I always managed to get good grades in school and I do well at my job, but outside of what needs to be done to survive, I'm a loser. Laundry piles up for weeks, sometimes I forget to brush my teeth, desk has tons of trash I meant to throw out months ago, and there are a ton of chores I'm actively procrastinating or that I forget about until I'm reminded multiple times.Is it a prerequisite to have some executive function issues to be a tranny? I don't have diagnosed ADHD or autism, so I guess this is just who I am. idk
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>>43174988pretty much same for me but i got diagnosed adhd a couple years ago.most people struggle with some level of executive dysfunction i suspect trannies just give themselves more shit for it on average since we're conditioned into shaming ourselves. instead of your room being messy because you've had a bad week, it's because you're a failure, etc
>>43175004sorry, friendhttps://www.idrlabs.com/executive-function/test.php
>>43174988I have autism, but after transitioning my executive function has gotten much better. I want to do good for myself and actively pursue my goals and needs, even if it is a little difficult at times. When I repped/detrooned I couldn't get out of bed or do much at all, I felt like a lifeless husk. Do you struggle with depression anon? Depression greatly impacts executive function and is one of the symptoms for MDD I think. Hope things get better for U
>>43175065I'm glad that you're doing better. I've struggled with depression my whole life, and while it has gotten better since transitioning in some ways, I'm never better than "ok".
>>43175031do you take medication for your adhd? i think you put it really well. i am a failure, but also for different things i didnt mention
>>43175085Thank you : ) Most of the reason I brush my teeth is just because I fear them rotting out or looking ugly for my standards, and I also like the shiny smooth feel. I clean my room up because mess is only additional stress and I also don't want any bugs or mold or shame, I also get very stressed when I can't find items I need easily. So really I just do what I need to do in order to avoid negative consequence.Maybe you can slowly get better with time, working on one thing at a time, slowly building habits. Taking care of yourself has the potential to bring self worth and lessen depression, even though it's hard. Realistically the only reason it comes second nature to most people is either because it's been implemented in them since youth, or they've seen extreme negative consequences and don't want to become that, knowing how steep the slope can be.I believe in U anon. I think U can get to where you want to be. You obviously have the mental image of an ideal life, you can do it.
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what do these even mean
I have autism and ADHD. I am barely functional. I'm able to live independently because I got the computer autism and AI hasn't automated me out of a job yet, but if I were like 5% more autistic I couldn't manage it.
>>43175348That's a hard life. I'm really sorry
>>43175348RIP
Well well well
>>43175327It literally explains them all underneath the result
>>43175403yeah but does a larger or smaller one mean you’re normal
>>43175422The bigger the slice the more effective you are in those areas
>>43175422for you, your task initiation is very poor. smaller is worse
>>43174988I was never diagnosed with anything, no idea what this means
>>43174988i got an 8 is that good or bad help
oh god its really bad
>>43175103yeah i'm medicated, i've been through pretty much every anti depressant and stimulant, now i just take vyvanse and am starting ketamine therapy soon.try to give yourself some grace, managing life by yourself is hard on anyone and it's even harder on troons. i'm almost 28 and can barely work most days, struggle to eat, brush my teeth, etc., let alone maintain a social life or hobbies. but as it turns out a decade of berating yourself for being a failure doesn't make your life any better, it just conditions you to believe you don't deserve better. a therapist of mine analogized it to wagon wheels carving grooves into the mud of your brain and now your thoughts naturally follow the "track" laid before them, even if the track is just going round and round in circles to nowhere.not that intellectualizing mental illness makes it any less insufferable but "unmasking" it and acknowledging your thoughts/habits as products of a sick mind sometimes helps me to center myself and cut through the fog, even if its only for long enough to get up and brush my teeth or prepare a meal, every little act of defiance will help carve new grooves
>>43174988Years of untreated social anxiety, depression, dysphoria, depersonalisaion have turned me into a troglodyte
>>43174988seems about right for most stuff, i think i have better impulse control than that though
>>43175348I NEED to fucking mommy you
>>43174988Haha I love being borderline retarded. (I've been diagnosed with ADHD and I'm 99.9% sure I'm also autistic, but I also have the incredibly useless kind of autism when I'm just into obscure media and stuff)
I want to change.
