Especially one whose had SRS.>had to change my sex in order to not kms>had to tell my parents and siblings and friends to call me a woman because it hurt to be called a man>only attracted to men even though it was hammered into me my entire life that liking men makes me a fag>only capable of enjoying sex where I'm getting penetrated, the complete opposite of the physiology I was born with>literally went to Thailand to be given a pussy, like the boomer meme>cry because I can't get pregnant even though I was born a boyIs there no end to the embarrassment that is this existence, /tttt/? How do you cope?
>>43179482i dont rly have to cope. bf trooned on me & i dont even care im just in love. find someone you love regardless of gender or sex. love fixes all issues. theres no better feeling than being in a terrible mood & looking at ur partner's smile when they see you. wagm nona.
>>43179482i disagree. it’s probably still less embarrassing than letting yourself get fucked by a bad biological role because you genuinely believe taking tranny pills is ontologically wrong
>>43179567At least refusing to take the tranny pills would've been admirable to normies...
>>43179519Were there any signs that your bf was going to troon out? Was he an exclusive top before? Did you guys ever talk about it before it happened?
>>43179482How's your pussy? I've recently been looking into SRS. If I did get it, I'd only ever go to Bank in Thailand
>>43179482>only attracted to men even though it was hammered into me my entire life that liking men makes me a fag...What? I mean, yes? That's literally what that means? If you only want to fuck men that makes you a homosexual, this is in fact the meaning of the word fagt. Homo
>>43179482You forgot>The news constantly talking about youand >shoes don't fit
>>43180498>all women are homosexuals>t. homochecks out
>>43180485It's really good actually. My body feels normal now and sex is actually fun, meaningful and fulfilling too. I went to Dr. Bank for my SRS coincidentally.>>43180504>shoes don't fitMy feet shrunk two sizes from hrt so although they're above average for a woman they're still within "normal" range...
>>43180712How much did you pay, and how long did you have to try at the lottery? Honestly, SRS scares me. Dilating seems really fucked up to me and I can't imagine doing it my whole life, and the complications really worry me. I don't really mind my dick too much, but I would rather have a vagina. I'm getting FFS soon, though. That's my biggest priority. I'm literally suicidal over my face. But anyway, that's great for you! It's so magical to imagine finally having a vagina, I'm so envious you can just... reach down there and feel a nice smooth surface.
>>43180761Nta but having a vagina is great.Get ffs first, makes sense, i did that. But look into srs after, i dont regret it at all
>>43180883whats so great about it
>>43180761>How much did you pay, and how long did you have to try at the lottery?I think it was like $22,000 in total including travel and hotel and food. I got in just before they resumed the lottery system. Tried twice with the first come first serve system before getting a date.>Honestly, SRS scares me. Dilating seems really fucked up to me and I can't imagine doing it my whole life,One I was healed dilation has become pretty normal. I don't need to do it very often anymore since I get fucked pretty frequently.>and the complications really worry me.Can't really speak to the complications much since I didn't have any, just a lot of pain for awhile.>I don't really mind my dick too much, but I would rather have a vagina. I'm getting FFS soon, though. That's my biggest priority. I'm literally suicidal over my face.I didn't have strong genital dysphoria at first but once I started really passing pretty good it really began making me want to kms. I never once used my dick on someone or stood up to pee or anything like that for my entire life (and never will now, lol)>But anyway, that's great for you! It's so magical to imagine finally having a vagina, I'm so envious you can just... reach down there and feel a nice smooth surface.Tbh it's not smooth beneath the underwear, the vulva has shape and depth to it, but I get what you mean
>>43180712>My feet shrunk two sizes from hrt so although they're above average for a woman they're still within "normal" range...Mine didn't.
