>>43193205
You’re going through a second puberty relax bitch your body is changing and it’s freaking you out

>>43193205
calm down and ask yourself: do you want breasts?

>>43193205
>sometimes i like them sometimes they scare me
Detrans just temporarily. You really won't lose any progress, and you won't feel as pressured to keep going through the bad feelings.

I wish I stopped for a little bit just to get my brain back in order.

Also you are porbably transitioning to avoid dealing with trauma in your past

bump cuz I got the same issue

>>43193278
>>43193205
do not listen to this idiot.

>>43193285
I literally said just detrans for like a week just to calm down

Go fuck yourself pink pilling fetish pedophile

>>43193316
cis people do not take hrt long enough to grow boobs

>>43193269
i can’t really tell because my life is not in a stage where boobs would be good at all. i have no irl friends, deadend job, stuck with family so theyd be nothing but a burden at the moment. i think if my life was better and i had local friends to support me i probably would, but i just don’t right now.

>>43193278
thank you, this is probably what i’ll do while i wait to get my shit together unfortunately.

>>43193333
to be fair they arent very big the growth is just 2 weeks in

>>43193246
i just dont want to have to hide them 24/7 even at home

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welcome to guys with breasts! you will learn to become very creative with your wardrobe to hide them.
Did I try to detrans twice for multiple months on end only to relapse on estrogen on a whim? Most definitely.
Will I pass? Absolutely not.
Do I have self-destructive tendencies? No doubt.
Have I accepted that I have apparently absolutely zero control over my actions? M-hmmmm
Being a guy with boobs is fucking terrible. Don't be a retard like me, don't be a guy with boobs!

>>43193686
Factual

>>43193699
could you elaborate on you theory that this has something to do with escaping trauma? like, pretty please O.O

>>43193748
Im sleepy. I think I started HRT cuz my mom made me hate being a male and now I probably subconsciously am trying to avoid being a male. I think that you won't feel satisfied with yourself either way until you figure out why ur actually doing it

>>43193785
Makes sense thx!

>>43193785
well what do you even do? you already hate being male, that aspect of yourself is already cemented. what do you plan going forward?

>>43193686
are you not just trans and repressing, then? like, do you wish for your masculinity BACK or are you just scared of being out as a trans woman?

>>43193835
Well I did hrt for two years and then got in a relationship with an afab and felt like HRT would get in the way of it so I stopped. And lots of other reasons

I don't know what the best choice is. Definitely don't do it if you feel like you have to hide it. Only do hrt if you're proud enough of it to tell others imo

>>43193851
the part that sucks is that i theoretically am proud to tell others (like online friends and stuff i’m out to, and some irls who moved) but i dont have a local support group to be out to, my conditions just dont work for it to be a good choice YET

i relate to resenting maleness/male traits because of how i was raised but ive had relationships with cis women and i have no real interest unless they treat me like a woman anyways

>>43193835
>like, do you wish for your masculinity BACK
I'm a gay bro at heart I just have this desire to take estrogen. Like, of course I wish I hadn't boobs and I'm saving up for a mastectomy, but I wanna keep taking estrogen throughout.
I've never seen an AMAB on HRT, who has gotten light FFS + a mastectomy, so I wanna be the first to do it cause I think I'm gonna look and AGE absolutely stinkin cool.

>>43193866
I relate to all of this and still detransed. So idk

>>43193871
i just dont value romantic relationships much or at all, so i cant imagine detransing for that reason specifically… idk, it would feel like that person doesnt love me for me

>>43193876
Oh interesting. I think I realized I value romantic relationships significantly and would change anything about myself just to have that kind of relationship

>>43193343
okay you're just scared of the social consequences. keep taking hormones and figure out how you're going to deal with the fact that female hormones cause you to become female.
my god why do people begin this without realizing they'll have to deal with this.
>>43193636
you don't have to hide them literally every woman has boobs.

