I hate existing, nothing is fun, everything is a chore, idk what i want or what i am or how to ever make any of this better. Taking E was supposed to help clarify this shit, instead it almost makes me more confused than i was before.Ig i just wasnt meant to be a real person no matter what i do or dont do. I wish i wasnt myself, i wish i was a normal person with a real self and actual desires and goals.
>He fell for the estrogen memeHAHAHAH
desu it got better im just retarded for a lot of other reasons still
>>43188379used to be liek that too...not exactly, but kinda...just start drinkin anon, at least you'll have 4h+ of your day spent on feeling nice and comfy then
>>43188688I actually felt so shit today i decided to try alcohol to see i fit helps lol (i basically never drink/this was probably the first time i ever did it of my own volition)Didnt work, it just tasted bad and gave me a slight headache for like half an hour lol.
>>43188379same tbdesu... by most metrics my transition was successful and it's been almost 5 years. i still just lay in bed all day and drag myself through all my financial and biological obligations, living day to day every day.i thought passing was the light at the end of the tunnel and that it would make me want to participate in the world, but no. nothing excites or motivates, no hobby lasts, drugs and alcohol help temporarily but only make things worse ultimately, and antidepressants may as well be sawdust capsules. life really is purgatory i guess
>>43189621Fuck, this will definitely be me in 5 years. I really hope you will find a way out of this purgatory nona
>>43188379sameI thought I was taking e to “be myself”then I realized I don’t have a self
