just to clear, uh, i come in peace. i started using that site in ~june 2022 i think, at the age of 16. so that's probably a lot longer than most of the people on there today. anyway, being the autistic vulnerable retard i was, i got engaged with it pretty quickly and embraced the whole tranny-hating thing. basically posted there all day long during my later years of high school lol.i'll skip over a shit ton of stupid (and frankly, embarrassing) details but i don't think it had positive effects on my mental state. now i'm 20 and i feel completely defeated by the world. i can't bring myself to radiate vehement anger like i used to. probably didn't help that i got put on risperdal for a while as well. and if you haven't figured it out by now... i'm very likely a repping tranny myself. from the handful of people on there that i spoke to directly (who were present during that time period), it's an unusually common phenomenon. but i don't really know what causes it... i thought it was all linear, that'd i'd be a skinhead chud later in life. sorry for the rambling i'm not the best at organizing my thoughts about silly shit like this
me lol
>>43206798the closest i had to a chud phase was thinking anti sjw yters were funny at age 11 (2018)
>>43206798i'm peace
get a therapist or dr or someone to talk to about this.is kinda in case you would sui otherwise.if the thoughts get worse, it would be better to start transitioning sooner rather than latert. i see u in me a few years ago
out of the frying pan and into the fire lol
>>43206798trans fixation whether you "hate them" or not is definitely the whole subset of people that transition, aka if you are a trans obsessed chud, you are a repressor, cis people aren't trans obsessed
>>43206798this makes me so happy, cus youre a giga lateshit now. shouldve been less moidbrained and trooned out younger lol
>>43206882i will look into that. i've always been extremely hostile towards all that mental health bullshit - partially because it was instilled by my parents that i just needed to get over it, and if i didn't it was "natural selection". at the very least i'm glad i don't hurt anyone except myself these days. i am in no position to talk shit about anybody. it still does sting though, how it all went down. at least if i trooned out earlier it would be clear-cut and reasonable. my past is all a bunch of mangled bullshit>>43206912well i thought they were funny to dunk on at the time. now i do sorta realize they're two sides of the same coin (which is parental neglect, mental illness, and just bad luck). but at least, well, you can be a tranny and contribute to the world. the other side merely takes and leeches. idk>>43206987the funny thing is that this isn't really a novel or new idea in my mind, i was considering it during late 2023 lmao. "you reap what you sow"
>>43206912The only people I've known who used sharty were literally what you just described, lol. Transgirls who hate and are more obsessed with trannies than any /pol/ user I've met.
I'm glad I was in the last generation that wasn't mind raped by the internet>t. 1998
>>43207059shouldnt you be married or something by now unc?
>>43207074Hahaaaaaaa yeah I guess idk. I've hardly had been in a relationship But at least I didn't grow up barraged by propaganda that corrupted my foundation of knowing what's truth vs whats not
>>43207059hop off unc.its bedtime.you got work at 6am.
>>43206798I'm FTM, have been before the invention of the sharty, and I still post there and make OC
>>43207083srsly?? not even as a teenager? i had a gf as a teenager and i dont even like girls lol
>>43207092Nuh uh I live in my car and don't work
>>43207098pooner thinks shes a chud im crying lol
>>43207100Yeah I grew up thinking sex was selfish and vain and should be avoided, which lead me to never even think about having a relationship And now I'm almost 30 and struggle to not only connect with people, but also don't even understand what people I'm attracted toLet this be a lesson to you anons: just accept yourself and your feelings even if you think they're gross or uncomfy. Stuffing it down literally will never work ever and can easily fuck up your entire life
>>43207098Dood! I'm one of the bois like you!!
>>43207098I love gemmers. Thank you for your service poon goon
>>43207118You can just as easily accept yourself and follow your feelings and end in the exact same boatt. happened to me
>>43207584Oh well that's horrible news
>>43207017>i've always been extremely hostile towards all that mental health bullshitDon't view seeing a therapist as mental health. Just engage with therapy as though you're speaking into a journal. I too have been hostile towards mental health quacks but if you don't treat it like you're recording a journal. Just get off your chest whatever horrible shit has happened to you, and then move on. I had been through a surprising amount of trauma as a kid, and I didn't realize just how much there was and how it had affected me until I started talking with my therapist a couple years ago. Once I was done talking out what happened, I didn't feel the need for a therapist anymore. I never took pills aside from HRT, I never felt like my therapist was pumping me for money, and i was done in less than one year of monthly sessions.Oh and if you're repping, take your pills Alice. The dysphoria never goes away>t. 32 yo unc
>>43206798>i can't bring myself to radiate vehement anger like i used to.Because it's not normal and you've likely passed some sort of emotional event horizon. So much of the Internet and culture war bullshit is geared to radicalize you and a core component of radicalization is to train people to be antisocial against "the outgroups." Radical politics fail because they are inherently inhuman and more often than not people break out of the programming if they can't be constantly immersed. If you're going through all this at 20 you've got your whole life ahead of you, like the other anons said go to therapy.
