get this shit off my mind because it’s really been tearing me apart and to be honest im moving out as soon as i can and never talking to anybody in my family again i’ve never been close with anybody even my parents they’re both shitty parents and shitty people in general i’ve know i hated them both since i was 9 i just wanted to give them more chances and they always fail me but i digress have a good night nona and it’s fine for you to not know what to say just try your best to listen and sympathize