>>43194008
sorry i just realized im getting older and wanted to get a slight headstart with hormones and didnt expect my boobs to grow so quickly, i was hoping for other changes to come first, or something and to be prepared to deal with the consequences by the time they start growing. sadly they were too quick and ill probably have to stop now until im ready


and yeah, but i dont have my own place to live and dont want to come out to family

>>43193870
you're not the first to think this and you won't be the last but the reason i think people dont do it is because they end up getting ffs and realising they are used to having boobs now and its much easier to just be a trans woman than it is to now cut your boobs off and be a "man" with a womans face who basically wants to act and be treated like a woman anyway. like you're just a tranny you're just a bit scared. you'll get used to it

t. detransed for 2 years because of booba and now just kinda indifferent to them and want to just get ffs.

>>43194150
im just sad im such a coward lol, i share the same sentiment as you

>>43194150
no I identify as an aap fujo mtftm fakepoon gayden
>>43194208
this is not me i do not share this person's sentiment

I'm the same, worried about breast growth making me look freakish. But figure I might as well try since I already know I don't want to be a man, and the clock is ticking, don't wanna look back and wonder about what could have been.

>>43193205
I cant help you too much either nona but im just here to say that yeah this is relatable for me as well. Sometimes i really like them a lot, and sometimes they make me anxious/scare me a bit.

Idk if its actual dysphoria or its just uncomfortable because i gotta get used to it first like >>43193246 mentioned.

ill be wishing you the best and hope you figure it out soon <3

>>43193870
Im kinda like this too, tho i wouldnt call myself a "gay bro at heart" but whenever i get more weirded out at my breast growth i still think getting a masectomy but staying on E might be more likely for me than a full on detrans still lol. So ig MtTheyfab perhaps.

Altho like >>43194150 said i might just get used to having boobs anyway and then just kinda be indifferent to them lol. In fact this is the outcome i hope for the most desu, getting to be a mostly normal (trans) woman and just not super focused on breasts. Since i sometimes seem to like em anyways this might be the most likely outcome.

Altho this isnt really helping my current constant mental anguish about whether or not taking E is actually a mistake and i might be faketrans/cis fr and hate having breasts...

How did you manage to get over it >>43194150 ? If im gonna end up like u anyways (which im kinda hoping i will) do you have any tips to make it happen faster XD?

>>43194259
I also have this "might as well" feeling a bit too. For the most part i seem to like E more than T, sometimes i even like my current breast growth.

And fuck it, i already dont quite have a male chest anymore anyways/would already need surgery to get one back. So might as well let it grow some more before i make a decision since i might end up liking it anyways lol.

And also like u i already sometimes look back and wonder if i had been better off if i started sooner. I also dont wanna look back on rn and curse myself for not sticking with it.

im the same way. i wish boobs were normalized on fem twinks. ive transed and detransed so many times over this. my best advice is to stay on e but take the a lower dose. try to find the highest dose you can take without breast growth. you can take a serm too. unlike what people say, e is not actually all or nothing, a little can help you without breasts growth. if you take oral e you can also raise your shbg which acts as a natural antiandrogen. try to raise your shbg as high as you can naturally without taking an aa. this way your natural t will block your breasts, but your free t will still be low. if you take an aa your t will be crushed and you will grow boobs faster without actually feminizing because t blocks e in the breasts. so if you take low dose e alone it will drop your total t without crushing it and if you take it orally it will pump up your shbg having a stronger aa effect on free t which is the one that matters. ideally this gets you into a state where you enjoy a high e level, low t level, and crushed free t, without boobs.
also make sure you are always taking dutasteride.

>>43195768
dht binds to shbg much higher affinity than t, so when you crush your dht with dutasteride, not only are you eliminating the most masculine hormone, you are also freeing up more shbg to bind to t.
also, use an estriol cream too. you need as much e as you can get on your skin topically. if you have low t and also not enough e, then you can have lower elastin and collagen and your skin will suffer. estriol cream helps with that without having to raise your overall e level and risk boobs growth.