>>43206798i use the sharty and im not a chud at all desu, but there are gems in the sea of neutralpliers that make me laughsad they get so mad at da troonz, but some of the 'ru ones are kinda annoying in a underage or mentally stunted type way igi like impjak the most
>>43206798yeah similar sorta path i went down hating trannies with my whole heart at age 15 starting hrt age 19 (two months ago) . the time of my life i was on sharty was probably the most miserable and bitter id ever been
>>43206849you kids are making me feel ancient
>>43206987>gigalateshit>20
>>43206798I hope you suffer for the rest of ur life lil zoombro
>>43208316fair enough. but at the same time i feel like all of the "dysphoria" i have is a bunch of bullshit. like i'm just wanting to join the "club". i don't want to age like a man and continue masculinizing, but i wouldn't kill myself if i couldn't get hrt. i genuinely have no idea what i am anymore. before i made this thread i sometimes LARPed as a troon on here because it made me feel more comfortable. i wouldn't consider it a fetish or anything... but i do think i'd be happier as a woman. im sick of trying to overcompensate by looking tough ig. doesn't help that my father was always at work growing up.>>43208356will do. to be honest (and i likely mentioned this earlier) i do have diagnosed mild autism so idk if i'm just delusional and this is all in my head. it has been on the backburner ever since i was 17 ig (which is when i really started caring about sexual stuff at all)>>43209449hope you're better now>>43209644if i must suffer i will make sure it is only inflicted upon myself if i cannot make myself happy i want to make other people happyi feel like i'm obligated to give others the joy/happiness that i never got.
>>43209705therapy first, but:>i don't want to age like a man and continue masculinizingyou can tell your doctors that you are still figuring it out but at least want to stop mascinulizing, then going the non binary route at first and trying that helped me at least stop the mascinulization dysphoria. they may give you either low dose estrogen or a SERM like raloxifene(tamoxifene is bad). the NB stuff is more from specialist clinics and family medicine drs(or they will at least write a refferal for you to said clinics) are better about this if you want to at least slow down your mascinulization.>must suffer>make other people happytherapy
>>43206798oh my god its literally just forums who cares I use both
>>43210611raloxifene does nothing just take hrt already
>>43206798I posted on the sharty semi-frequently a few years back when I was a teenage boymoder loser with nothing better to do. My posts were mostly just fun and whimsical thoughbeit, so I don't feel bad about it or anything. I only stopped because it got kinda boring.It's just a shitty meme imageboard it's not rlly a big deal unless you were like actually doxxing people o algo
>>43206798yeah you're trans, order estrogen and start thinking about names
>>43206798Sharty made me like trannies more
>>43206849>11 at 2018just lol
>>43207059lol trv based zillenial
according to all the 15 year olds in the thread im an ANCIENT OLD UNC and posted on the original /qa/. i never went to the sharty because actually caring that much is retarded
>>43206798I have autism
>>43206798making fun of trannies and demonizing them was instrumental to repping. it kept the thoughts of trooning out at bay, but it didn't make me any less dysphoric, and i was still apalled every time i looked in the mirror and daydreamed about being born a woman every now and then. i'm very ashamed of it now, but it's clear i still have a lot of internalized shit from back then.seeing sharty bait just makes me feel pity/sad now. i see a younger, scared little me in them. when they go 'YWNBAW', they're telling it to themselves.
>>43212971>people who were 11 in 2018 are legal adults nowHoly shit
>>43206798you are forgiven anon!
>>43206798>16 in 2022>not underageno... it can't be...
I was a bit of a chud for a long time and now I am a tranny too, I think its somewhat common. If you let it happen, it gets better. Your only 20 that's a fine age to start this stuff, you got pretty lucky.
>>43209705>i want to make other people happySo far all you've done is the opposite. I believe whether you choose to be a basvd chdv or a sneedhon troon makes no difference in terms of your negative impact on the world
>>43206798I think there are more current sharty users than former desu
>>43207059I'm '92 and completely throughoutly raped by the internet althoughbeit
Former sharty admin Kuz describing the it as "a site with a large trans minority userbase"
>>43215643fuck i haven't heard that name in years, shit takes me back
>>43209705>but at the same time i feel like all of the "dysphoria" i have is a bunch of bullshit. like i'm just wanting to join the "club".My advice then would be to separate the question of identity from it. If you're concerned you're falling into some weird peer pressure trap, then remove yourself as a peer and reevaluate. How would you want to look, act, feel, without anyone else around? In the sense that if the possible judgements of what other people would think about it (both positive and negative) were not a factor, how would you want to dress, or look physically, or feel internally?When it comes to transition it's sort of a sliding scale...that's why there's boymoders, manmoders, passoids, twinkhons, gigahons, cis hrt femboys, etc. When you see people describe themselves as such they're just deciding for themselves what level of social transition they're comfortable with in conjunction with how they choose to medicalize themselves. They're all lumped together as "trannies" but it's actually a big misnomer since I think every individual has their own ideas about how they want to present and how they view their existence. So I would suggest stripping out the concept of how you "should" or "shouldnt" be for others, and focus inward on how you want to live for yourself.When I was grappling with my own decision about how to treat my dysphoria, I boiled it alllll down to one simple question: do I want the physical and mental effects of lowered testosterone and increased estrogen? I considered the pros and cons of it, and decided to jump in. When I was living to accommodate the judgments of others, I was always miserable. When I started living my life for me, and started doing the things I wanted for myself without expectation of reward or punishment, I found peace.
>>43216042I was actually thinking about this sliding scale yesterday, for me I kind of think everyone has like a biological limit that will cap them at one category, and it's likely best to make peace with which category you can actually get to. Being a passoid is out of the cards for me, I think we max effort I can be a twinkhon, so I've accepted that fate.
>>43216281Are you OP? You can transition at 20 and become a passoid. Idk what you're starting at but it's not unheard of. And twinkhon status is pretty good results too anyways>t. started at 30 and will manmode for life
I'm not a knuckle dragging retard so no
>>43206798That's really embarasing. At least you shook it off but Jesus what makes someone at 16 allow the internet to fill their brain with hatred and rot rather than fucking going outside and breathing fresh air
