does anybody else here have both of these miserable illnesses and how are you not going insane every day. >want to be social>but not with anybody that im close to, bc they have enough leverage over me to hurt me if they wanted>somehow feel lonely despite literally having friends i could hang out with easily>only satisfied by 0 stakes low commitment social situations with people i dont know(???)>become easily obsessed over randoms who seem interested in me, learn everything about them and get bored, move onto the next onedo i just kill myself? like what
>>43180605this is exactly like me, im able to cope slightly knowing most people are completely useless and meaningless so being alone doesnt feel that bad anymore>>43180605>feel lonely despite literally having friends i could hang out with easilyi used to have friends too but cut them off because of what i just said
>>43180661>i used to have friends too but cut them off because of what i just saidive literally been having thoughts of the exact same.. my brain is telling me break up with my partner and cut off everyone i know and just fuck off forever. i feel weighed down by them somehow despite having minimal interaction already because of how much i isolate.
>>43180605>>43180661both of these are literally me. i would to be your friend but we both know it’ll never last
>>43180605thats so me ive never been able to be close with anyone
>>43180696>i would to be your friend but we both know it’ll never lastlol i was thinking the same thing though id probably try to be a little strong for people who are like me so ill feel less lonely>>43180693im not saying you should do it (although id probably do it again if i were in your position) but just do whatever you think is best for you
>>43180661>im able to cope slightly knowing most people are completely useless and meaningless so being alone doesnt feel that bad anymore+ only latching onto people that are similar to me instead of anyone that gives me attention, it saves a lot of pain and time and also lets me find more meaningful relationships
>>43180696haha the last person i tried to befrind on 4chan didnt go well.. needless to say its scared me off from revisiting frengen or the likes of adding people off here.
>>43180794what happened? if you want to talk about it
>>43180605This is how I've unknowingly operated all of my adult life and basically all I have left are my parents and those 0 stakes low commitment friends you mention. Idk about your chances but I will rope myself soon there's no way I can live with this kind of personality that's purpose built for recurring pain and loneliness.
>>43180818i was talking to a girl off here and she told me she got sued for stalking someone before and it scared the shit out of me and i just never logged into that account again. idk ive been stalked before so it like made me feel like itd happen again if we continued, and i was too embarassed to explain further so i just abandoned the account.
>>43180884ive done similar thingsjust completely ghosting somebody for something that i didnt like and it ruining my entire perception of them though in your case i think it was more than understandable to do that
>>43180605BPD isn’t something you’re born with, it forms in response to something
>>43180693As someone who is the same way, do not break up with your partner. Do not self-sabotage like this. Things will get better, maybe not great, but still better over time if you force yourself to maintain that relationship
I have avoidance+bdd from aging+depression probably.
>>43180605yeah join the clubgoing to bars I'm not a regular at or nearby towns to be in for a little bit gives me some ephemeral connection to folks I'm not going to get close to.I try to stick to friends, even if it's hard. try to follow what you enjoy, activities or whatever, and see who comes along or becomes regulars in the same spaces you're at.These things tend to work best when you're not trying to get them, as annoying as it sounds.
>>43180605fuck that's literally me. but i need to get diagnosed or else it's stolen valour.
>>43181315i wish you'd post literally any other image as your avatar. anything but ai slop. there's a million sovlfvl manmoder handmade caricatures to choose from.
>>43180605hey BPD isnt an illness go outside faggot you are weak and deserve the harm that comes to you
>>43183945this
>>43182954ai hate is performative btw, if that matters.
