How do I kill the passing delusion? Know I have GD and have been on hrt for years.>Am a mentally ill man.>Just want to hrt rep for life and forget this tranny business.>Still post here, get some hopefuel for being a fakemoder.>will never afford any surgeries.I just want to forget and take my palliative care meds while using tg manga escapism and live the normal life of a miserable man.
>>43175123same...growing my hair out and taking care of it has been a place of piece for me though. i'll always look like a whole ass man, but atleast I have nice hair
>>43175246Hope literally hurts more than having nothing. Knowing that there is a chance ensures that I forever will suffer.
>>43175281Than don't hope, just accept your lot in life and try to make the most out of it.. Shit gets much easier once you stop caring.... But still care for yourself, not caring about your personal hygiene is very male brained..
>>43175322I try to, but sometimes when some rando calls me pretty or cute in manmode, I get relief from depression.>Relapses into delusional hope about getting this or that.>feel immense guilt from being complimented that way as a delusional man.>spiral into depressive hole upon reflecting the present circumstances I live in.
>>43175391same shit happens to me. Its even harder when we man mode because we know we're not setting the expectation for a rando to gender us on how they expect us, but rather based on their own perception.. That always guts me a little, but also makes me feel better knowing that atleast to some people on first glance, Im gender ambiguous.Dont let those comments haunt you, take them as a sign that you don't always appear as a sexpest tranny to ppl.
>>43175943It just hurts knowing that things could be better if I had the means. I got both better and worse lately. I hrt rep on hondose for 6 years, only since last year that I decided to dose properly. I became "cute" or "pretty" to some people and it made me cry and awaken a feeling of sadness, guilt, happiness, and further resentment. I just can't go back on the hondose because it feels good yet grants me the despair born from hope.
