>>43212638
he would smell so good when i hugged him

Tell him this.

>>43212821
I cant i think he hates me now his girlfriend broke up with him a little before my mom died and then his new one was rly right wing then he started living with my other sibling and he started to repost a ton of posts about trannys

it was so weird to see the 180... i cant emphasize enough how close we were he'd share really personal problems to me .. we would dropped acid together and wed talk for hours ... wed always glaze eachother so much god he was too good for me

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>>43212638
god, same. mine was and still is the person i idolize the most in the whole world, but in the span of a year he turned into a chuddy evangelical convert. whatever chance i had of ever girlmoding was snuffed out just like that, since no amount of dysphoria could break me as hard as losing him would.

>>43212970
you are describing the exact same experience i had
im so sorry alice i hope ur brother will love you again one day
after every night wed spend together when it was late and hed finally go back down the stairs to sleep
id always fantasize about what itd be like if he came up to me and started to touch my body and take me.. how id react... what things hed say to me.... he was much stronger and taller than me... he had such a handsome face.. god i miss my brother so much

>>43213030
god you're literally me

>>43213155
i wouldve let him rape me whenever he wanted desu i wanted him to take advantage of me when i was drunk or high with him so bad
One time i got to stay with him when he was living in another state in a studio apartment. the whole room smelt like him and id sleep on the floor in a sleeping bag next to his bed. He showed me all around the the city and took me to restaurants and introduced me to his friends.
i would do anything for him, i ended up giving him tons of money for different things throughout over the last couple years we were close since he was always broke
he was just so cool.. and funny.. i loved to laugh at all his jokes.. and i loved how happy it made him when i complimented him.. he would tell me how i was the only one in the family he was this closed to, that he was so happy to be the one in our family that got to be closed to and liked by me... he told me he didnt even see me as trans, that he just saw me as a woman..

le sigh...

>>43213298
mine's a lot more adjusted than me so more often than not it was him spending a lot of money on me, even when i told him over and over to stop. he's practically my father figure desu. he's so big, responsible and kind... i wish i'd been born closer to his age so i could've been closer to him like you.

>>43213422
your brother sounds like hed make great husband
when did you find out that you had feelings for him?

>>43213489
it DOES make him a great husband... he's TAKEN... i probably began around 15, but i had a late puberty so all my 'crushes' before then only manifested as obsessive adoration, which i've done as early as i can remember for him. every time i see him it makes my month. my type is a carbon copy of him.

>>43213575
that makes sense.. did you ever get the privilege of any 'intimate' moments between you two..

i think im similar i think he was one of my earliest experiences with attraction.. i remember being at the river with him when he was shirtless i started imagining him being naked and on top of me... it was a very shocking and i was too young to understand it at all.. it was so shocking that i still remember it after all this time.. i miss when he'd carry me around, the fact ill never experience him bridal carrying me makes me so depressed

>>43213676
>'intimate' moments between you two
not sensually... but he found me crying during what i'd later recognize as one of my first dysphoric episodes as a child and spent like an hour consoling me. probably the most vulnerable i've ever been with anybody. since then i've only really felt comfortable around him or people that remind of him.

>>43213738
thats a cute story alice
i will pray for you
i will pray that one day your brother divorces his wife and learns to love his sister

>>43213755
i hope yours leaves his chud girlfriend and goes for the incestuous tranny sister instead <3

>>43213772
in my fantasies he calls me he tells mme how much he misses me and begs to see me in person
when hed arrive and id open my door he'd embrace me and keep me there hed slowly move his hands across my body
wed start to breath heavier and hed grab me harder and id moan for him
he'd kiss me and tell me that hes alwsys wanted me that he cant take it anymore
hed get aggressive and push me down and take my body himself id tell him "i lovr you" over and over when he finishes inside me
god i hate my tranny life

>>43213821
sorry i cant type ive had a lot to drink tonight

>>43213821
i want him to take me on a real date i want him to love me and hold my hand from across the table.. i want him to hold me at night and go camping with me again but as lovers this time
i miss him so bad i dont care that i lost all the rest of my family but i care so much about him

>>43213840
honestly i want him to beat me too i want him to be angry at me for letting him touch the tranny hes related too

>>43212638
Straight cis man here.

