Do I feel dysphoria from hrt or is this just hopelessness? I'm 18 year old and I've been on hrt for a few months now, there are barely any changes that happened to my body. I have lost my erection and all of my sex drive with it. My nipples have also gotten more sensitive and they stand out a bit more, but other than these there are no other changes so far. I can't tell if I hate these changes or no, I'm not happy with my body at all and I'm very disappointed but I can't tell of it's because I don't like the changes or if it's because maybe I just feel hopeless about the fact that transitioning would ever be possible for me. I want to be a girl and I've been trans since I was 16, I really enjoy my identity and I would love to pass, but the current state of my body is just so confusing. The fact that I hear people say "ohh everything got better after hrt" makes me really question my identity. Did this happened to anyone else? What should I do?
stick with ita lot of the people who say they "felt so much better" after starting hrt are coping or at the very least trying to manifest it into working faster. it takes time. also get on progesterone as soon as you are able to, it will bring your libido back in spades and really amp up the titty growthBut yeah dont give up. What I would have done to start hrt at 18 instead of 30 lol. Im happy with my results but I would have been such a fucking bimbo if I started at 18 and I would have loved it sm
>>43172740do you dislike the changes for any particular reason? do you not like that they arent developed enough yet, or do you fear experiencing transphobia, or just don’t like the changes?
>>43172763That's another thing, I don't really want boobs, I mean I wouldn't really care if I'd have some, but I don't want to have big boobs. So I'm probably not going to take prog. Most of my dysphoria comes from my face and body hair, and hrt can change on those. I'm also getting laser for my face, and I really like the changes that are happening there>>43172767I honestly don't know, currently I have chest hair, and just imagining that I'd have boobs while chest hair just makes me want to throw up. Not even mentioning that all of this is just a lot to take in for me, I don't really know how to handle all of these changes. I'm sorry I know that I'm not giving much of an answer to your questions
>>43172777its okay if you can’t cleanly answer, i’m in a similar situation to you right now so im pausing hrt for a bit until im fully ready for the changesi def want more laser first too
>>43172740I’m in similar position as you and desu while I feel like hrt is putting me on the right track with how I am changing. (Although I still feel that I look exactly the same but somehow my mum seemed to notice some minor fat redistribution??) I still get tonnes of dysphoria from the fact that hrt wont reverse anything and I think it’s down to the fact that I got on hrt at the same time I accepted myself as trans. But it did take 5 years to accept myself. Right now, the dysphoria which comes from the grief of what my life could have been had I was born a girl is significantly greater than any slight euphoria I get from hrt like breast growth which is incredibly slow.
>>43172830How long have you been on hrt? When did you start to feel a bit more positive?
>>43172740>>43172777if figuring ourselves out was a simple process, we'd all be youngshitstransition is a long and slow process, and whether it's worth it to continue is a decision we will make every day for the rest of our livesit's okay to not be sure of where you want transition to go, it's okay to worry about the parts that are there interfering with the parts that will be there, it's okay to be on the fence about whether you even want to continue, and it's okay to detransition if you feel it's not for you or you need more timeif you don't want breasts, ask at /hrtgen/ about how to mitigate breast growth on hrtfor body hair, you can zealously shave it or get it removed via laser or electrolysis (goodness knows I need to electro my face)and don't let anyone pressure you into a surgery you aren't sure you want for yourself
>>431728478 months. The only thing I really feel more positive on is reduced acne and slightly softer skin.
>>43172870>if figuring ourselves out was a simple process, we'd all be youngshits But the weird thing is that I fount out that I'm very comfortable with the label "trans girl" and I much prefer being one than being a boy. I just don't really know what I want with my body, if that makes sense, I mean obviously I want to pass and look like a girl, and hrt would be the best way to achieve that. Honestly the more that I'm talking about it, the more it feels like I want these changes and I just hate my body and I want to change it. If I'd have these changes on a more normal body I don't think that I'd mind it at all. I'm not sure>and don't let anyone pressure you into a surgery you aren't sure you want for yourselfLuckily I have a very accepting and understanding partner who wouldn't presure me into anything, I don't think that he would even mind if I'd stop hrt as long as I stay feminine, which I want to, since I love being feminine>>43172905I see, thank you for your answer
>>43172919> see, thank you for your answermy advice is to take lots of pictures of yourself. I understand it may be hard to do. I hate the way I look so I never post on social media. But perhaps for yourself it is worth doing to see your progress. That’s what helps me get through hard times If I am worried about the fact hrt isn’t working.
>>43172947Sometimes I take pictures of myself, but those are mostly of my body, since I like it, I should take some pictures of my face just to see what's the progress like there... but yeah as you said it can be very hard, since it's a very brutal reality check to see how ugly your face really is
>>43172740Just take your e Lilly, it'll be alright
>>43172919>don't know what i want with my bodyhonestly, nobody does at your age. that's why plastic surgery is so rampant among youth and why people get into fitness and starvation in their early 20s. its incredibly normal developmentally to not know who you want to be or how you want to look, adding transness into the mix makes things more confusing. add onto that the pressures of being a woman. honestly it would be far more concerning if you weren't a little unsure of yourself right now. ive been there ish so i know it doesn't feel good to accept uncertainty, but you kind of have to.
>>43174848>its incredibly normal developmentally to not know who you want to be or how you want to lookBut the thing is that I'm very confident in the fact that I'm a trans girl, and that's why it's so weird that I have these feelings. I feel like I know who I am, I just don't know how could my body reflect that, if that makes sense. I'm not sure if I would ever be able to reflect it so I'm thinking of repressing instead. What if I really do feel dysphoria from the effects of hrt tho? I thought that I was sure that I'm a girl, so then why would I have these feelings of disappointment? I'm not even sure if this is dysphoria to be honest, I have no clue anymore
