since cptsd flared up after many years of creeping and delay, nothing has been the same. i'm just watching myself wither away in a way that has never happened before. and yeah, most of my life has been ugly shit and misery, but for a time, transition saved me, because i could be me. and now i realise that it was the only reason for me to keep going. and now i'm afraid it's not enough. so how do you keep going, when you are you and it's unbearable? when everything is just unbearable and you know that nothing can really save you, because the one thing that could have saved you was only prolonging agony?then again, i'm currently so underweight from this, that i might go into cardiac arrest any moment. so maybe it's not even big deal.
For me it's resurrecting from the dead when Judgement Day comes around, by which is meant the complete apocalyptic collapse of society, and then drowning in cis normie cattle blood. Never forget your hate, live for revenge
>>43190606thanks, Mr... <checks notes> ...Hitler?
>>43190741It's Miss Hitler, thanks
>>43190478I'm rooting for you, nona