>and he moved in with my sister he completely chudded out
>No man will ever take care of me
>I wish i coudlve stayed with my brother for ever
I have GOOD NEWS for you.

>>43212883
>i think he hates me now his girlfriend broke up with him a little before my mom died and then his new one was rly right wing then he started living with my other sibling and he started to repost a ton of posts about trannys
1) YOUR BROTHER DOESN'T HATE YOU. He 100% changed his PUBLIC political position as a form of REVENGE against his ex-gf. I'd bet my life on it.
The reason is simple: his ex girlfriend was left-leaning, as most women are (unless they're married to a right wing man or have rich parents who are rw). So as a way to "punish her", he now SAYS PUBLICLY ONLINE things that would PISS HER OFF if she saw them. It's a very petty but understandable form of backlash and you'll probably SEE IT in other people who were left disgrunted after getting badly broken up.
And his other sibiling as expected, either understood this and followed allow with it knowing it's his way of venting, or genuinely shares those views (which I honest seriously doubt, otherwise that sibiling would have had a problem with YOU coming out as trans before this).
Eventually his anger will fade out.
2) Right wing parties in the West have been attacking trannies for a few years because it's POLITICALLY EFFECTIVE given they're a small minority of the population and that a lot people find them funny or, in the case of many parents, fear their kids might turn into them in the future.
This DOES NOT MEAN your brother hates trans people. It's just trans bashing is the biggest current ATTACK VECTOR in right wing parties' discourses after maybe illegal immigration.
To put it simply, right wing speeches against trans people are the current fad. Once it gets replaced by the next thing no right winger will care about it.

>>43213821
that's hot... mine are a bit much...
i like to imagine being in bed with him. clothed while i'm partly undressed, and for one reason or another he's examining my frail body and all the cuts and scars on it, very very closely, talking about how everything's gonna be okay now. his big hands wrap around my small wrists, and i can feel the warmth of his huge body against mine, cold and weak. and i can only shiver in shame and relief, whimpering and struggling to breathe as he comforts me...
i hate it too
i wish I had something to drink!

>>43213898
(Cont)
3) GO TELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW and emphasize how much you want to go back to being such amazing bros together.
IT WILL WORK OUT! And do you know why? Because FAMILY BONDS + GOOD EXPERIENCES > EVERYTHING.

>it was so weird to see the 180... i cant emphasize enough how close we were he'd share really personal problems to me .. we would dropped acid together and wed talk for hours ... wed always glaze eachother so much god he was too good for me
He was (of course) willing to BREAK THE LAW with you. Do you seriously think he would NOT be willing to change his PUBLIC POLITICAL STANCE, or at the very least CONFESS to you his public tranny mockery is just an ACT!?
He's your dear brother, of course he loves you! And all it takes is that you REMIND HIM of it.

P.S. STOP WASTING YOUR TIME, GO CALL HIM ASAP! And ideally also arrange a personal meeting with him.
Men are very prone to BOTTLE UP our feelings and we need some degree of PRIVACY to express them fully! This is why it's far preferable if you can see each other in person and in private WITHOUT ANYONE ELSE THERE, so he's more likely to be 100% HONEST on the spot.

If I could send you a virtual hug through the internet I would. That's how much I want both of you to be happy.

>>43213898
>>43213966
i have to go to bed soon but i wanted to thsnk you for such a thought out response before the thread disappears i will earnestly consider whst you said and i think you're right about a lot of it

>>43213961
this sounds amazing now i have to think about my brother examining my scars like that :drool:

>>43214152
i was worried you'd be grossed out but i guess having a buncha scars comes with the incestuous proclivities

>>43214187
most trannies on this board either dont hsve them or will hsve them :p
dont worry plenty of men love them because they get to feel like savior when they date you

>>43214227
im retarded i meant eithrr have them or will have them
the screen on my phone is busted so i cant type