what caused you to stop repressing your homosexuality or transness?
being "transgender" is just repressing your homosexuality
i was 21 and i was like damn nigga im a gay ass gay man adult and im in the closet? so i got open about being gay but refused sex for four years until last year
money
I got divorced then had a rebound girlfriend who was so shitty I decided to finally act on my bisexuality. Turns out I do prefer men
>>43194860(troon 13-17, 1 year rep, all pre hrt)after anamaxxing a tonne i realised it made me cuter, and with a bit of anglefrauding that i could actually make it as a girl, so i just stayed thin, acclimated to myself, started wearing makeup, told everyone i knew (i met new friends when i was repping) and just became a girl :pi kinda miss that initial feeling but its now its just me being a happy girl instead a depressed repperalthough right now im not so happy as i had to speak to my quite mean mother(இ﹏இ`｡)
>>43195102>(troon 13-17, 1 year rep, all pre hrt)>after anamaxxing a tonne i realised it made me cuter, and with a bit of anglefrauding that i could actually make it as a girl, so i just stayed thin, acclimated to myself, started wearing makeup, told everyone i knew (i met new friends when i was repping) and just became a girl :p>i kinda miss that initial feeling but its now its just me being a happy girl instead a depressed repper>although right now im not so happy as i had to speak to my quite mean mother(இ﹏இ`｡)
>>43194860by the time i turned 18, repping had destroyed my body through self harm and eating disorders from fear and disgust at male development. i knew if i kept living like that as an adult i was gonna end up royally fucked up, and probably dead before 30 either by my own hand or organ failure, so i didn't have a choice really. Repping the way I did wasn't living, just melancholically going through the motions while slowly dying. I only stopped repping because the alternative was inevitable death.
>>43194860I was told by everyone in my life i was trans in the span of about a month
>>43195133speaking of reppers
I was such a compliant child that asked for nothing and was often unable to speak unless spoken to. There wasn't a chance in hell I'd be able to express transness to my parents until I knew explicitly about its existence, which upon learning I trooned immediately at 16. I did try to muster a generic 'cry for help' at the beginning of puberty but apparently an eating disorder culminating in a complete crash out with 'I wanna die' screaming isn't enough for my parents to think I needed a mental health check, even though they promised at the time to help calm me down...I didn't know boys were allowed to be with other boys for the longest time and assumed the gay feelings were present in everyone. I think it way a mixture of hearing about the gays leading up to the Obergefell v. Hodges case and getting recommended my first movie with homosexuals(Blue is the warmest color) on one of those 'streaming sites' during the few weeks a year I had internet, that led to it finally clicking.
>>43195203Can you give context?? How tf did that happen
i was an extreme people pleaser growing up in a religious environment so i wasnt really exposed to what being trans was really other than a dated stereotype. i knew since i was a kid i wanted to be a girl but my parents put me into every male centric program possible so instead of dreaming of transitioning i just dreamed of going far away from everyone i ever knew and starting over, but as i got to be an older teenager i was able to rationalize my feelings more and was repressing in a more traditional sense as i had a girlfriend who i really just saw as my closest friend in the world and didn’t think she’d accept me if i transitioned. after we broke up i was aimless in life for maybe 6 months, fully self isolating before realizing that transitioning is what i really needed to become the best version of myself and anything else would be stagnation or lead me to suicide. now i’ve been transitioning for 2.5 years and even though im kinda jaded about being trans and i wont look in mirrors i now have a social life and purpose which keep me from suicide
>>43194860stopped being a normie and denied the goy