>>43176241y-yes please
I can't do anything efficiency but I'm not the worst person to be around I guess?
I'm so cooked (and I'm medicated for adhd)
Doing things is hard.
>>43176241>>43179025together we could rule the world
>>43179041I can’t imagine that life desu, being able to consistently be on tasks but not have any flexibility or emotional control? How do you manage?
most of you are too well adjusted, i do not approve
>>43179130Rather hellish seeming combination, being very aware of yourself but not able to do anything about it
>>43179099I always call it "reverse procrastination" like if there is something I have to do, It crushes my soul until I do it. I had a class in online college (covid) that opened all the assignments on day 1 and I finished the whole class in 3 days. the lack of other stuff is just autism (actually diagnosed). I usually don't even know im feeling an emotion until after it's gone and I really hate when plans change. just robotmodingdesu ur chart just sounds like depression/anhedonia. like ur competent but u just don't have the drive to do anything.
>>43179269>It crushes my soul until I do itThis sounds horrid.. I could never live if I had to deal with this.. There’s always something that I have to do, but I never pursue it. For example: In an ideal world I would follow a strict schedule throughout the day. 6 hours of sleep2 hours of reading at bed7 hours of education3 hours of reading after education1 hour of practicing a language1 hour of practicing mathHow often do i actually follow this schedule? Ehhh, never. Maybe I read every third day, practice a language once a week. There’s just no motivation to do it, my body prefers to sit in darkness doing nothing. >like ur competent but u just don't have the drive to do anything.That’s very accurate.
>>43179269Incompetent with no drive here. Who wnat me
>>43175058I love the way you type
>>43174988i need to be put down
>>43174988>https://www.idrlabs.com/executive-function/test.phplol
>>43174988manmodder here, am i retarded or something? im diagnosed with ADD if i remember correctly.
I actually have severe adhd but I learned to get my shit together when I became an adult without meds
i think I may have answered the questions a bit too severely, but I do struggle with what it shows.never been diagnosed with anything but it's been clear to me for years that i'm autistic and likely have ADD, the description for avoidant personality also fits me.which fucking sucks cuz im an engineer, not remembering things and putting off tasks keeps biting my ass at work and almost had me fail college back in the day.maybe getting a diagnosis would be worth the potential stigma if it meant i got to try whatever amphetamines help with it.
>>43179423its actually a part of myself that I like. I still can't make things that arent necessary "need" to be done. Like I couldn't be like "I need to practice learning Chinese for 3 hours a day" because I have no need to know Chinese. But for assignments, reports, applications, cooking, it works. I hate to recommend drugs, especially psychiatric ones, but Wellbutrin might help you.
About as I expected. Sometimes I wonder myself wtf am I even doing on this board. I don't fit any of the common things here except I'm a 'fake' tranny (trooned for the fetish) which is, ironically, also due to decent executive function.
I seriously thought I was going to get better scores than this while I was answeringI am detransing mtf with tourettes. Adhd isn't real. I may have some kind of emotional issue
>>43185485This is what I think I actually am
so i'm just fucked or what?
>>43184645>WellbutrinSorry anon but I’m not depressed, at least, I’d like to believe I’m not, haha. Maybe i’ll begin taking something like modafinil instead desu, I still appreciate your motivation, it made me want to get on more pharmaceuticals haha
>>43186143yea. Im not a huge Wellbutrin fan after it made me hallucinate and gave my hppd, but it's a really interesting drug. The odds of that happening to someone else is like 0. Its slightly stimulating but not literal meth like Adderall
>>43186626Did you have it prescribed to you or did you order through a grey market site?
this is reflective of my experiences. I often cite myself as the most executively dysfunctional person ive ever met.
>>43186626I had it prescribed when I was a teen. I was prescribed like 800mg lol. surprised my doctor never got fired for that
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>>43188115whats it like to be normal
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Life is hard and Im tired. Trans btw
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>>43189904 twinz id post my 5 but im just soooo laaaazy>transbean
>>43191154In fact the hardest part of my day was posting that captcha 40xEveryone gimme monies pls im disable
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