>>43180314>Were there any signs that your bf was going to troon out?nope unless you consider having chin length hair a sign?> Was he an exclusive top before?yes & still is. hrt hasnt neutered him yet like it did for me> Did you guys ever talk about it before it happened?literally no sign. he found out i was on it & got weird for a bit then told me it "was something he had talked about with his best friend months ago" then silence. 6 ish weeks ago he asks for a rec to my doctor who gives it out like candy & here we are.idk if this is strange or stereotypical for this sorta scenario but regardless i love him to bits
>>43180893Feels right. Having a vagina feels right, my brain is happy.Psychologically im not trans, im a woman. That was an important step to me. Also can wear tight dresses
>>43180997>I think it was like $22,000Daaamn, that's good, I'm saving up 20k for my FFS next year and it will probably be less than that, so that's definitely doable. A few years from now when I'm past FFS and actually girlmoding and stuff (still a boymoder right now lol), it'll probably be way easier to get that kinda money because I'll have a better job and my bf will have a career by then. > I don't need to do it very often anymore since I get fucked pretty frequentlyThat's a relief. Someone told me recently, too, that it may as well be as big of a deal as having to take estrogen the rest of your life, and to be honest, that makes it a lot easier to reconcile in my mind. Also, I have a bf, so dilation may not be so bad with him around haha. Otherwise, it may as well be a normal vagina because the structure and nerves and everything are all there.>I didn't have anyGood to know it's possible for it to go off without a hitch. Every single time I hear about someone having SRS, it's because there was some problem or they want a revision for something.>once I started really passing pretty good it really began making me want to kmsYeah, like I said, I'm a boymoder, so it's pretty easy to just ignore now, but I have a feeling that the more I transition into womanhood, the more it will matter. My bottom dysphoria went away after I started hormones, I was mostly worried about my outward appearance, but now that I've got FFS on the horizon, it came back.
>>43181073Psychologically and physiologically, you are a homo bottom.With she/her pronouns ;)
Being a transbian is embarrassing too but for different reasons, mostly related to being associated with other transbians.
>>43181126>A few years from now when I'm past FFS and actually girlmoding and stuff (still a boymoder right now lol), it'll probably be way easier to get that kinda money because I'll have a better job and my bf will have a career by then.Fwiw the sooner you start trying in the lottery, the better. If you get in you can figure out things from there.
>>43179482i don't think it's embarrassing that i'm a girl!i needed the vagina since girls are supposed to have one...
>>43180712>My feet shrunk two sizes from hrthonscience
>>43181073>>43181141>In every way except physically, I am a woman.>UWU!
>>43179482Much worse is being a tranny attracted to other trannies
>>43182020It's not embarrassing to be a girl or have a vagina, but it's embarrassing to be a tranny and need to transition and have SRS...
>>43184962how is that embarrassing when it's just a medical situation
>>43184962based, imagine going to men's locker room and everyone finding out you have tits and a pussy...
>>43185036Normies don't see it that way.>>43185050I would probably get raped if that happened...
>>43179482It literally feels so humiliating, bc why do I like being penetrated wtf?!?
>>43185050this happened to me once in a jail..
>>43185681>why do I like being penetrated wtf?!?I get this feeling too. Idk why it happens, it's just so humiliating...
Isn't there a MEFgen for this
>>43188632Its not just penetration, like just being a bottom/sub feels like such a curse by nature?!
>>43185681why is it humiliating to you?
>>43188873It just feels lesser i think? Like literally why does my body want to "submit" to a guy, bc thats basicly what your doing when being penetrated. Bc when im not aroused thats the most off putting idea ever.
>>43179482 How long was your recovery ?
>>43188982how is it submitting?
>>43189056You're letting a guy inside of you your body is literally cursed w a reflex that arches your back and pushes your hips to allow for more depth, a top has the position of power It literally feels like the most shamefull biological flaw ever
>>43189099>reflex that arches your back and pushes your hips to allow for more depth>my hips are moving on their ownwhat are you talking about that's not truethis just sounds like social stigma you've internalisedwe could equally recontextualised being penetrated as encircling the penetrator and extorting tribute
>>43179482>went to Thailand to be given a pussydisgusting the only reason men find you attractive is because you're literally build for anal and you give yourself a literal wound that stinks like shit and nobody wants to fuckwhy?
>>43189254>poopman complaintsnobody cares about you poopman
>>43189129Idk i grew up being told my femaleness was shamefully n should be hidden (especially sexuality) so I associate feminine things w lesser (only applies to myself tho)
>>43189367:( hope you excise that, although we all get taught that, even cis women, so it's a societal struggle
